Self talk on my Confessions

Dear 2010, Night
I'm a pathetic person.
Discontented daughter, girlfriend, friend, sister, student & so forth.
I failed to be a filial daughter, a pain in the ass girlfriend & most of all, I disappointed many as a friend.
Self pity has always been my favorite game for many years.
I seek for perfection eventhough I'm aware such thing never does exist.
I wana be the best in things I do & will not settle being the second best, ego consumes me.
But procrastination is what I do best.
I have the vision of what I wana achieve, but too often than not; I do not walk the talk.
I blame the lazy hormones in me, to which I have no self discipline & not putting 100% efforts, but yet I hoped for miracles, things to work out as planned.
I'm a hypocrites.
I chickened out during presentations & speaking is my weakness.
Complaining is what I do best & I'm a self minded person.
I want my wants and not needs to be satisfied or I would end up getting so frustrated.
What a horrible monster I've become!
I feel low of myself sometimes.
I secretly expect my boyfriend to understand me & pay all the attention solely to myself but I never try to live in his shoes.
I suffered from long distance relationship knowing I'll be alone & that feelings alone, kill me.

Goodbye, 2010!

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Dear 2011, Day
Too much of my bad sides, somehow I hesitated to convince myself I'm good at something at least.
For once, I have the heart for people & I believe humans are good at nature.
When I really want something so badly, I give my heart & soul into it. & giving up never exist in my dictionary.
Passionate. Sincere & naive to some.
Ohh, did I mention I might be one of the most perasan woman you will ever meet?
I'm just proud of what I have & confidence with what I do.
Annoying much?
That brings out the best in me, I guess.
I'm all hyped up.
Very optimistic
& lame if you would call that for being blessed with the opportunity to wake up in the morning the next day, smiling to myself & having a word with God as lame, then I don't mind you calling me that. :D
Sometimes I feel, I was born lucky. I'm blessed with many Lucky Stars that constantly be by my side & help me out when I needed them most, without even have to ask.
One of the brightest & precious of them all would definitely be the love of my life. Heh. Sounded so corny, I know..
But he being the special one, made me learn to appreciate life even more.
To learn about growing ups, heartbreaks, appreciations, commitments, mistakes made, responsibilities & so much more. But most of all, it's about life long experiences that I believe I'll never get a better Guru out there to teach me lifetime long.
I feel blessed. Heh
& never would I wana trade for a better life than the one I'm currently having with such a lovely family.
I spell Perfecto.
& I welcome 2011 with positive vibrants in mind.

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Dear Santa,
if you do exist I hope to see a better world living together in harmony.
No hatred but only love.

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year. Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!



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When too much of studying, drives a person.. no. two, three persons going cuckoo in the library. LOL

& so i finally got the green light to post this video up.. check it out. ;D :D

on a boring day like today, at least there's something to laugh at & not all studies and sleep nie. it'll be really dull. need to seek for more entertainment like this, to ease off any unnecessary bad stress xD

Take time to read..

Life is made up of years that mean nothing and moments that mean it all.
You're born, you die, and in between you make a lot of mistakes.
Have you ever heard a song from so long ago with so many memories tied to it that it made you cry?
And didn't you wish that you could go back into time when everything seemed so much simpler and carefree?
Those are songs that are the soundtrack of our lives..
the ones that bring back childhood memories, best friends, first love, first heartbreak.. the memories.
Every new day is another chance to change your life.
The hardest years in life are those between ten and seventy.
The times in life, that seems to be the worst, always turn out for the best!
Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.
Take chances. Tell the truth. Date someone totally wrong for you.
Say no. Spend all your cash! Fall in love.
Get to know someone random. Be random.
Say I love you. Sing out loud. Laugh at a stupid joke.
Cry. Get revenge. Apologize.
Tell someone how much they mean to you.
Tell the asshole what you feel.
Let someone know what they're missing.
Laugh til your stomach hurts.
LIVE LIFE!
If you can't solve it, it isn't a problem - it's reality.
And sometimes reality is the hardest thing to understand and the thing that takes the longest to realize.
But once it hits you in the face you'll never forget it.
It will always be there in your memories and sometimes that is the best way to look at it.
Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.
Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have or could have had.
No one waits forever.
Sometimes the littlest thing in life changes something forever and there will be times when you wish you can go back to how things used to be but you just can't because things have changed so much.
You only live once, so do everything twice.
In your life, you meet people.
Some you never think about again.
Some, you wonder what happened to them.
There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you.
And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do.

There are no mistakes in life, only lessons.
The greatest risk in life is not taking one.
Tomorrow is a blank page, just waiting to be filled with your dreams..
All you have to do is be yourself and live the story of your own unique life.
Be proud. Be confident. And most of all be happy.
The journey in between what you once were and who you are now becoming is where the dance of life really takes place.
Live with intention. Walk to the edge. Listen hard.
Practice wellness. Play with abandon. Laugh.
Choose with no regret. Continue to learn. Appreciate your friends.
Do what you love. Live as if this is all there is.
I wanted a perfect ending.
Now I've learned the hard way that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, or end.
Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's to happen next.

There's a point in life when you start to realize who matter; who never did; and who always will.
In life God doesn't give you the people you want, instead He gives you the people you need.
To teach you, to hurt you, to love you, and make you exactly the way you should be.
Don't fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things.
The saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have.

Rock bottom is good solid ground, and a dead end street is just a place to turn around.
Cherish your yesterdays and dream your tomorrows,
but most importantly, don't forget to live your today's.
Sometimes you gotta stop and remember that your not gonna live forever.
Be young, think smart, stay true and just follow your heart.
Half of life is fucking up - the other half is dealing with it.
Every story has an end, but in life every ending is just a new beginning.
Somewhere along the course of life,
you learn about yourself and realize there should never be regrets,
only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made.
Eventually all the pieces will fall into place, until then..
laugh at the confusion, live for the moment and know that everything happens for a reason.
So I'm just thinking about how much I don't want my life to be boring.
There is so much I want to do and so many places I want to go - but I don't really think it's ever gonna happen.
I just don't wanna be one of those people who work somewhere they hate or live somewhere they don't want to live.
But I feel like I'm gonna live here forever and not get a chance to see everything I want to see.
I feel like my dreams are to unrealistic.
Someone asked me, the other day,
that if I could change five things about my life, what would I change?
My answer: nothing. this is who I am, who I'm meant to be.
I love being me; even when I'm feeling crappy and I hate myself
I wouldn't change a thing.

