it's 5.18 in the morning.
every normal human is supposed to be sleeping
but i don't know what i'm doing currently.
maybe i shall start it off by saying, "Good Morning, folks!"
well, i was reading my previous entries & tryna amend the.. urm.. *paiseh.. grammar mistakes that i made & realize how funny i was, in almost every of my posts, i was actually tryna motivate myself. LOL. never realized that. now i know.
haven finish reading all yet since my mouth betraying me already. gonna read all by today! since it's the last day of the year already, must recharge myself to the fullest now.
so instead, i'm gonna say "Good Night, young world!"
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
oh yea, and how could i not blog about my Genting trip on the 26th & 27th, just recently!
gosh, i bet i would remember this trip at least a thousand year! or maybe a hundred year, not to sound too over exaggerating.
it was my second time in Genting spent with his family,
but it was my first time experiencing such thing as more sleep & less play, & came back the next day without having proper sleep at all. or should i say, at least 3 persons barely slept at night.
it was unfortunate that the Babi was sick, when i say sick, what i meant is extremely sick that on & off, he needed rest in between. so it's like we bought the All Theme Parks tickets but ended up playing one outdoor game, the Fun Kart & one indoor game, the Bumper Car all at night! LOL. but if u ask me if i had fun, i would say Hell Yes! after all, the visibility during the day wasn't the best. it was the night time that the day came alive cos we were surrounded by the mist, everywhere. even while queuing for Fun Kart, we could barely see much with our naked eyes. so could you imagine how we sped without seeing much clearly & it was so extremely cold that your hands were frozen but still, you gotta drive at the speed of maybe 60km/h? LOL. i didn't know much, all i knew i had so much fun! i felt like in heaven! hahaha
bumper car was crazy as well! everyone aimed at one particular person & that lucky person was indeed Vincent, cos he's big enough to withstand the force, i suppose? LOL. Gosh, i wish i could play again!
oh and not forgetting, the Babi got me two Bears!! gotta upload the pictures real soon!
did i mention that something went wrong with my handphone & everything; from my contacts number to the messages i've been keeping for months till most of my pictures which i haven't saved in my desktop all gone just like that? well, you know how depressing a rewrite of a handphone costs you? i almost went out of control but thank god someone told me, maybe it's a sign from god wanting me to start my brand new year with fresh memories. forget about the past, all the past that makes you stay in the past & never to move on. well, i take that advice.
enough of myself. how about yourself? how did you spend your Christmas? precisely, how did you spend your year of 2009? hope you had a great one as much as i enjoyed myself.
gosh, i bet i would remember this trip at least a thousand year! or maybe a hundred year, not to sound too over exaggerating.
it was my second time in Genting spent with his family,
but it was my first time experiencing such thing as more sleep & less play, & came back the next day without having proper sleep at all. or should i say, at least 3 persons barely slept at night.
it was unfortunate that the Babi was sick, when i say sick, what i meant is extremely sick that on & off, he needed rest in between. so it's like we bought the All Theme Parks tickets but ended up playing one outdoor game, the Fun Kart & one indoor game, the Bumper Car all at night! LOL. but if u ask me if i had fun, i would say Hell Yes! after all, the visibility during the day wasn't the best. it was the night time that the day came alive cos we were surrounded by the mist, everywhere. even while queuing for Fun Kart, we could barely see much with our naked eyes. so could you imagine how we sped without seeing much clearly & it was so extremely cold that your hands were frozen but still, you gotta drive at the speed of maybe 60km/h? LOL. i didn't know much, all i knew i had so much fun! i felt like in heaven! hahaha
bumper car was crazy as well! everyone aimed at one particular person & that lucky person was indeed Vincent, cos he's big enough to withstand the force, i suppose? LOL. Gosh, i wish i could play again!
oh and not forgetting, the Babi got me two Bears!! gotta upload the pictures real soon!
did i mention that something went wrong with my handphone & everything; from my contacts number to the messages i've been keeping for months till most of my pictures which i haven't saved in my desktop all gone just like that? well, you know how depressing a rewrite of a handphone costs you? i almost went out of control but thank god someone told me, maybe it's a sign from god wanting me to start my brand new year with fresh memories. forget about the past, all the past that makes you stay in the past & never to move on. well, i take that advice.
enough of myself. how about yourself? how did you spend your Christmas? precisely, how did you spend your year of 2009? hope you had a great one as much as i enjoyed myself.
3rd Day at Work
It's amazing where these creatures came from!
