*knocking my head. tryna accumulate all the pieces of my tiny brain cells, putting it back in place.
*shit. one week of holidays is just so not enough. how time flies faster than a fly? gotta get back to school already tomorrow. sighs
* this is so gonna like reading bibles, if you don't like what you read, just close this window.. no complains, i warn ya! wakakaka

anyway, this holiday has been a blissful one's for myself. coz yea, it's just so happening and now i really know how it is like to live life to its fullest. you just have to seize the day, spend with your loved ones. as simple as that. so, Carpe Diem! xD

24th Jan
balik kampung's fever. went back for reunion dinner. it's always nice to gather everyone and have dinner together as a big family, chit chatting away happily, gamble and all that. this year my luck wasn't that bad as compared to last two years where i lost all my angpao's money to a small kid. forget it.. maybe i should thank my dodo for bringing me ONG. haha


25th Jan
3 monkies all the way from ipoh came to my kampung to pay me a visit. yea, it was a really touchy-couchy's 'surprise'. wheeee xD that's no wonder i love them so much! went on a kampung excursion, tour around talking all kind of rubbish, and the best part, it was drizzling! when it's time to bid farewell, part of me wanted to follow them. so shit aite this kinda feeling?

26th Jan
couldn't wait any longer. patrick and i came out with a real surprise for them. he fetched me from kampung and we headed straight to tesco, and later ended up in JJ buying ingredients for our surprise. what really impressed me was that this monkie of mine was so sick and yet willingly to touch the ever-smell-so-great-raw fish with his pork's hand! wakakaka. LOL. i mean yeah, he was really superb. in fact, i felt so low coz he gotta kept reminding me what i gotta be doing etc etc which.. nvm.. i'm glad anyway.. *showing peace sign
ada gaya... but hancur!!! hahaha. just so funny. i would call this dish as blackstarfish xD

the vege cooked by him as well, whilst i made the purplish salad and the ever-tasted-so-great-so-goddamn-delicious-fried rice LOL. *self praise is no praise. so shhhhh, humble. coughs.

and we boiled the-err-don't know-what-should-i-call-it-soup and also konnyaku jelly!

to sum it all up, the both of us managed to come up with 3 dishes + 2 appetizers + soup in less than two hours, i assume.

credits to Patrick again for putting on such a great show, it was a big success i would say. i still couldn't accept the fact that we really did all these, feeling so agog even up to now. wheee

27th Jan
stayed overnight to guard the monkie's house so no one would be stealing the bananas. haha. watched the Eagle Eye and Bedtime Stories, which really made us slept. Matts couldnt stand it any longer, so he went home half way. LOL. and Nek, was in her chimpanzeeland dreaming of Mr. Chimpanzee.. whilst the monkie was the only one watched till the end.
oh yea, i have this fantastic photo to show. guess who's this? haha. so very the ugly yet she captured my smile, couldn't stop LOL-ing. haha


28th Jan
CAMERON!!!!!!!! vrooommm
how i wish the 9 of us were to spend the whole day together.
Patrick's car was as big as the Mr. Bean's car, so any extra loads would cut his car into two.. so let's forget it.. let the pictures say it all. it was so calming and cooling that i refused to come home.

except when the sun rised above your head and burnt your ass, smokes coming out from your ass. with the puff puff sound.. it was humiliating though. xD

despite it all, i heart them truly, madly, deeply. bluekk

i love her.. beyond words could express how i feel. wohoooo

Nenek sayang. mwuahh. haha

wow. i still have so much to talk about today, so let's just stop here. wheee. love ya heaps! *you know i'm talking to you. haha. puuut

29th Jan
forgotten what happened. went to play badminton i guess. LOL. haha. yeah, bought maggi goreng sotong and makan in the church. this was the day i got to drive a manual car. wohoo! went for dinner. went to fetch mum. yada yada.