The hardest part of life is having to let go of your fears,
and facing the facts: you can't always get what you want,
life isn't a box of chocolates, and your favorite TV series will always have a crappy ending.
When life locks you in your room, simply go out the window.
Once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale.
As time goes by, life has a way of rearranging itself.
People enter your life, and inevitably, they leave as well.
Things have a tendency to happen that can turn your world upside down.
You’ll come to realize eventually, that even though things are different, you are as well.
Life isn't about keeping score.
It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated,
are dating, or haven't dated at all.
It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you.
It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school.
In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not.
Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are.
Life just isn't about that.
But life is about who you love and who you hurt.
It's about how you feel about yourself.
It's about trust, happiness, and compassion.
Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence.
It's about what you say and what you mean.
It's about seeing people for who they are and not what they have.
Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise.
These choices are what life's about.
We can never turn back the pages of time, though we may wish to relive a happy moment,
or say goodbye just one last time,
we never can, because the sands of time continue to fall, and we can't turn the hourglass over.
Never forget yesterday, But always live for today..
Cuz you never know what tomorrow can bring,
Or what it can take away..
Tears are sometimes an inappropriate response to death.
When a life has been lived completely honestly, completely successfully, or just completely, the correct response to death's perfect punctuation mark is a smile.
Not a second passes..
When you're not on our minds..
Your love we will never forget..
The hurt will ease in time..
It's just hard to lose someone, no matter how much or little it meant at the time.
Sometimes they take people, and they don't say why,
sometimes people leave and they never say goodbye,
sometimes there are no second chances to say I love you,
sometimes there are no next times,
sometimes you lose someone and you feel like your heart has followed them to heaven and sometimes there is just nothing you can do to make the tears stop.
Sometimes, no matter how much faith we have, we lose people.
But you never forget them.
And sometimes, it's those memories that give us the strength to go on.
Sometimes you have to forgive someone just because you want them in your life.
If it happens, God lets it happen,
and when we say, I don't understand,
God replies, I don't care.
Contemplation often makes life miserable.
We should act more, think less, and stop watching ourselves live.
It's hard to accept, but you can't change the past.
You can't go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen.
Because life'd be meaningless and boring and just not worth living.
But you can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life.
Yes, you will make mistakes.
And yes, you will have bad days - but as long as you let the past go, you'll have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of you.
Knowing that things were meant to happen.
Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person.
Life is like a rope, twined in all its complexities and yet weaved into one marvelous stream that you have the chance you use something amazing from. So grab hold of it.
People change.
its a part of life, but sometimes its easier to hold on to the memories of who they were..
rather then to realize who they have become..
Life doesn't hurt until you have time to yourself to think about how things have changed,
who you've lost along the way, and how much of it is your fault.
Sometimes there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay.
Sometimes change may not be what we want.
Sometimes change is what we really need.
And sometimes saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you'll ever have to do, but sometimes it's saying 'hello again' that breaks you down and makes you the most vulnerable person you'll ever know. Sometimes change is too much to bear, but most of the time change is the only thing saving your life. REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.
If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, martini in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO- HOO what a ride!"
Don't run through life so fast that you forget not only where you've been but also where you're going.
If you have ever lost someone very important to you, then you already know how it feels, and if you haven't, you cannot possibly imagine it.

At times I wish I could change the past..
but sometimes the past changes you.
Some things in life are either taken way too seriously or not serious enough.
So why worry so much about our everyday problems.
I mean there is only so much time to be alive but plenty of time to be dead.
So live every day like it is your last.
Take way too many pictures, laugh too hard and love with all your heart.
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass..
It is all about dancing in the rain!
Things happen in your life that will not go your way, they will not have the ending you hoped for and you will probably be disappointed..
but don't try and change these things..
instead.. remember them for next time.
Life comes without guarantees except..
Laughing will brighten your day, smiling will enhance your eyes,
and falling in love will change your life.
We live in a wonderful world that is full of beauty, charm, and adventure.
There is no end to the adventures we can have if only we seek them with our eyes open.
I used to think that death was the hardest thing to overcome. It's not.
It's hard comparable really. Death is final.
You watch the casket be lowered into the ground and you mourn, but you eventually get over it.
It can take years and it hurts like hell, but it's final.
that person is gone and there is no fear of a repeat.
With attempted suicide there is no finality.
Nothing hurts more than someone you love trying to end their own life.