Work, as usual; tiring yet satisfying. The latter one was simply cos i'm earning every penny with my own sweat. that feeling is so superb that you feel as if you are flying. a vast difference compared to you asking money from your parents. 19 years old, big enough to stand on your own feet & not having your parents to spoon feed you! shame on you.
well, if you ask me. it's only the 3rd day, i'm almost near to giving up. cos i couldn't stand the pain on my knees. i couldn't even stand properly, cos my feet are killing me. maybe i'm overweight, LOL or maybe cos it's been too long i have stopped moving around. but i would say, my whole body is crying. even my palms are drying up & peeling like an old lady already.
but you know what? despite all these rants, at the end of the day, when my boss gave me my salary, i couldn't stop smiling! feels like an idiot smiling to myself, but i was feeling hyper. i was so proud of myself, really. suddenly, i feel everything is pretty worth it. forget about the pains & panda eyes that i've got, the fruits that i reap today is enough to spare myself for the day !! yeahhhH!!!
by the way, i know i'm dumb enough not knowing how much i'm being paid per hour but i'm surprised that i got so much $$$ despite working for 3 days nie.
next week, still have 7 more days to go. ooh la la... richer by hundreds again! haha
anyway, i served Indeh's uncle today!! never knew he had second baby already.
& &, Shantini is in college already! So pretty with her mascara & eye liner all, so gothics! WOW!
on a very unrelated note, when i was still sleeping this morning, i received a call from an unknown number asking me to go for interview in KL for the position that i applied in Equatorial Hotel!! WOW!!! few weeks ago, i received an email from them saying i'm not qualified for the position, but today they called & it's my turn to turn them down. so very the funny.
& &, i cant wait for college to start!! hopefully by the time comes, every of my worries & doubts is solved. is or are anyway? LOL.
It's amazing where these creatures came from!
Work, as usual; tiring yet satisfying. The latter one was simply cos i'm earning every penny with my own sweat. that feeling is so superb that you feel as if you are flying. a vast difference compared to you asking money from your parents. 19 years old, big enough to stand on your own feet & not having your parents to spoon feed you! shame on you.
well, if you ask me. it's only the 3rd day, i'm almost near to giving up. cos i couldn't stand the pain on my knees. i couldn't even stand properly, cos my feet are killing me. maybe i'm overweight, LOL or maybe cos it's been too long i have stopped moving around. but i would say, my whole body is crying. even my palms are drying up & peeling like an old lady already.
but you know what? despite all these rants, at the end of the day, when my boss gave me my salary, i couldn't stop smiling! feels like an idiot smiling to myself, but i was feeling hyper. i was so proud of myself, really. suddenly, i feel everything is pretty worth it. forget about the pains & panda eyes that i've got, the fruits that i reap today is enough to spare myself for the day !! yeahhhH!!!
by the way, i know i'm dumb enough not knowing how much i'm being paid per hour but i'm surprised that i got so much $$$ despite working for 3 days nie.
next week, still have 7 more days to go. ooh la la... richer by hundreds again! haha
anyway, i served Indeh's uncle today!! never knew he had second baby already.
& &, Shantini is in college already! So pretty with her mascara & eye liner all, so gothics! WOW!
on a very unrelated note, when i was still sleeping this morning, i received a call from an unknown number asking me to go for interview in KL for the position that i applied in Equatorial Hotel!! WOW!!! few weeks ago, i received an email from them saying i'm not qualified for the position, but today they called & it's my turn to turn them down. so very the funny.
& &, i cant wait for college to start!! hopefully by the time comes, every of my worries & doubts is solved. is or are anyway? LOL.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
2nd day at work.
so wear out if you ask me. tiresome is the only word that i know. *yawns
but the funny thing is, guess who was my second customers? none other than the spongybob, thean soong. of all the people in this world. LOL. haha. joking. you know what's the good thing working there? it's the people that you're gonna meet. sometimes, once you turn your back nie, you saw someone familiar to you & suddenly you remember "Hey, long time no see & yada yada". Elizabeth Liew was there of cos & i saw her with the boyfriend. suddenly, i feel so old again. later when i was taking order, the aunty suddenly said something like " hey, do you by any chance know who's amma? and i was like "AMMA is it? yeah i know!" & she kept talking... LOL
oh yea, an hour ago. i received this joke of the year! really wanted to share with you peeps. so here it goes something like this
and i kept HA HA HA HA HA HA HA till i'm out of breath & had to cover my mouth from laughing out loud. That poor fella must be so darn embarrassed.