30th Jan
went to visit mama. bought her favourite food and lepak-ed around. gosh, i just realize how cute mama and nenek when comes to play with the teddy bear.
*gona upload the video soon. they just allowed their inner child took over their 81 years old's body which was just so cekap. haha. went for movie at night. everyone was fine til.. fireworks. and all.. let's forget about the past. it was a great night anyway, it only makes me aware of something. i'm so head over heels right now. wohoo

31st Jan
went for badminton. this time the 8 of us were here except another doink in kl. haha. it's the best! so much fun, so much laughters till drooled on the floor. couldn't stop giggling that my ears eventually turned so hot. WOW! thiru he's the man la seriously. hhaha. went to buy moo moo's ice cream, turned up everyone turned into a cow couldn't stop moo moo-ing. sweat. went to our favourite mamak restaurant. rain started pouring, and so were we. started falling one by one. nek broke her promise. na na na. couldn't resist any longer, played in the rain like real monkies just escaped from zoo. went to the padang nearby, and just let the raindrops poured on our skin, our face. O-M-G. the feeling is so indesribable. i wouldn't even have dared to do this alone if it wasn't because of this bunch of monkies there to woo ahh ahh all along. the stares you received from the crowds were just so hilarious, but who cares? haha. makan ice cream after that, but it tastes so warm that it kept your tounge's warm. LOL. enough said.

1st Feb
nothing much to do. party's over. now it's time to get back to serious business. STUDY! buckle up! sigh.

-the end of my preaching. thank you

just a short note to say,

i'm back alive! wheee

*showing peace sign.

haha

sweats.

adios

Don't count the days- make the days count

can i just say that i have the best day of my life?

shit gotta go now.

will get back to this when i'm back.

happy 2 months anniversary to the dFians =)





in just two days, today will be tomorrow. i wish today would never end.

OMG. taa

where to start with?

zzzz.

okay, maybe i'll just summarize everything as far as my tiny brain cells could have survived in the past 122 hours.

went to pasar mlm on tuesday with my bunch of really good friends. it was fun. lotsa dramas, lotsa laughters. lotsa fun xD

girls are always girls =p

sapphist are always sapphist, same goes to all the faggots in the world! haha

wdenesday went to pasar malam again *winks. this time it rained so heavily la wea! wohoooo. it's like a dream come true, finally! wheee

ended up being flown to Las Vegas or Hollywood or whatever place it is called. it was all in autopilot mode, so you could somehow imagine what happened in the car. the usual drama where we would be fighting, biting and pulling hair. this time Nek and me managed to make the tough guys weep in tears! *peace. wakak
stopped by at the playground at Nek's housing area and had a great conversation, which ended approximately at 12am or so, don't remember. but mind us, we still have school the next day. =D
i don't mean to talk about them all the time, i mean i do have really great friends around me.. but this bunch of people, (dFians) is starting to take on a much larger role in my life for i realize i could not live without. it's more to like we help each other in every aspects; changing for our betterselves. well i don't know, they just have this magic to make things happen and to make an impact in my life, a brand of strength or maybe even become real confidantes. what a lame statement. haha. it's unusual to have such a diverse group of friends in life, so when you found one, you should embrace and make the most of it, that's what it ought to be aite? wakakaka

enough of elaboration.

let's talk about earlier. i just find it very funny. gotta help my boss at sidewalk, and as usual he would be preaching and telling me all sorts of stories. so we somehow touched on the issue of friend's influence and yada yada la.. and he praised me again ... *coughs.. don't wanna ss again, so not gonna say what was it.. but what flattered me most was when he said *coughs.. couldn't help but to ss abit, at least i have the capability to ss.. sounds so arrogant. cis.. but anyway, my boss was telling me 'i believe you'll go very far in life bla bla bla.. and you know, you willing to work hard and play hard at the same time.. it's good bla bla bla'.

i don't wanna remember which monkie said i'm a spoilt brat, LOL; which i can assure you, i ain't one, and never will! childish doesnt make you a kid inside out, bear that in mind. =p

enough said.

zzz.

oh and one more thing, a MUST to write. earlier was having hiccups. guess what's the remedy to it? my boss asked me to eat banana, and it really helped! OMG OMG. it makes me wonder. does that make me a real monkie or just a coincidence? OMG OMG. hahaaa