Heaven's not a place that you go when you die it's that moment in life when you actually feel alive.
The sun is somewhere shining even when it rains
It's not how tragically we suffer but how miraculously we live.
When someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure.
Perhaps they are not stars in the sky,
but rather openings where our loved ones shine down to let us know they are happy.
Most of us go to our grave with our music still inside of us.
Life and death are balanced on the edge of a razor.
I believe Disney movies hold the key to life.
They hold every answer, if we only took the time to look.
We can learn more from that talking crab in the Little Mermaid than we ever could in this corrupted world.
And more than anything I believe in happy endings.
The sun's gonna shine and the rain's gonna fall, but that's life
so dance in the puddles and bathe in the sun.
At the end of the day, just smile and it will all be okay.
It takes both rain and sunshine to make a rainbow.
When it seems like everything is wrong and will never be right again
remember even the darkest nights must give way to day.
There can be no rainbow without a cloud and a storm.
May your life be like a roll of toilet paper... long and useful.
Life is too short so.. Kiss Longer.. Laugh Harder.. And smile Sweeter...
If I could relive my life, I wouldn't.
Cause everything I've done, I've never once regretted doing them.
And everything I am is everything I was meant to be.
It doesn't matter what you write about somebody after there gone,
it's how you treat somebody while there still there.
Life is like a coin, you can spend it anyway you want but you can only spend it once.
Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment,
and making the best of it without knowing what will happen next.
Be thankful for hard times in your life.
Try not to look at them as bad things, but as opportunities to grow and learn.
God saw you getting tired, and a cure was not to be.
So he put his arms around you, and whispered, "Come with me."
With tearful eyes we watched you, and saw you pass away.
Although we loved you dearly, we could not make you stay.
A golden heart stopped beating.
Hard working hands at rest.
God broke our hearts, to prove to us, He only takes the best.
From this point on in my life nothing is ever going to be the same.
Nothing can ever be the same.
I don't want anything to ever be the same.
Life isn't supposed to make you feel happy.
It isn't meant to make you feel sad either.
It's just there to make you feel.
A few of the best things in life..
Laughing so hard your face hurts.
Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
Friends. Knowing that somebody misses you.
Not everything's gonna be picture perfect..
Things sometimes take time and have rough times to get through..
Before you can get there but if you give up on things you want,
everything you've gone through ends up being completely worthless.
Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future,
stop figuring out precisely how we feel,
stop deciding with our minds exactly what we want our hearts to feel,
sometimes we just have to go with the flow and just enjoy life.
Sometimes things happen in our lives that tear us apart inside,
but if we don't learn to look past them and see the sun shining above the clouds,
we will forever be standing in the rain.
Just hit play and watch my life fall apart.
Just when you think things can't get any worse, they do.
I've learned that life is like hour glass sand.
Sooner or later, everything hits rock bottom,
but all you have to do is be patient and wait for something to turn everything back around.
Everything in life is temporary, because everything changes.
That's why it takes great courage to love,
knowing it might end anytime but having the faith it will last forever.
Don't let the darkness of the past cover the brightness of the future.
Sometimes our trusting hand that guides us through life won't always be there,
and that's the time when you really grow up and face life for the first time.
But that hand will always be close by.
When life is too crazy, and things are moving too fast, look to the constant stars..
and remember, like them, our love can last.
Ever wonder how your life would be right now if you had the power to go back and change even just one small thing?
Life is not about what I've done, what I should've done, what I could've done..
it's about what I can do and what I will do.
Every passing moment is a chance to turn it all around.
Life is full of surprises, but you have to open them hoping for the very best.
Experience is the worst teacher; it gives the test before presenting the lesson.
So many times, life is unpredictable.
You'll have bad days, and good, and really in the end, the only thing that matters is whose still there by your side.


so begins to add a splash of color across the face of the earth today! ;D 

Bonjóur December!

hello hello!
somehow or rather, i managed to get lazy & squeeze my leisure time here in the blogging world.
University's life been nothing but hectic!
well, no complaints on the mundane life i'm having..
but more updates on my university's life..
well, college or university college.. blaa..

November is a superb busy month for myself
i almost do not recognize myself anymore.
cos everyday is either busy coping up with midterms, practical exams, assignments, quizzes or presentations.
ohh, have i told you how well i did my practical exams?
POS was excellent.
Cafe, well.. screwed it. i broke the glass! in conclusion, i did not do well. ;D
now comes the most crucial part, kitchen practical.
the one's i have had restless nights worrying & praying for the best.
have to either cut a chicken or a fish & well god must have mercy on me, i was given fish.
basic cuts were CEKAP except for the fact that i was too slow in turning potatoes.
mayonnaise was a WOW! ;D
the rest was history.
except for the fact that, my thumb was numb & back aches for days.
my inner voice asking me to stop nagging already ;)


moving on, i did my last assignment whole night & never felt this much of satisfaction before.
well, thanks to my lazy bones or i wouldn't have to stay up being a zombie.
& have both my index fingers bear the consequences of typing too much overnight.
but it's too late to look back & ponder at the mistakes i've made.
only could push myself to look forward & put in extra efforts instead of being so lazy. i need help seriously. ;)
managed to sleep at 7am but being woken up by my housemate because she overslept. it's not that i find it funny to see people frightened or something, but it's so rare to see a person who's always so calm, came to me with tears in her eyes ;p *smacking myself.

as this semester, my first ever semester is coming to an end, i am so looking forward for holidays already! it has been a fruitful four months, learning as much as i could.
from a person who barely knows what beverages from alcoholic to non alcoholic are all about,
to the kitchen operations; where i now know how to cook variety of dishes & even to cut the whole chicken. eew ;p ;p
i have no regrets.
of cos no regrets, how often do you find David Beckham, Barack Obama, Wilber Pan or Edison Chen- look alike under the same roof?
we have politician to footballer and even singers. wasaiii. i wished i have pictures to prove my statements.
dont believe me, well you can always drop by & pay a visit to my college. it's on the 11th floor ;p

last but not least, i got this book from my Malaysian Studies lecturer, Mr. Warren.

i never knew he has written so many books! i always thought he is one funny man with a deep understanding on his subject, but i never knew.. i love his class. it's always fun to see a lecturer with his animated story telling that always come with sound effects like "puuutt puuutt.. bish boom kalaboom"or something like "eh, ah kao sei jor"which means "eh, ah kao die already". LOL

another last picture of the day..

hey, do you see the rainbows?

“Life is like a rainbow. You need both the sun and the rain to make its colors appear.” 

“God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.” 

GOODBYE, NOVEMBER! see you again next year! whee

be my savior!

dear bloggie,
daytime, everything seems so normal
but when the day gives way to the night; that's when all the problems started.
i cant help but to complain all the time.
ranting over the smallest issue in life.
im such an asshole, no?

if you were to lend me a pair of sympathetic ears,
would you mind to open up my eyes to see the brightest side of everything instead being blurred by the vision i created for myself to see?

if there's only one question i'm allowed to answer without fear,
i would definitely want to say this with no offense, especially to the Big Boss up there..
for every breath i'm taking, it's suffocating me so slowly.
true, life is like a rollercoaster ride up & down
i started not to recognize myself & missed seeing the old me
now look what happened to myself?
i'm always so grumpy, pessimistic and the list goes on & on

i don't see myself smile & laugh as often as i used to
but tears & sorrows have been my comfort recently.
that's so not healthy.
i'm getting more & more sensitive that in another words,
i'm getting more desperate in craving the attention & concerns from the people that matter most to me, but when they don't live up to my expectations, i get so frustrated & upset.
wtf is wrong seriously? i wished i know the answer.