LOL. anyway, next post up!
so wear out if you ask me. tiresome is the only word that i know. *yawns
but the funny thing is, guess who was my second customers? none other than the spongybob, thean soong. of all the people in this world. LOL. haha. joking. you know what's the good thing working there? it's the people that you're gonna meet. sometimes, once you turn your back nie, you saw someone familiar to you & suddenly you remember "Hey, long time no see & yada yada". Elizabeth Liew was there of cos & i saw her with the boyfriend. suddenly, i feel so old again. later when i was taking order, the aunty suddenly said something like " hey, do you by any chance know who's amma? and i was like "AMMA is it? yeah i know!" & she kept talking... LOL
oh yea, an hour ago. i received this joke of the year! really wanted to share with you peeps. so here it goes something like this
His "thing" got stuck in his zipper & so he needed a first aider for help. Had to cut each zipper tooth one by one. Almost half hour there, his "thing" after that also swollen. So kesian
and i kept HA HA HA HA HA HA HA till i'm out of breath & had to cover my mouth from laughing out loud. That poor fella must be so darn embarrassed.
LOL. anyway, next post up!
26th December 2009, a.m.
Love is a verb.
Sometimes it's not what you say that matters, but what you do.
You would do anything for the one you care about.
You would sacrifice even your sweetest dream to constantly care for the one you care about.
Perhaps that's love, or beyond that.
I would not say sacrifice, it's beyond that.
You feel the responsibility of making sure the one you care about is alright when he's sick.
Having a shoulder to lean on.
No, responsibility is not the word either.
You are more than willing to do it because you want to, not because you have to.
It's like as if you are taking care of something really precious to you with tender care & love, making sure you don't lose it.
It's like as if that person's happiness is more important than your own.
Beyond what you have always wanted to have, if you have to choose between both; it's not even near to it because you know it right away, whom you'll choose and not what you'll choose.
Even if you are about to witness the most beautiful sunrise happened right before your eyes, you'd rather miss it to look into the eyes of the one you care about.
With no regrets at all.
In life, there's always something that you have to sacrifice in order to gain something more precious.
And i know it right away, whom I'll choose certainly & definitely.
Love is a verb.
Sometimes it's not what you say that matters, but what you do.
You would do anything for the one you care about.
You would sacrifice even your sweetest dream to constantly care for the one you care about.
Perhaps that's love, or beyond that.
I would not say sacrifice, it's beyond that.
You feel the responsibility of making sure the one you care about is alright when he's sick.
Having a shoulder to lean on.
No, responsibility is not the word either.
You are more than willing to do it because you want to, not because you have to.
It's like as if you are taking care of something really precious to you with tender care & love, making sure you don't lose it.
It's like as if that person's happiness is more important than your own.
Beyond what you have always wanted to have, if you have to choose between both; it's not even near to it because you know it right away, whom you'll choose and not what you'll choose.
Even if you are about to witness the most beautiful sunrise happened right before your eyes, you'd rather miss it to look into the eyes of the one you care about.
With no regrets at all.
In life, there's always something that you have to sacrifice in order to gain something more precious.
And i know it right away, whom I'll choose certainly & definitely.
Weather's superb warm today.
I reckon if you put an egg under the blaring hot Malaysian sun for an hour, it'll become a hard-boiled egg. Leave it under the sun throughout the day, it'll definitely end up hangus.
Yesterday started work again after almost a year i've stopped working. God forbid, that was so tiring. The moment we opened the shop nie, customers rushed in like a herd of lost sheep. It's amazing where these people came from because it's only a Monday, blue monday i would say.
When i slightly had some time to rest, it was already 11.30. WOW! Time passed like a jetplane. Next thing i knew, my feet & the back of my bones feel like bruise. Even at night on bed, had to put a pillow underneath to relieve the pains.
Gosh, it's only the first day. I still have two more days to suffer. Hope today would be a better day!
Couldn't imagine myself working full time from 10 to 10 almost everyday if 5 hours of work i already started complaining. sighs.
As Patrick said; after months of enduring pain, the fruits of your hardwork at the end of the day is pretty worth it. When you feel pain, think of the Macbook Pro that you really wanted.
Feels like shouting out loud '' Ammmmmmmmmmmmmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa"
LOL
I reckon if you put an egg under the blaring hot Malaysian sun for an hour, it'll become a hard-boiled egg. Leave it under the sun throughout the day, it'll definitely end up hangus.
