must sembelih babi tonight.
oosh oosh.
amitabha

shoutouts to myself

BIG SIGHS.

well, i am contented
but there'll be times
i couldn't help
but to sigh.
feeling so lost.
so many choices to make
so little time

i'm never good in making decision
nor an independent decision- maker
for all i know,
i'll gather bits of advices from all sources
and i'll make my final decision based on what the majority says,
most of the time.

but then again,
maybe it's time to grow up
i do not want a life based on what others choose for me,
or what the majority chose
it's my own life i'm talking about
and in life, it is all about choices we make
and how the direction of our lives comes down to the choices we choose
it doesn't matter if i make the wrong choice today,
so long as it's a choice i choose to make, and it's what i wanted
there's no right or wrong

guess am better off to bed now.

thank you god for the beautiful life i am blessed with when all i asked for was to live.
*hands clasped in prayer, looking at the full moon.. slowly, transforming into a werewolf, howling. woooooooooo ahhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

suddenly feel like shouting out loud saying; yehaaaaaaa

YEHAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

LOL.

don't wanna sound so emo anymore,
what's past, already past.
what's yet to happen, still anticipated for the yet-to happen to happen
and guess how i feel today?
it feels as if i'm carrying a 10kg bomb in my stomach, waiting to explode anytime.
sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo in PAIN.
sighs.
not sigh, i mean

YEHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

xD