instead of building bridges connecting with the homosapiens out there, i'm building walls
instead of accepting people for who they really are, i''ve set a standard & expect them to live up to my standard.
i used to take pride in all the things that i do.
right or wrong decisions don't matter, i'm happy about it.
but now, i always have doubts & think too much of everything
tell me what's wrong really?

a friend of mine told me i did not learn to enjoy the present moments in my life, because all the joys & happiness, i left it back in my hometown.
another friend of mine also told me that, i'm still in the process of learning to adapt myself to the new environment; an isolation phase she named it

whatever it is, i'm still struggling with my own emotions & yet to find the solutions to it; internal conflicts & so they said.

what really brings me down is the fact that this one man has the ability to pull me down to my deepest emotions, every time he's being such a idontknowwhatistherightphrasetodescribehimwhenheisbeingsoinsensitivetomyemotions. i tried not to allow anyone to influence me or to make such a strong impact in my life, but i failed. arghhhh
the best thing is he knew nothing at all;
even when i'm angry or we had a cold war or something,
this innocent kid slept through the night soundly & not bothered to dig deeper into the issue
& when i finally decided to put away my ego & make peace with this innocent kid, he replied saying 'did we have a fight or something?' i don't know to laugh or to cry ;(
simple thing you thought is a crap, matters most to me.
not the pricey or expensive stuff that you value, but is the understanding & attention given by you are what i value most, you biggest idiotic moron! arghhh. babi btoi!

i wanna enjoy life as much as i could, be the person i used to love. be my savior, pls? ;D

:(

The same old dreams have been haunting me over and over again. How annoying.
Woke up with tears in my eyes again & it ruined my day.
What does that mean really, if you'd been having the same dream of losing someone close to your heart?
Shopping heals me.
Wasted alot of money tryna be a Santa claus, but I felt happy.. Well, at least half my day spent was happy & the remaining day was.. Terrible
Emotions wrapped myself feeling all the negative thoughts in mind. It's suicidal.
Fear of rejection. Failures. Loneliness. Yada Yada
Shit la you, suk Wai
I needed lotsa loves. Lotsa attention. Lotsa everything which I could barely feel all these recently. :(
On the bright note, in less than a month I'll be going home! At least there's a reason to smile again. Sighs
I wana have my cheesecake. My mcflurry again. I want my mum's cooking! I wana hug my dog to sleep. I want Patrick sings to me again. I wana go home! :'(
*sick of myself being so emotional all the time


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Special Day

wow!
guess what's so special about today?
it has been two years.
TWO SOLID YEARS!
so much have changed over the years
from acquaintances, merely even saying a hi & bye,
to where we are today, wow. i'm impressed!
this man, just like any other ordinary guys out there
but this special one managed to make my life extraordinary with his fairy's tale life he made me feel.
being apart made me realize how important it is to treasure what i already have, not to take things for granted, because you never know when you might lose it.
& it only makes clear of one truth that if the person you're in love with, really that special one you wanna grow old with
i've a lot to write, but in the meantime, forgive me pls.
head doing disco again.

oh & yeahh. it's weird
the sky looks so orangy today
i saw an image of a wolf-alike-clouds with a halo above the KLCC.
too much of imagination perhaps, but
oh well,
what a special day!

three more days to go & im going back Ipoh again! so excited. i miss everyone back home!

Random

Listening to some bedtime songs & got my brain working out more than ever before.
Few random thoughts popped up & thought it might be a good idea to type it out.
It's already my 2nd months learning the big city, still being the kampung girl trying to adapt as much as I could.
Being given the chance to pursue what I've always dreamt of is the biggest gift from Him, so no more complains but to try every way to achieve what I've always wanted to be.
I still have difficulty in breaking down the walls I've created 2 months ago, instead of building bridges with my new life. Maybe that's part of the reason why I failed to feel the presence of genuine happiness compared to my past.
Also, there's something I don't quite get it yet.
Why can't I do what I always wanted to do instead of doing what you think is right? You make me feel like crap, like someone worthless living in your shadows. Good or bad, I have the rights to do what makes me feel good instead. All I ever wanted is somebody to treat me like a princess; to be taken care of & most of all not being taken for granted. Is that really too much to ask for? Lol
You know how it feels really, to not being able to share every of your pains and happiness with the one you really wished would understand you? Cos in the end, instead of comfort you're getting pain in your heart; which screws a person big time if you really get what I mean.

Ha ha.

Say i'm irrelavent, say I'm having mood swings or immature, but I really wished we could see eye to eye in many things.

My Days in College

So far i've enjoyed both the tutorial and practical classes even if i'm still new in the hospitality industry.
doesn't matter, still have room for improvements.
hahahaah

anyway, here's a few experiences that i have had & would like to share with you readers..

tutorial on Beverages class was on Wednesday. we learnt about the history of wines-making & yada yada. have you ever heard of Ice Wine? how it is made? now let me tell you. according to my lecturer he said the reason it is called ice wine basically because the grapes were collected during winter time where the grapes were covered with ice.. and tada.. we have Ice Wine. reasonable.
best of all, we got to taste the whole bottle of Ice Wine! yum yum. & not forgetting, red wine!
we even learned about labeling. how to differentiate sweetness of wines & all that.  110-150° Oe is very sweet! ;D

next up, i had my practical in the Cafe on Thursday!
Can you believe that?
Real guests dining in & is actually runs by the newbies like us!
OMG. i'm all excited & thrilled by the fact that we're running the Cafe for few hours eventhough we've only started to learn the basics, the do's and don'ts on that day itself!
Our menu of the day was Japanese Cuisines!
don't remember much names of the dishes, but there's this appetizer known as Shabu Shabu. HAHA =p
i was the Cashier of the day & i thought "Wow, it would be fun!"
i almost died of too much adrenalines rushing through my brain.
feel so tensed up cos i don't really know how to function the cashier machine.
each individual teaching me different things & guests kept coming in, i don't know who to listen to
so ended up i'd rather write in the Captain's Order & do mental calculation instead.
i guess there's few ringgits shortage too. hahah
after the peak hours, the wannabe-Chefs prepared us lunch!
Japanese Cuisines! & i even got to taste the green tea ice cream- all cooked & made by the wannabe-Chefs aka the students themselves! i'm so impressed!
what really impressed me too was the fact that my lecturer asked me go to the kitchen grabbed some food before i leave because he said he appreciated our hard work & therefore no one should be left out. & he kept thanking us again & again. awwww!