Yesterday started work again after almost a year i've stopped working. God forbid, that was so tiring. The moment we opened the shop nie, customers rushed in like a herd of lost sheep. It's amazing where these people came from because it's only a Monday, blue monday i would say.
When i slightly had some time to rest, it was already 11.30. WOW! Time passed like a jetplane. Next thing i knew, my feet & the back of my bones feel like bruise. Even at night on bed, had to put a pillow underneath to relieve the pains.
Gosh, it's only the first day. I still have two more days to suffer. Hope today would be a better day!
Couldn't imagine myself working full time from 10 to 10 almost everyday if 5 hours of work i already started complaining. sighs.
As Patrick said; after months of enduring pain, the fruits of your hardwork at the end of the day is pretty worth it. When you feel pain, think of the Macbook Pro that you really wanted.
Feels like shouting out loud '' Ammmmmmmmmmmmmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa"
LOL
Friday, December 25, 2009
Jingle bells.. jingle all the way
okay, 'im suppose to be resting now cos my head doesn't seem to be in the right order. such a bummer, must it be on the Christmas Day itself.
that's not important, the purpose of me writing this post is simply cos i have so much thoughts in mind that i just have to spill it all out now before i'm being hit with yet another Alzheimer's disease.
my morning started off with singing hallelujah worshiping the God in St. John's Hall, if am not mistaken. thank god i went there, cos part of me was too tired to even get out of bed. this morning i was left with two choices, to ditch my friend missing the fun part sleeping soundly at home or to join in the crowd. well, it's obvious i've chosen the latter one.
what's her name again, Sister Yonna or something from Taiwan? Gosh, she gained my full attention. She's bright, she's beautiful, she has such a powerful voice & most of all she danced so well! and even so, i realize many of my friends can be good dancers as well. i couldn't keep my eyes off-fuu on Fiona the babi hutan, Sue Jane & Eunice! great great dancers. LOL
bla bla bla..
oh, before i forget again; i'm so gonna list out my Wishlists soon before the year drawing to an end. stay tune for more!! hahaha
something to share for today;
How very true if you ask me. So, off i go to bed before deciding if my brain works the way i want it or fails me miserably.
p/s: Have yourself a very Merry Christmas today! May God bless this round lil' thing located in the galaxy known as Milky Way. Hoo Hoo Hoo!
that's not important, the purpose of me writing this post is simply cos i have so much thoughts in mind that i just have to spill it all out now before i'm being hit with yet another Alzheimer's disease.
my morning started off with singing hallelujah worshiping the God in St. John's Hall, if am not mistaken. thank god i went there, cos part of me was too tired to even get out of bed. this morning i was left with two choices, to ditch my friend missing the fun part sleeping soundly at home or to join in the crowd. well, it's obvious i've chosen the latter one.
what's her name again, Sister Yonna or something from Taiwan? Gosh, she gained my full attention. She's bright, she's beautiful, she has such a powerful voice & most of all she danced so well! and even so, i realize many of my friends can be good dancers as well. i couldn't keep my eyes off-fuu on Fiona the babi hutan, Sue Jane & Eunice! great great dancers. LOL
bla bla bla..
oh, before i forget again; i'm so gonna list out my Wishlists soon before the year drawing to an end. stay tune for more!! hahaha
something to share for today;
People who are tough to love are often tough to love for a reason
How very true if you ask me. So, off i go to bed before deciding if my brain works the way i want it or fails me miserably.
p/s: Have yourself a very Merry Christmas today! May God bless this round lil' thing located in the galaxy known as Milky Way. Hoo Hoo Hoo!
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Ok. So here's the thing.
I got an SMS from someone i expected the least would have asked "How are you?". Someone I truly thought that, 11 years of friendship down the drain because of one bloody argument. Now to think of it again, how silly we were, or me at least. It's not her fault nor neither it's me, if you ask me now; but that's not important anymore. when you so insist on being so stubborn, what you gain is what you lose at the end of the day.
well, i just wish to start my new year with a great job ahead, setting a positive mindset towards everyone & reconnecting with all my friends again!