3.40am.

badminton at 11am.

i'm so gona make myself comfortable in a horizontal position now, you-know-what-i-mean.

xoxo

This life is yours. Take the power to choose what you want to do and do it well. Take the power to love what you want in life and love it honestly. Take the power to walk in the forest and be a part of nature. Take the power to control your own life. No one else can do it for you. Take the power to make your life happy. --Susan Polis Schutz

triple Fs: fantastic, fascinating, fun!

i just have to blog about this!!

omg. this is like the best thing ever happened to me..

being able to be a true genuine monkie. oopss. i mean monkies. LOL LOL

a bunch of monkies.. one, two, three including me, four monkies went to somewhere nearby the mamak's shop for a drink. it was intoxicating la wea! marvelous! i don't know what's the right word to describe what i'm feeling, but it's just so superb fun and cool everytime i'm with them! hoho

suddenly i just have this feeling of running up high the mountain shouting my lungs, my ribs, my heart or whatever organ it is out loud screaming "OH MY GOD. OMG! woooooooo ahhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhh. " that kinda thing and please don't mind me, i've gone crazy i know, but i'll be right back very soon. so please bear with me. *showing the peace sign

you might be thinking, 'oh my lord, please save this girl from being so insane or yada yada' but you know what, i don't care. i love what i'm doing and i love my life. i love being my true self, being able to do what i feel best. hohohohoh

okay, anyway, i don't know why i'm being this hyper suddenly but we were fighting, pulling hair, punching each other, slapping face, biting hands roaring away making the sound of a baby tiger lion, bullying the monkies by boink-ing, pushing and pulling their heads like playing see-saw? hahaha. omg. it's totally out of mind, but i just love it! haha *big grins

you see, when one crazy fella combined with one insane fella, the outcome is beyond anyone's expectation. we just gone nuts, like completely gone WILD.
as a result, her head was spinning worse than the worse-case scenario hurricane and my lips bleed and swollen worse than a babi. credits to our terlampau keganasan xD
just wanna say something to this particular friend of mine, i really have hell lotsa fun when i'm with you! you know who you are. in case you don't know, it's my tuk saudara's atuk's cicit's daughter's daddy's son-in law's atuk's wife!! yeah. i'm talking to you, i love you so dearie! LOL

if you were to ask me what's the best damn thing that ever happened to me, i would definately say it's my life being blessed with so many great people in my life.

there's no certainty of what's gonna happen in the future. all we can do is to grab hold of the present moment and make full use of our days by living life to its fullest.

i don't know what awaits me in the future, but right now. at this very moment, i just wanna say i love my family as usual, dFians for they're really God sent, my bestbutts, and all my good friends. they're just too superb for me to put it all in words. one word to says it all, they're the boomb! wakakakakakakak

universities should not be degree mills but centres of knowledge dissemination and creativity. give your opinion on how universities can improve the quality of their education.

OMG. i hate essay writing.

i'm stucked right now.

don't know how and where to begin with.

so screwed up.

by 12am tonight, i wonder if my prince charming riding a white horse will come to my rescue by helping me with this topic essay writing? LOL

not universities suck. school rocks. essay bye bye that kinda thing please. hahahaah

uwaaaaaa

random thoughts on a random sunday xD

right now i have this sudden craving to know what kind of a person i've been over the past eighteen years or so forth..

what kind of a friend am i to you?

there are few things that actually strike me, that keeps me thinking.

it's funny how you could easily point out a person's weaknesses or what you don't like about other people..

but if i were to point out my own flaws and what i don't like about myself, i seriously have no idea about it.

because i can't judge myself, i really don't know.

i don't even know if i've been over reacting, or maybe too sarcastic in the eyes' of others.

all i know, i'm just being me; saying what i wanna say, and do whatever i feel is right.. which yea.. it doesn't sound right eh? sounds foolish instead.