Greetings From IPOH!!

hahaha.

aloha, my dear readers!
finally i'm in ipoh for good!
currently having Raya's breaks for 10 days.
i'm sooooooo happy! ;D

you know ah, as much as i enjoyed the company of my friends back in KL
but there's no place like home.
i'm dragging for my days to pass me by each day without even living a life
a day without having to rush like a mad cow is something i really really treasure already.
but despite all that, i'm learning to be more cautious & be aware of the surrounding which i don't know if it's a good or bad thing.
trust me, i don't like that either.
i feel so heavy having so much to carry on my shoulder,
but that's what we ought to do in reality, no?

woman, you're too careless & your time management is really bad!
how did you burn the kettle?
how could you miss the bus?
how could you be so careless in everything that you do, always forget this & that?
aiyooo. but that's me
every bad incidents that's happening to me right now are caused by my careless self.
so im learning from it.
no more blaming the lucks or whatsoever.

yesterday i slept for 11 hours continuously & had a fantastic dream
the whole day been watching tv, practically doing nothing
but i love the life that i'm having now.
everything moving in a slow pace,
having to worry about absolutely nothing.
home is the place on earth,
pls don't ask me to leave so soon yet
bring me to the place near my heart.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

Another day not mine

well, you should have guessed. i have had a really bad hair day today.
NO.
bad hair-to-toe day!

i'll say this once & for all; & let's close this chapter after that already.

yes. my phone got stolen.
you know how it happened?
i didn't know either because that barbarian is so desperate he raped my handphone so efficiently.
the only thing i know next, i was so freaked out my mind went blank immediately.
i started to raise my voice & grabbed the 3 malay boys nearest to my side not letting any of them go.
i even shouted for god sake so fcuking loud somebody steal my phone,
but what those so called homosapiens ever did were to look at me & NOT EVEN ONE BLOODY PERSON WILLING TO AT LEAST JUST BLOCK THOSE MAFIAS FROM GETTING OUT THE LRT! so fucking reality right when comes to this?
let me rephrase this, the majorities don't deserve to be called human beings, they should at least learn the basic of being humans;
cos humans have heart, they have feelings;
but all these people im seeing are nothing but walking corpses.
no no im not blaming anyone.
im old enough to bear my own consequences &
yes, it's my careless mistake.
it just not my day, that's all i could say to comfort myself.
cos another victim was even worse.
her phone got stolen in her pocket without her even realizing it, that's amazing how these barbarians make full use of their both hands learn to steal stuffs instead of standing on their own two feet.
i could imagine how their mothers would feel;
9 months of pregnancy & years of nurturing them with love & care;
at the end of the day, these poor mothers' baby grown up being a RASCAL!
& that's not about it,
my housemate called my handphone 7th times & overheard the barbarian negotiating with a malay lady for like RM35.
what came to mind was that barbarian with no shame selling my handphone to the malay lady with no brain for RM35!

it doesn't end here.
what a lucky day, really.
went to lowyat for a replacement sim card, lowyat asked us go pavillion.
was thinking to myself "at least today is not that bad after all. no sun. no rain. just nice to walk"
walking for like less than 5 minutes, started to pour like cats & dogs.
i needed super spin dry, i'm telling you right.
whole body was so wet from top to toes. sighs

i'm not trying to be racist or some sort like that.
but seriously, i just loathed the Cikus! (if you know what i mean)
& no, i don't hate the Cikus based on this one incident that happened to myself. but more to what i've seen & heard of all these years, my limits tank just burst. that's all i could say. no more tolerance
i don't consider the people that i know,
i'm pin pointing the majority of the Cikus out there
i have always considered myself a universal multi cultural kind of person
but there are just too many rotten apples out there that spoilt the whole barrel of it.
hate it or love it, you have to accept that.
& mind you, every word that i typed in here already go through my brain, my sound mind before i decided to post up such a racism sentences.

my day went normal as usual.
attended beverages class.
mix match vodka with cranberry & orange juice.
had cocktails & mocktails.
wow, few sips only but my head spinning already.
bla bla bla...

i talk to them like normal, but there'll be times i got drifted away & stared at the air.
that's the time when everything came knocking in like crazy.
i don't know to cry or to laugh.
i just didn't know what to do.
it's not me being so calm.
i needed to let it all out at least,
only then can i let it go completely.

Lina, i know you won't be reading this;
but i just want you to know i love you so much! hehe
ohhh, i didn't mention this!
i was listening to the Billionaire & Bad Romance feeling slightly sad cos these two songs been attached to me like my left right arms already.
knowing i won't be woken up by these songs everyday in the meantime, somehow i felt handicapped.
that's when this brilliant girl came out with a good idea saying she would be singing these songs for me everyday. awwwwwwwww. how sweet?
now i don't feel sad anymore, i just feel so lucky & blessed. that's all.
hehehe. no more rainy day please, i wanna see sunshine smiles upon my face, effecting from now! *so demanding. LOL

goodnight, readers! xoxo

Hello Ipoh.

i miss home already.

i wanna go home.

i feel like a walking zombie in KL.

i don't really like my routines, the same old routines everyday. even so reluctant to wake up. just feel like lying on bed whole day long not doing anything.

everyone is always on the go. no time to slow down & to breathe. it's like every breath im taking suffocating myself so slowly, to that extend. everyday i feel like a dead person, so tired.

but to think of it, im not here for a vacation. im here to study, to craft my future. so again, whether i like it or not, have to live with it no matter what. pls be strong. stay focus. *slapping myself.

but i did enjoy my stay here you see. with a bunch of friends. like a big family. eating home cooked food, that's what i missed eating the most. eating outside food is like so yucky yuck.

in summary;

1. i've to stock up bottles of drinking water cos the water in my place is terrible. muddy colour with smell. yucks. even my face is getting worse. LOL

2. in the ratio of 1:10, hardly can find anyone who's willing to help you or offer you a seat. ki ki ku ki ki. haha

3. only the 2nd week, but already given 6 assignments due in october. crazy!