Form 6 changed me to a person i have not thought i would be today.
back then, i always thought that whatever i think is always right; now i know i'm no perfectionist.
i was the oh-so-straightforward kinda girl that no matter who the people i'm dealing with, as long as i stay true to being myself, i am right; but hell, it's not.
i was infamous for being too talkative or playful, childish in another word. but having been in form 6, somehow or rather, i learn to shut up & play when it's time. doesn't sound like me right? the person that everyone thought so childish could actually think. hahaha.
sometimes, i even hate to be the hypocritical person that i see in others, but again i'm wrong. to survive, you have to wear different kinda masks dealing with different situation.
I guess Form 6 opened a corner of my mind and heart to see things that I didn't notice before. The oh-so-naive self could only apply to the small kids, even so kids nowadays are way smarter than you. so get smart.
I wasted 2 yrs of my life
But as I see it now it was just a path I had to go through.
If you ask me again, do i ever regret?
My answer is a No.
I was suppose to be in St. Michael to meet so many incredible people, and some even stay as a family member to me.
I was suppose to go through life & to understand the language of the universe that life isn't beautiful all the time.
I was suppose to grow as a person for i know if i were not in form 6 i would still be the same old person i was 2 years ago.
I was suppose to wait till this exact college was built at the exact time & the mentor-mentee program was launched for the next intake.
It is nothing less than a miracle to me.
There'll be times, when i'm all by myself in the room would suddenly burst into tears or laughter. I'm not insane you see, it just that when i think of all that has happened to me in the past & happening to me currently, i'm amazed by what He can do to His people. We can plan what we desire, but in the end it's all up to The Almighty to decide what's the best for His people, for i ain't being religious here nor am i preaching, but that's what i thought at least.
I got an SMS from someone i expected the least would have asked "How are you?". Someone I truly thought that, 11 years of friendship down the drain because of one bloody argument. Now to think of it again, how silly we were, or me at least. It's not her fault nor neither it's me, if you ask me now; but that's not important anymore. when you so insist on being so stubborn, what you gain is what you lose at the end of the day.
well, i just wish to start my new year with a great job ahead, setting a positive mindset towards everyone & reconnecting with all my friends again!
Form 6 changed me to a person i have not thought i would be today.
back then, i always thought that whatever i think is always right; now i know i'm no perfectionist.
i was the oh-so-straightforward kinda girl that no matter who the people i'm dealing with, as long as i stay true to being myself, i am right; but hell, it's not.
i was infamous for being too talkative or playful, childish in another word. but having been in form 6, somehow or rather, i learn to shut up & play when it's time. doesn't sound like me right? the person that everyone thought so childish could actually think. hahaha.
sometimes, i even hate to be the hypocritical person that i see in others, but again i'm wrong. to survive, you have to wear different kinda masks dealing with different situation.
I guess Form 6 opened a corner of my mind and heart to see things that I didn't notice before. The oh-so-naive self could only apply to the small kids, even so kids nowadays are way smarter than you. so get smart.
I wasted 2 yrs of my life
But as I see it now it was just a path I had to go through.
If you ask me again, do i ever regret?
My answer is a No.
I was suppose to be in St. Michael to meet so many incredible people, and some even stay as a family member to me.
I was suppose to go through life & to understand the language of the universe that life isn't beautiful all the time.
I was suppose to grow as a person for i know if i were not in form 6 i would still be the same old person i was 2 years ago.
I was suppose to wait till this exact college was built at the exact time & the mentor-mentee program was launched for the next intake.
It is nothing less than a miracle to me.
There'll be times, when i'm all by myself in the room would suddenly burst into tears or laughter. I'm not insane you see, it just that when i think of all that has happened to me in the past & happening to me currently, i'm amazed by what He can do to His people. We can plan what we desire, but in the end it's all up to The Almighty to decide what's the best for His people, for i ain't being religious here nor am i preaching, but that's what i thought at least.
Monday, December 21, 2009
aloha folks!
no purpose for this post, just feel like dancing on the keyboards with my fingers. lalalala
LOL.
problems still remain here to stay, but well; i finally learn to give myself a break.
was gathering all my certificates when i found a cute note of mine written in a kawaii-neh piece of paper. don't remember me being that childish writing that note, but it does brighten the rest of my day. that babi fella had a good laugh though. whee
job-hunting still receiving zero reply. but i'm all positive.
really really wanted to get my first laptop with my own hard-earned money. so much satisfaction. maybe it's a good idea to start giving a nickname to my lappy. what should i name him? baby boo? baby nuts? babylicious? baby baby.. eeee.. something white.. huggable.. hot stuff.. *cracking brain. hunny bear? white & furry & huggable! but i don't get the hot stuff yet. sighs. hahahaha
no purpose for this post, just feel like dancing on the keyboards with my fingers. lalalala
LOL.