i always thought that my intention was good, telling others what they ought to know.. telling the truth is never easy, and what's more accepting the fact that knowing the truth sometimes hurt. i'm not tryna say that i'm a superhero who comes to rescue those in need, being so fair and just all the time. my standpoint is that, everyone ought to know the truth, and there'll always be one person to be the supervillain, telling you things that hurt. but i doubt that anymore. i really don't know. the tongue like a sharp knife.. kills without drawing blood.

i wonder how many victims i've killed over the years..

it wasn't my intention to be this mean, i'm just being myself.. craps.. i can change my attitudes. but it's not easy, it's superbly hard. take for example, you don't just love eating chocolate but you are totally obsessed with it. although chocolate makes you fat, you're still tempted to eat despite the consequences that you'll become a FAT HIPPO. same goes to; you were so used to being so mean, or being so crappy. out of a sudden, you just gotta change. learn to shut up, and to talk less. it ain't easy.

this monkie of mine used to send me a sms which rhymes like this:
it's actually a habit.
if you cut off the alphabet h from the word habit, there's still abit left
cut the a, still got bit,
cut the alphabet b, the word it is still there.
it's hard but do it slowly.

i'm sick of being the kinda girl where too often people don't take you seriously and only thinks that you are good for nothing. when you are being funny, they take you seriously. when it's time for you to be really serious, no one trusts you. depressing isn't it?

and i learnt something. i must change, whether i like it or not. all i need is time, to change slowly. but when ones started to change their attitudes, it doesn't mean they are being another person. it only shows maturity. okay, maybe not maturity but more to a self discovery where you started to learn who you are, stepping from the known to the unknown.

but the question is, what kind of a person i have been all these years to you?

i seriously need to know.

i don't know why, but i always love honest criticisms coz somehow or rather it builds rather than complimenting someone when you don't mean what you say, it doesn't help at all.

* i hate staying wide awake at this hour, coz it kept me thinking hell lotsa lame stuffs.

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change, the courage to change the things i can, the wisdom to know the difference, the strength of mind to control my tongue, and may sleeping spell bestowed upon me. in God's name i pray. woo ahh ahh (ajaran monkie sesat xD)

don't you ever wish you could be a seven years old kid again?

when you never had to worry about ANYTHING, anything at all.

not tests or grades or homework.

not the responsibilities you had on your shoulders.

not having to worry about what you do or say will affect other people.

not knowing what problem is all about.

when the only care you had in the world was if your mom said yes to that barbie doll you've been dying to have.

when the possibility that tomorrow your friends wouldn't be your friends anymore never even occurred to you.

when every word you said is so fine that you can talk as if you don't have to buy insurance for it, you don't even give a damn about people's feeling knowing they will forgive you.

if every word you said could get you into trouble, would you still talk?

the funny thing is, when you are seven years old all you want to do is grow up faster.

and when you're a teenager and you feel like you're all alone, all you want to do is be seven years old again.

but when you are eighteen years old, you are stuck in the middle.

it's either you choose to avoid the problem or to solve it.

i'm so sick of everything that i choose not to think of anything, anymore.

being happy is all i have and only thing i can do right now. *coughs stoooooopid xD

maybe i'm being an ostrich burying its head in the sand when faced with adversities, thinking that everything is alright when in reality it's not. my bloody ass still stuck there.

how i wish someone would come and kick my ass. haha.

and i'm not complaining why is it so, i just need to pour it all out.

what does not destroy me, makes me stronger.

Strong people make as many and as ghastly mistakes as weak people. The difference is that strong people admit them, laugh at them, learn form them. This is how they become strong.--Richard Needham

i feel good about it now...

i found this song lyrics at such a right timing..

God treats me well eh? hahehihohu

I don't know where I'm going,
Only know where I've been.
Still can't find true love,
But at least I have my friends.

They say that the journey,
Is more important than the end.
So I'm living the best I can,
with my honor to defend.

All through my life,
Something's been missing.
I still don't know what it is,
And I'm still searching.

The only choice is not to give up.
It's hard to do, but it must be done.
Only you can make it fun.
Life is the only thing worth living to do.
So make the best of it,
For it's up to you.

It's only a phase.
Life is only a phase.
It's only a phase,
We all go through.
It's only a phase.
Life is only a phase.
It's only a phase,
We all go through.