4. so much to learn in the hospitality industry la! slowly catching up. next time when i see anyone of you, stop telling me this industry is easy, cos it's not! im still struggling on beverages class. can i not learn about the alcoholic except for the wine? can i not learn about the mixtures & all cos im going cuckoo trying to memorise so many unfamiliar new terms?

5. & d'ya know that one of the assignment actually require me go to a bar, try out some new drinks  & write a report on it since it's a group work. everyone agrees to go to the bar. uwaaaaa

6. & most importantly, d'ya know that everyone is calling me AUNTY just bcos im 20yrs old & maybe sounded a bit too naggy? so awesome, not! haha

7. i feel like a completely different person; so not friendly. not nice. not fun. not sociable. i don't know what's happening, but i just don't feel like talking to anyone about it. ironic compared to my old self aite? move on move on. ;)

8. oh, one more thing. my first time attended such an immature meeting. no respect, blasting another person as you like without deep thinking, without even thinking of the consequences. that's weird huh?

goodnight!

Big HELLO to everyone!

surprised eh i'm having so much free time to even lay my hands on my blog?

i'll keep it short & simple, for im hitting the sacks in no time already. now is only 9.05pm, i didn't know since when i turned into such an angelic no more sleeping late night hours. have to, when basically one's body is running low on energy. so busy i don't even know what we're busy at to be exact, literally.

so anyway, as usual we had lectures again & again...
here's something i would like to share today.
one of the lecturer, she played this song for us "The Power of The Dream" by Celine Dion.. it was an inspiring lecture i would say..
when i listened to this song once again from my roommate, i decided to check out the video on YouTube.
this is the best video i found so far.. do check it out.. hehe


& some random inspiring videos..


(this is a must to watch la.. really love it. xD)





& guess what!? i had the best pizza in my entire life! the Domino Pizza!! gosh.. so tasty!
on second note, i guess i have lost so much weights. reason 1: too much of walking. reason 2: no time for proper food or if i do have the chance, the food is too expensive. i mean really really burn big holes in pockets. LOL

take care, folks!

greetings, Friday the 13th!

wow, i cant believe today is friday already. time waits for no man. & im so glad that i don't have to wake up so early & catch the bus, sitting in the lecture theatre yawning away wishing to go home & when i'm finally home, i'll be so drained up, there the cycle repeats & repeats again. that's kl life.

everyday, i have to wake up at 6.30am in the morning, board the bus, get the monorail & kepit like a sardine, walk to school for like 10minutes, get the damn lift to 11th floor, reached the lobby & will be waiting there for like an hour before the cycle repeats itself again. at the end of the day, my head would be spinning left right & up down. body gets so sweaty. so sick of it la. haha

but besides all the miseries i've just mentioned, the college itself is really cool seriously. i mean, i feel that i have really made the wise decision this time. haha. the school offers exactly what i've been searching for all the while.

keep you updated next time! head doing disco again.

tadaa!

aiks. second post of the day

since im in kenny rogers now, might as well make full use of its wi-fi la eh? wakakaka

i don't know why i have so much to talk about la these days. hahaha

so, i met with my new housemate today, Sally is her name not Sherly. LOL
taking the same course as i do! i think my house all four of us are taking the same course kut.
anyway, this is the funny part.
i brought Sally & her family to take the Monorail, so that's when the door started closing & her mum still outside. so the dad was holding the door like a Hercules & the door shut with a loud bang. everyone stared at us. hahaha
everyone was rushing out but us, then don't know how the door started closing already & one of the girl got 'çlamped'. so funny la. don't know how to explain. wakkkakakkaka

what a funny day!

im feeling superb excited with a new housemate now. i suppose i'll be in heaven if i get to meet my roommate later.

enough of myself already. let me see how shall i entertain myself while waiting for my housemate to get done shopping.

take care everyone! ;)

New Phase. New Chapter

Hello hello cyber world! i miss you lots & you know that. haha

Life's superb great at the moment & i believe there's more excitements await me in the future, so let's just wait & see. hoho

So basically i went through the 4 days 3 nights in the apartment with no homosapiens but myself so yeah, *applause. hahaha. (hey let me just brag about this la cos it aint easy for a scaredy cat like me. so that's definitely a big achievement for myself. hohohohoho *syok sendiri.)

I had a teary night on the first day itself but thank god it lasted only for about 5minutes? HAHHAHAH. i have my babyboy to comfort me & he's like "Warning! change thinking now. negative frequency recording. change frequency. counting down to manifestation. Warning!"

*moving on to the 3rd day, which is on a Monday;

I went to Berjaya Times Square, to get myself familiar with the places. It was a once-of-a-lifetime experience i would say & i'm surprised i didn't get lost, not at all. so proud of myself la. hehehehe. 

KL seriously a great place for shopping & food but one thing for sure, it's gonna burn a big hole in your pockets. oh yeah, & i managed to buy the pepper spray for protection but hell, it costs RM38.90. whaddafart. so bloody expensive la. LOL

so basically, that's all my grandma's story for today. fingers lazing on the keyboards, refusing to keep dancing already. so stay tune for more! xD

p/s: but one last thing i have to say here, i feel so calm & at peace, free from disturbance, free from the hassle & bustle of life.. life at its slow pace makes me feel like a whole new person.. it's like you feel as if you're connected to the Mother Nature for some reasons. but as class started to commence soon, life so gonna move at its speed of a jetplane. SIGHS.

but but, what i love most is the scenery at night when i look through my windows. perfecto! 

but of course, i still miss Ipoh. i miss everything about Ipoh. i miss my mum & my dodo! HAHAHAHAHAH

pp/s: i actually make few friends from BUCH! they're so nice & friendly. lucky me.  =p

thank You for the life i am blessed with. thank You for everything You've given me. really really appreciate that. hehehehe

Goodbye, Ipoh!

in less than 7 hours, i'll be entering another new chapter.

gotta leave behind so many memories of Ipoh & anticipating to creating even more sweet moments of my future, in the capital city of Malaysia.

love it or hate it, i gotta keep moving forward eh? bencinya have to grow up so constantly. =.=

anyway,
i'm gonna miss everything about Ipoh, that's for sure.
not gonna be so emoish ranting about my past..
the only thing i'm currently hoping for,
i'll get along with my new roommate; can do shopping sama & have pillow's talk at night ;p
stay true to my self & the principles im gripping on right now
the fire burning in me being passionate in the course i am taking & excel in my future profession
in a blink of an eye, 4 years passed & i'll be entering another new phase.
time is precious & it's slipping away.