problems still remain here to stay, but well; i finally learn to give myself a break.
was gathering all my certificates when i found a cute note of mine written in a kawaii-neh piece of paper. don't remember me being that childish writing that note, but it does brighten the rest of my day. that babi fella had a good laugh though. whee
job-hunting still receiving zero reply. but i'm all positive.
really really wanted to get my first laptop with my own hard-earned money. so much satisfaction. maybe it's a good idea to start giving a nickname to my lappy. what should i name him? baby boo? baby nuts? babylicious? baby baby.. eeee.. something white.. huggable.. hot stuff.. *cracking brain. hunny bear? white & furry & huggable! but i don't get the hot stuff yet. sighs. hahahaha
Sunday, December 20, 2009
recently, i've had insomnia again.
could only sleep when it's nearing dawn.
today's no exceptional as well.
i thought if he accompanied me tonight, i would have a good night sleep cos he managed to cast a spell on me as usual. but well, i finally broke the spell. zam zam alakazam. amma la. sighs
if only i could stop worrying for a second, i would be able to sleep soundly throughout the night.
the day before yesterday, i went down to KL with Patrick to attend the Industry Speak organized by Berjaya University College. that college was really superb and i love it seriously! can you imagine, the vice president himself spent hours and hours explaining to me every bit of the hospitality industry and yada yada. love the environment seriously and i could even imagine myself studying in BUCH almost immediately. i've never wanted something this badly, but that would be fantastic if God allows me, to pursue my dream course in my dream college. that would be a dream comes true! and and, i even fantasized of owning a MacBook Pro as my dream laptop. HAHAHAHA
well, financial crisis is not an excuse for you not to dream big, and to achieve your dream eh? if you don't even dare to have a dream, you might as well kiss goodbye to your future.
the first time i stepped into the college, i thought i went to the wrong place. cos even the entrance itself was so grand & Patrick said the entrance looks more like the lobby of a 5-stars hotel. they even have the oenology lab for wine as well as the coffee kitchen to study coffee. was indeed very lucky cos one of the barrista even demonstrated the coffee-making steps and and of course we got the privilege to savour the coffee! was high in caffeine after that. LOL. everything in the college is so fine & perfect.
love the food in kl! but i hate the scent of kl. everywhere we go, the cigarette smoke following us. eeeee! Kay-L, Kay-L; better call Kay-Hell.
oh yea! and that was my first time taking a monorail! LOL. Patrick purposely bought the tickets from Imbi to Raja Chulan, and from Raja Chulan back to Imbi for my first experience of being in the monorail! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
anyway, i love the christmas decorations! *pictures later.
had a really great day trip spent in KL. that was indeed an unforgettable experience.
sort of like the amazing race, running from one destination to another chasing after time.
i remember how from berjaya times square we went all the way to Lot 10 and rushed to Pavillion to be mesmerized by the Christmas decorations as well as in KLCC. headed to Petaling Streets by car and ended up getting a phone battery by him as a present. haha. ran across the road and make one big round to reach Starbucks to get coffee on purpose & crossed the road when the traffic shows green and kept walking at a fast pace reaching Pudu Station finally only to realize the bus departed late by 15minutes waiting for others to get their asses up on the bus. what a joke! hahahahaha. but i loveeeeeeee it! ooh la la
could only sleep when it's nearing dawn.
today's no exceptional as well.
i thought if he accompanied me tonight, i would have a good night sleep cos he managed to cast a spell on me as usual. but well, i finally broke the spell. zam zam alakazam. amma la. sighs
if only i could stop worrying for a second, i would be able to sleep soundly throughout the night.
the day before yesterday, i went down to KL with Patrick to attend the Industry Speak organized by Berjaya University College. that college was really superb and i love it seriously! can you imagine, the vice president himself spent hours and hours explaining to me every bit of the hospitality industry and yada yada. love the environment seriously and i could even imagine myself studying in BUCH almost immediately. i've never wanted something this badly, but that would be fantastic if God allows me, to pursue my dream course in my dream college. that would be a dream comes true! and and, i even fantasized of owning a MacBook Pro as my dream laptop. HAHAHAHA
well, financial crisis is not an excuse for you not to dream big, and to achieve your dream eh? if you don't even dare to have a dream, you might as well kiss goodbye to your future.
