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Monday, September 26, 2011

This Is It.

You.
meeting you was fate.
but being friend with you is my choice.
You.
of all the people, made me believe there's a person with a heart like gold.
yet, of all the people i have encountered,
stupid is a strong word.
I would say, you defined how an ignorant person is like.
everyone keeps telling me, to give up on you.
but no, I cant give up on you just yet.
I'm being as ignorant as you are.
I choose to believe, eventually you'll open your eyes to see my intention.
& choose what's best for yourself and not what others want you to do.
but no, you are just as ignorant as you always are.
trying to avoid confrontations.
lies after lies.
excuses after one another.
how long are you gonna live a life like that?
Today,
I've reached my limits.
I've played my role as a friend to you,
to help you beyond than that.
but what i see, you're a total pain in the ass.
you choose to live the hell's path.
be as ignorant as you always are,
i have no rights to tell you what to do with your choice of life.
you're gonna face the music sooner or later.
but i sincerely wished you happiness.
i have a life to live by
& i choose not to waste any more time on you
so you can now kiss our friendship goodbye.
i give up on you now.

Yours sincerely,
Suk Wai

Monday, September 19, 2011

time for a fresh layout in my bloggie.

i wonder how long it takes for the queen of procrastinator to beautify this blog. that is. x)

The best

Sometimes life hits you hard. You have to go thru' obstacles, problems and face things that you hate the most. You are placed in situations which you wish the earth would suddenly open and swallow you right there and then. 

But one thing I've learned and keep reminding myself is that... In whatever situations that you're in, you make the best out of it. Even if you stepped on shit or you're swimming in shit(pardon the language), you make the best out of it. I'm not sure how it can get better from shitty situations, but things will eventually get better. It's just the ones that are strong and have courage to go thru' the stormy seas and hurricanes, those are the ones that will survive and enjoy the rainbow at the end. Some don't make it, but for those who do make it, they come out stronger and ready for the next stormy weather. 

If it pours, wear a raincoat, take out an umbrella. If the wind is blowing right in ur face, walk with your butt facing the other direction. LOL. get it? Life goes on. Make the best out of it. In every situation, there's always something good in it. You may not see it now, you will, eventually. 

posted by Caryn Liew, Friday, September 2, 2011.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

my heart sings a monotonous song

rational tells me i should stop giving a shit about you.
but my heart confused me. 
it makes me feel guilty for whatever shit i am doing to you.
but if i don't, i'm suffocating myself.
you make me feel worthless. 
worthless of my time and advices being heard but not listened to. 
as much as i respect your choice of life,
i hope you respect my feelings, as to why i do things i do.
stop running away like a child and start to pick up your responsibility as an adult.
stand firm to your decisions and stop trying to please everyone.
i'm sick of this pleasing game.
i have no issues with you, fyi.
it's your undecided-mind that i loathe.

on a different note..
few weeks back in my hometown is worthy.
i'm glad that i have finally woken up from dreamland and back to the harsh reality.
to get back on track to set my priority right again. 
to know what is important and what should be excluded.
i picked up the tak-kisah attitude again for things that doesn't matter to me.
i dont wana be bothered anymore.
what matters to me?
studies will always be my priority.
i have families to whom their hopes are relied on my shoulders.
i have a CGPA to maintain or my scholarship will be taken back.
i can't afford to screw up again, or i'll not only disappoint myself but the people that i cared for.
most of all, i have every reasons to believe that i am capable of  doing if i put my heart & soul into it.
i need support from friends. good friends i'm saying.
i need them not to judge me for things i do.
no question being asked, just trust would do.
i need friends to constantly push me to work even harder so i do not lost track again.
not all works and no play i am becoming.
but there is time for everything.
time to get serious.
& time to play.
the remaining two years left would be the critical point to decide which path one's will be heading towards; the successful or the failure path.
the choice is yours.

ps,
i am no perfection either.
hate me or love me.
but stop being so fake can?
i hate hypocrites.
get.a.life.pls
LOL