hey Big City, bring it on! hahahah

*re-checking my to-bring lists. lalalala

Free like a bird

heyo heyo!

today is monday. i've approximately 5 days left in ipoh. so busy. busy with everything. not even done packing my bags & mum kept nagging day night reminding me to pack my damn bags. haha. im so gonna miss my mum's nagging after this.

monday i have to spend half day in hospital AGAIN. hate government hospital la. they bored me by making me waited for hours. everything will be alright, i know. hehe. done with that, have to do some last minute shopping already & night dinner with the V.I.P family. haha

tuesday, gonna spend my day with my colleagues & my loveliest junior, ms LOO MEE YEE! oh-mi-gosh, cant wait to meet up with her! hhehehe. & night, movie with a sakai & my mum. ;D

wednesday, have a date with my two besties. soooo gonna be fun, i can assure you that. & night, hopefully going sidewalk with my kelewi friend catching up with each other & getting inspired by her once im settle in kl of bla bla bla.. oh & this time, i must order my favourite ice cream! mango, rum &   blaaaa *hungry. LOL

thurs & fri, time for final packing. no more going out i hope. gonna spend my last two days at home dating my mum *fingers crossed no last minute plan

& so basically, im writing nonsense now.

*big yawns

goodnight everyone! *singing lullaby to put myself to sleep.

p/s: so gonna miss everything in ipoh. the people. the food. no matter how much i hated KayHell, but gotta learn to love the place since i'll be staying there for like.. what? four years? shit.

pp/s: YOU, pls pull me back to the reality if you see me leading to hell once i step my feet in KayHell. pls guide me & lead me to the right path.

sayonara! xoxo

ooi ooi, hear me say! ;D

aloha my dear readers,

hope life is treating each & every one of you splendidly!
for myself, life is a bliss.

i have news!
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this is my story.
currently just closed another chapter
& now anticipating for yet another new chapter of my life!
so excited! hehe

so anyway, this is one of the very precious chapter that has happened within the past one month.
the chapter where i'm back to my former workplace & to learn even more this time.
i realize as you grow, the level of confidence increases within you.
but never ever think too high-and-mighty of oneself, cos arrogance only kills even the most intelligent person. hahaha
don't wana bored you with my working life.
but i definitely had the best time of my life working with such great bosses & superb sakai colleagues. hehe
so im done & over with this phase, i have to look forward to my studying life once again!

but anyway, i have a story i feel i should share with anyone who's reading this
so hear me say...
my boss brought me to this place, not really a house.. how do i describe it?
a place where it's stranded far away & not many would notice such a place even exists i reckon?
there lived a family consists of 1,2,3,4.. i think should be four family members in the house.
the daughter was born without legs & so unfortunate she had leukemia
while the mum who's already 70yrs old diagnosed with cervix cancer. 3rd stage & it's not a good sign for someone as old as her to have gone through this.
they even got cheated by the unprofessional lawyer. bastard!
i felt for them. i really do. i don't know how they managed to get thru this kinda hell lives,
but these are the real fighters, the daughter especially.
she's so optimistic.
i really wished i would be able to lend a helping hand.
the only thing i can do right now, is to pledge anyone who's reading this, who knows any information or the whereabouts of how to get the financial aids, government bodies or whatsoever it is to help them.

if you think your life is hard, think again. and ask yourself, compared to what?

today is really a great exposure for myself if you ask me.
i've heard enough of sad stories, but never really had a chance to be immersed into a real-tragic situation. a real-life situation that is really happening around us, but only the society choose to be so ignorant.

cheerio! xD

i'm a complicated person la.

when i am too caught up with works, i wished i could have more time to rest.

now that i am too caught up with basically nothing, surfing the net thinking what to do, i wished i know what to do.

haha

i wonder how's everyone doing?

my fingers feel so stiff, scratching my head thinking of things..

i'm really curious what awaits me in the future.

signing out.

Aloha Readers!

I know I shouldn't be blogging at this hour.
But I have so much to share right now..

(it's a bedtime story for myself anyway, so don't bother reading if you don't have time. grandma's ranting nie)

A year ago,
I fell in love with the MacBook Pro.
I even dreamt of owning it one day.
& so it is decided once i got a job,
I would start saving money for it.
I had it all planned,
but of cos it didn't go according to what i had planned.

7 months ago, i told them i would own this baby.
but they said, i'm too ambitious.
it was merely a dream,
but now i proved them wrong.
anything is possible,
you can achieve whatever you desire
you could even own the world,
nothing is impossible
as long as you put your heart & soul into it.
that's what i learnt along the way.

when what others do is to laugh at your dreams,
it is possible to turn your dream into a reality.

you know why i'm really that excited right now?
it's the satisfaction that i feel right now.
so much satisfaction knowing whatever other people says about you doesn't matter
but what you have to say about yourself that really matters.

sometimes when i look at it again,
it's really funny.

i was so excited cos i got the job in Fossil
knowing i'll be so filthy rich at the end of the day.
but who would have expected,
i quit the job 6 days later?

coincidence or not,
i ended up in Kenny Rogers.
& i got the partial scholarships from Berjaya Roasters.

when all hope is gone,
i thought of giving up..
knowing it's impossible to save up the amount of money needed.
back then, the MacBook Pro was RM4k.

just when im on the verge of giving up,
i got to know the new line is coming out in April.
coincidence or not?
MacBook Pro for RM3599.
hahahahah

& so i set my mind right again.

again, coincidence or not you decide.
just when im worrying where to collect that lump sum of money

that asshole appeared suddenly & sent money to me.
& my bro in law wanted to sponsor half of my laptop money.
great.
so all i ever needed to do is to wait for the month of May to arrive.
just when i'm so near of getting it already,
something came up.
i was torn in between knowing i can choose only one.
that was the worst situation i feel i have been into.
i cried for weeks, that's all i could say.
don't wana elaborate already. im yawning here myself listening to my own rantings. LOL

to keep it short, i am really really grateful for the pains & sorrows You choose to throw on me.
now that the dark moments are long gone, im harvesting the fruits of joys & happiness. so pls. pls don't take it all away from me too soon yet. HAHA.