the first time i stepped into the college, i thought i went to the wrong place. cos even the entrance itself was so grand & Patrick said the entrance looks more like the lobby of a 5-stars hotel. they even have the oenology lab for wine as well as the coffee kitchen to study coffee. was indeed very lucky cos one of the barrista even demonstrated the coffee-making steps and and of course we got the privilege to savour the coffee! was high in caffeine after that. LOL. everything in the college is so fine & perfect.
love the food in kl! but i hate the scent of kl. everywhere we go, the cigarette smoke following us. eeeee! Kay-L, Kay-L; better call Kay-Hell.
oh yea! and that was my first time taking a monorail! LOL. Patrick purposely bought the tickets from Imbi to Raja Chulan, and from Raja Chulan back to Imbi for my first experience of being in the monorail! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
anyway, i love the christmas decorations! *pictures later.
had a really great day trip spent in KL. that was indeed an unforgettable experience.
sort of like the amazing race, running from one destination to another chasing after time.
i remember how from berjaya times square we went all the way to Lot 10 and rushed to Pavillion to be mesmerized by the Christmas decorations as well as in KLCC. headed to Petaling Streets by car and ended up getting a phone battery by him as a present. haha. ran across the road and make one big round to reach Starbucks to get coffee on purpose & crossed the road when the traffic shows green and kept walking at a fast pace reaching Pudu Station finally only to realize the bus departed late by 15minutes waiting for others to get their asses up on the bus. what a joke! hahahahaha. but i loveeeeeeee it! ooh la la
Saturday, December 19, 2009
anyway, i went to Penang last week.
the weather was so extremely warm that all of us kept sweating like nobody.
went to kek lok si, and that place was phenomenal!
have never seen something as miracle as that before.
i shall upload the pictures together with the video soon.
anyway, have you heard of all fishes unite?
LOL. of cos you never heard of it.
cos that's a new phrase created by yours truly. wakakakak
another interesting fact is;
i can now make full use of this phrase "when you are not at the top of the mountain, you know who your true friends are"
but for my case, it's slightly different.
when you are going down the hills, everyone follows you; because the road is easy to walk.
but when you are going up the hills, that's when you realize no one is willing to walk that path with you; because the road is difficult to walk.
proceed on to Queensbay Mall to fill up our stomachs.
the worst fish & chips i've ever eaten. yucks
was having deja vu after that; cos went to the Fish Spa & Toy Museum again.
stopped by at Wan Chai Kok for dinner.
interesting crowd of people found in Penang; 3-in-1; bisexual, homosexual and even transsexual?
proceed on to Queensbay Mall to fill up our stomachs.
the worst fish & chips i've ever eaten. yucks
was having deja vu after that; cos went to the Fish Spa & Toy Museum again.
stopped by at Wan Chai Kok for dinner.
interesting crowd of people found in Penang; 3-in-1; bisexual, homosexual and even transsexual?
i've so much to write about if you ask me.
so many outdated-posts to be updated.
don't even know where to begin with.
before stpm,
i had so much in mind;
wanting this, hoping that, wishing so much to happen
couldn't wait for stpm to end.
now that stpm has ended,
still have so much in mind;
worrying this, planning that, praying hard everything work out the way i want it exactly.
how i wished i'm still in school.
now that i have to choose the path that so gonna decide where i'll be heading in the next 10 years,
i started to freak out.
so many what ifs.
what if i choose the wrong path?
what if i make the wrong decision today?
what if i fail to secure a job?
what if i can't afford to pay for my studies?
what if the government doesn't approve my loan?
what if i get a bad results in stpm?
what if i have to start all over again?
what if i don't like what i'm doing?
my sister reminded me over and over again not to worry too much for the yet-to-happen,
but if i don't start thinking now,
if i don't start planning now,
i'll end up wasting my life up for nothing.
i just hate to make decisions.
hate to grow up.
as a child, i have always wanted to be an adult.
but being an adult is not easy.
but then again, being a teenager is so much harder.
now i wished to remain as a child.
cos when you are a child, all you worry about is what games you wanna play, or what to do to kill time.
but being a teenager; you are at a crossroads in life- all you worry about is the choice you make today will determine your tomorrow, that you started to feel time is too precious to be wasted.
hahahahaaha.
Friday, December 11, 2009
well.. i really don't wanna write a post right now, but there's something bugging me so much that i couldn't even sleep, so thought of ..... =)
We know how annoying the bed bugs are, but even so; the bed bugs failed to keep me from having a good night sleep.
Mr. Ratnam's death indeed was shocking to myself.