It's going to take a little time from me.
It's going to take a little effort from you.
It's going to take a little work from us,
But working together,
Is going to make it better.
So make it better!

All through my life,
Something's been missing.
I'm still looking and I need help,
Help from you.

Can you help me out?
I can't do it alone.
I just wanna know.
So come on, make it known to me!

It's going to take a little time from me.
It's going to take a little effort from you.
It's going to take a little work from us,
But working together,
Is going to make it better.
So make it better!

Life is only a phase.
Can you help me out, now?
Life is only a phase, that we all go through.

It's only a phase.
Life is only a phase.
It's only a phase,
We all go through...
So let's make it right.
It's only...(only a phase)
Life is only...(only a phase)
Make it right...(make it right)
Help me tonight...(tonight)
It's only a phase,
Don't give up,

Because, it's only a phase.
Life is only a phase.
It's only a phase,
We all go through...
So let's make it right.

Let's make it right...this life

i don't feel right.

i don't like what i am doing.

i don't like what i am seeing.

i hate myself for being such a hypocrite.

i'm so sleepy.

maybe i need a rest, like now.

haha.

but you know what,

i love the rain.

i love the feeling of raindrops pouring on my body.

i'm so in love with the raindrops.

it feels right.

it makes you feel so good.

maybe i'm crazy, but i'm just being me.

there's no right or wrong.

it's always better to be true to yourself even if the world is against you rather pretending to be someone you are not just to be liked by everyone.

ones may look innocent and sweet outside, but underneath that wool lies a real devil in disguise, we never know.

vice versa, ones may look so childish and a real bastard to you, but the truth.. it'll surprise you.

i don't mean to pin point anyone, it's just my thought anyway.

who are we to judge?

whether it's right or wrong?

there's no answer to it, i realize.

the decision is yours to make.

the choice is yours.

the one and only thing i told myself as i woke up today was "Suk Wai,
you gotta be good today. finish up all your homeworks."

even in the midst of darkness, uncountable number of mosquito bites that i had to endure, with no electricity..

i was so semangat..

but ended up..

i was just wasting my damn time.

#Q(*)&$^(*#%$^@#%^&@#

and good thing about today. luckily i was absent from school.

so many things happened, but eventually it gets better at the end of the day.

i've got new resolutions for myself:

change suk wai, CHANGE
control yourself suk wai, CONTROL
be patience sukwai, PATIENCE
get serious suk wai, get SERIOUS
shut up suk wai, SHUT UP
stop procrastinating suk wai, STOP

sleep by 10pm. back to homework mode. adios

something to share... =D

always try to help a friend in need

believe in yourself

be brave.. but it's okay to be afraid sometimes

study hard

give lotsa kisses

laugh often

don't be overly concerned with your weight, it's just a number

always try to see the glass half full instead of half empty

meet new people even if they look different to you

remain calm, even when it seems hopeless

take lotsa naps

be weird whenever you have the chance

love your friends no matter who they are

don't waste food

relax

take an occasional risk

try to have a little fun each day.. it's important

work together as a team

share a joke with friends

fall in love with someone

and say "i love you" often

express yourself creatively

be conscious of your appearance

always be up for surprises

love someone with all of your heart

share with friends

watch you steps

it will get better

there is always someone who loves you more than you know

exercise to keep fit

live up to your name

seize the moment

hold on to good friends; they are few and far between

indulge in the things you truly love

cherish every Sunday (i'm gonna talk about this later xD)

at the end of the day.. pray

close your eyes and smile at least once a day!

went to eat ice creams with 3 monkies. it was superb! been fighting all the way in the car, til reached sidewalk and yet still fighting. as usual, i missed the most exciting part, but forget it.. haha

i see skies of blue.. clouds of white

bright blessed days.. dark sacred nights

.Matts(tuk myg).Arvin(uncle).Thiru(uncle).

.Sam(atuk).Zulaikha(nenek).Danny(daddy).Ct(mama).Pat(love).SukWai(me).
and i think to myself.. what a wonderful world xD