& you know,
i do not worship God like how the Christians would go to church every Sunday,
the Muslims would be praying to their Allah 5 times a day
nor like the Buddhists praying with the incence sticks to show their appreciation towards Him.
i only speak to Him through my heart.

but i really really do believe in the existence of God.
what i realize is that,
sometimes you might not favor the road He has chosen for you now,
but once you got thru that phase
looking at how your life has unfold before your own eyes,
that feeling is indescribable.
get what im saying?
cos that's what im feeling now, again.
LOL

there is a reason for the presence of people in our lives
but there's also a reason for their absence.
maybe their presence will teach us something,
something we never thought we were capable of doing,
thus, maybe their absence will teach us to be strong & how to be strong,
that life goes on & 
that the absence of someone in our lives doesn't mean the end of the world, 
absence only makes the heart grow fonder. 
ho ho ho ho

it's a rainy day today, nothing much to be done , guess i'll have my beauty sleep now. working tonight. ahh, lazy

everyone should read this ;)

One day I decided to quit....
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality. .. in fact I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God..

"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me...

"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.
I gave them light.I gave them water.The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.

And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.. He said.

"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.

But I would not quit.

In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would

not quit." He said.

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant. ..

But just 6

months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.

It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave

it what it needed to survive..

I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle.."

He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling,

you have actually been growing roots".

"I would not quit on the bamboo.

I will never quit on you."

"Don't compare yourself to others."

He said.

"The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern.

Yet they both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come", God said to me.

"You will rise high"

"How high should I rise?"

I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and brought back this story.

I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.

Never, Never, Never Give up.

Don't tell God how big the problem is,

tell the problem how Great God is!


*caryn, sorry ah.. copy paste your post here. hehe

bloggers, please update your blogs! i wanna read new posts. ;)

just got home & leaving tomorrow already.

catch with ya soon, folks!

have a blessed day!

Sometimes I think being brave is nothing more than hiding fear where no one can see it,
& being strong is just crying where no one sees you. 
I don't tell you everything like before because you judge, that's why ;D

"Live everyday as if it's your last day on earth.
& the most beautiful thing you can actually do is to spend more time with your loved ones.
Don't even think about being far apart from each other.
Spend your 24 hours wisely.
The time you spent for tears & unhappiness already stolen off the time you should be happy
Count your blessings & somehow you'll see rainbows rather than dark clouds."

Beautiful.

Thanks, you know who you are.
It means so much to me.

On a very unrelated note, today is the opening ceremony for AppleStore in Ipoh Parade.
i feel so terrible sad cos didn't know about it earlier that there's a free woohoo box to be given to the first 100 customers. i heard the first 5 customers who queued up would get extra gifts, high chances of getting ipod, iphone. omg. so sad already. hahahaha

Out of Randomness

i had a conversation with my mum yesterday while on the way to Tesco.

it went something like this:-

Me: Mii, i think hoh if next time i were to get married don't want so old nie married. If wana have baby also, before 30 years old should be good eh?

Mum: *silence*

Me: *continue* cos i think already, if i have baby before 30 years old, by right i am sixty, my children already big enough to stand on their own feet. Plus, financial is stable to support me already when i am old *laughing

Mum: You have one children enough already, girl or boy doesn't matter.

Me: Waa, Mii. If like that right, *calculating using my fingers* now i'm twenty already, by right i'm graduated, already twenty three.. waa, means left few more years nie la? yerrrr

Mum: *ignoring me* Trust me, one is more than enough already. Your body is too weak.

Me: Can adopt kids what. LOL

Mum: *staring at me* But don't know if your husband like it or not leh

HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA

pms again.

my mood swings dramatically.

you know what i really need right now?

my love tank is empty.
i needed somebody to just please, help me to fill it up.
mengada means mengada la, i don't care.
i needed somebody to make me smile so badly now.

;'(

Steve Jobs: How to live before you die | Video on TED.com

Steve Jobs: How to live before you die | Video on TED.com

Definitely one of the best!

hello lovers,
great day isn't it?

someone once told me,
everyday, you have a reason to smile & to celebrate life,
because today you are given the chance to breathe.
no matter how terrible you feel about today,
smile because you are given the chance to breathe.

someone also once told me,
when you are having a bad day,
stay calm. take a deep breath
because it's just another day not yours.

yesterday,
someone told me to be appreciative of obstacles in life.
cos the more obstacles He throw to you, the more He trust in you that you can handle it
God never allows His people to suffer if He knows they cannot go thru it
not necessary the people you expected them to be there for you, would be there for you when you needed them most.
but it is the unexpected people that comes to you & raise you up during your darkest hours.
& whatever that does not kill you, only makes you stronger.

very true indeed.

HA HA HA HA HA

Reformatting the Heart

Tech Support:  Yes, how can I help you?   

Customer:   Well , after much consideration, I've decided to install Love.  
Can you guide me through the process?   

Tech Support:  Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?  

Customer:  Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do  I do first?     

Tech Support:  The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located  your Heart?     
 
 Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it  okay to  install Love while they are Running?  

Tech Support:  What programs are running?   

Customer:  Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and  Resentment running right now.  

TechSupport:   No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your  current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer  Disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a  module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely  turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being  properly installed. Can you turn those off?   

Customer:  I don't Know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?  

Tech Support:  With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do  this as many times as necessary until Grudge and  Resentment have been completely erased.  

Customer:  Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?  

Tech Support:  Yes, but remember that you have only the base program.   You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.   

Customer:  Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error -  Program not  running on internal components." What should I do?   

Tech Support:  Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to  run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.   

Customer:  So, what should I do?  

Tech Support:  Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following  files:   Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.   

Customer:  Okay, done.  

Tech Support:  Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system  will  overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming.  Also, you  need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from al directories and empty your Recycle  Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.   

Customer:  Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile  is playing on  my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves  all over My Heart.   Is this normal?  

Tech Support:  Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually  everything   gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running.   One more thing before  We hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it  and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool   modules back to you.   

Customer:  Thank you, God.