Few hours ago, someone really close to me sent me messages saying how sad she feels about something that has happened and my mum complaining all about her work. That moment, i was still trying to put myself into their shoes, trying to feel how they felt about it and i understood completely how damned that could be.
But few minutes ago, someone i barely know told me the death of Mr. Ratnam. I was stunned and my mind kept playing flashcards to the image of him, the person i hardly know the name. The man that i only waved Hello when i see him guarding the toilet or keeping the school clean. Today i know his name was actually Ratnam.
It kept me thinking, god-knows-why.
Life is so fragile and it is so short.
One never chooses to age,
We would like to dream a little,
Life is not meant to die,
They often die of course,
Cos life is so fragile.
It's funny how when we are given the chance to choose how we feel today,
we chose to be pessimistic;
thinking of the dreadful experiences instead of moving forward,
putting ourselves into a self-pitying mood,
complaining the big WHY of life,
making life all so complicated.
when all we could do is to really TRY.
it's always easier said than done,
cos i've been in that situation before,
where everyone stuffed you with all kind of shits tryna convince you,
when all you know; it doesn't help even a bit.
but how awful it is compared to a person's life who has been taken away unwillingly.
i would rather choose to be happy instead of sad,
smile instead of cry,
optimistic instead of being so pessimistic.
cos if i know, my life is so short,
i wouldn't wanna waste my time thinking of something which i couldn't change the fact that it happened,
unless i have a time machine invented by some idiots and change whatever unfortunate that happened.
but it only happened in fantasy.
you and i knew it long before we grown up.
when we know it's only a fantasy,
why can't we TRY to focus on the good side of things instead of the bad ones.
someone once told me that we choose how we feel today. our mind will determine how today would be. the choise is yours. it only depends on how you choose to feel today, and it'll definitely change everything. how true is that?
some who tried too hard to impress others would give a damn how they reacted toward others, but those who really gives a damn about what they really want, wouldn't even give a damn about what others think of them no matter how crazy it seems to be. right?
i'm not saying this because someone has passed away and i have to say something good about that person, but well... i do think that Mr. Ratnam is a good person and someone i'll truly pay respect to.
We know how annoying the bed bugs are, but even so; the bed bugs failed to keep me from having a good night sleep.
Mr. Ratnam's death indeed was shocking to myself.
Few hours ago, someone really close to me sent me messages saying how sad she feels about something that has happened and my mum complaining all about her work. That moment, i was still trying to put myself into their shoes, trying to feel how they felt about it and i understood completely how damned that could be.
But few minutes ago, someone i barely know told me the death of Mr. Ratnam. I was stunned and my mind kept playing flashcards to the image of him, the person i hardly know the name. The man that i only waved Hello when i see him guarding the toilet or keeping the school clean. Today i know his name was actually Ratnam.
It kept me thinking, god-knows-why.
Life is so fragile and it is so short.
One never chooses to age,
We would like to dream a little,
Life is not meant to die,
They often die of course,
Cos life is so fragile.
It's funny how when we are given the chance to choose how we feel today,
we chose to be pessimistic;
thinking of the dreadful experiences instead of moving forward,
putting ourselves into a self-pitying mood,
complaining the big WHY of life,
making life all so complicated.
when all we could do is to really TRY.
it's always easier said than done,
cos i've been in that situation before,
where everyone stuffed you with all kind of shits tryna convince you,
when all you know; it doesn't help even a bit.
but how awful it is compared to a person's life who has been taken away unwillingly.
i would rather choose to be happy instead of sad,
smile instead of cry,
optimistic instead of being so pessimistic.
cos if i know, my life is so short,
i wouldn't wanna waste my time thinking of something which i couldn't change the fact that it happened,
unless i have a time machine invented by some idiots and change whatever unfortunate that happened.
but it only happened in fantasy.
you and i knew it long before we grown up.
when we know it's only a fantasy,
why can't we TRY to focus on the good side of things instead of the bad ones.
someone once told me that we choose how we feel today. our mind will determine how today would be. the choise is yours. it only depends on how you choose to feel today, and it'll definitely change everything. how true is that?
some who tried too hard to impress others would give a damn how they reacted toward others, but those who really gives a damn about what they really want, wouldn't even give a damn about what others think of them no matter how crazy it seems to be. right?
i'm not saying this because someone has passed away and i have to say something good about that person, but well... i do think that Mr. Ratnam is a good person and someone i'll truly pay respect to.
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