beautifully written xD

I think....everybody knows what is Love! but very rare persons are able to say something about love. I think...

love can be red,like the intense heat of a passionate kiss
.....the color of sweetness
.....the color of strawberries
love can be blue,like the comfort we take in a pair of denim jeans
.....the color of strenght
.....the color of perfect skies
love can be yellow,bright and warm like the morning sun
.....like the sounds of laughters of children on the merry-go-round
.....like the sounds of fun from the boys flying kites in the open fields
love can be green,peaceful and serene i can hear your heart beats
.....it is the feeling of a loving hand that touch a grieving heart
.....it is the whispering of trusting words to a distressing soul
love can be orange,the loudness of it can drive you up a wall
.....it can drive you to sing like nobody is listening
.....it can drive you to dance like nobody is watching
love can be purple,the courage we need to love bravely and unselfishly
.....the moment i first kiss you i know that i am not afraid to risk involvement
.....the day the declaration of your love for me was made known to the world.

We all want to fall in love. Why?
Because that experience makes us feel completely alive.
Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified,
our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens.
It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon.
But that doesn't diminish its value.
Because we are left with memories
that we treasure for the rest of our lives.

A relationship is like a rose,
How long it lasts, no one knows;
Love can erase an awful past,
Love can be yours, you'll see at last;
To feel that love, it makes you sigh;
To have it leave, you'd rather die;
You hope you've found that special rose, '

Love never dies a natural death.
It dies because we don't know
how to replenish it's source.
It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals.
It dies of illness and wounds;
it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings.

...Ravi


http://www.whereincity.com/articles/relationships/6975.html

i saw a rainbow earlier!

it was so beautiful that i wished i could just stood there hours and hours being mesmerized by such a spectacular phenomenon being so carefree, do nothing. think nothing.

what made me really disappointed was not guilty for not studying, when i know i should.

indeed, i was so disappointed that i did not get to capture a picture of the rainbow when the sky decided to pour and the rainbow just vanished like that. JUST LIKE THAT! ='(

just a question to ponder.
how many times a week do you actually try to slow down a lil', putting aside everything, forgetting all the hassles and hectic routines you've been doing all along and just look up the sky, being captivated and lost in your own fantasy?

i bet none.

as stupid as it sounds to be, i do.

in fact, many times when i feel so miserable, like a lost soul walking down the road i would stare blankly in the sky. after awhile, i could take a big sigh of relief. the feeling is great.

i feel so aimless, so hopeless and all the -less, you name it..

i hate it when emotion strikes.

i hate it when i feel so lazy and tired that all i wanted, is lying on my bed do nothing.

it seems i'm allowing the time to pass me by without doing anything productive or should i say doing things that would beneficial myself or anyone at all.

tired i am.
sleep i shall
and fail i would

i may sound funny to say this or perhaps even lame..
this morning as i woke up, many things running through my head..
nenek's voice kept playing like a scene without sound, rewind playback rewind playback
at one point i really thought that, why not i just take a break? it's only one day, and im gonna study hard later in the evening.
another voice kept telling 'sukwai, if your gona remain like now, you'll regret one day. if you choose to escape school today, your gona failed in your stpm."
and then, patrick's message just came on time asking to get up and wash face, and i did. i really did. OMG. so the story ends here. so lame. hahahaha.

what i'm tryna say, this morning is like a wake up call for myself.
as i reflect on what i'd been doing over the past years, or maybe let's make it shorter, the recent five months. did i put in any effort at all to achieve what i've always wanted? or did i just talk the talk, had all the great plans in my mind, but did i actually practice what i preached to make a difference? what had i been doing for the past months? the answer is pretty frustrating. i'm so disappointed with myself.

when i chose my path to come f6 a year ago, i told myself; sukwai, you ain't gonna be so lucky thinking that your gonna score in stpm if you set your mindset unchanged like how you used to be in f5. if your not gonna put in extra efforts and be committed in your studies. don't come f6.

what i told myself, i'm gonna change. i ain't gonna be this playful anymore and i'll be serious. but what i see, i should be angry with myself that i did not live up to my words. i failed to keep my words.

sometimes, all i need is a push button to start. i'm a complete oxymoron when come to self-motivation. it's easy for me to try to inspire others to change for the better, but when come to myself i need others to inspire and push me. i do feel that, no one can achieve something really great alone. we need each other. everyone needs somebody and feels like somebody.

i don't wanna be so depending on others to give me that drive of force, but i just cant help it.

and i do come to realize that, i have to be selfish. friends may come and say, "well if you need me i'm always there to help you out". you can have a great time together; sharing laughters, sharing pains. finding the best solutions to solve every of your friend's problem when they come to you, but none of us will actually worry or even being concerned of our friend's future. it's an abstract thoughts, i don't know how to say it. the point is that, you gotta allow yourself to be selfish, shutting yourself completely from everyone, allow yourself to have some time alone; focusing on studies that kinda thing. nvm, i'm bullshitting already. better stop now.

i wish i had enough wisdom..
or a little wiser..
to know what to say
to have wisdom to say all the right words
i don't wanna screw up my speaking.
it makes me feel so small, feel like a fool
i can be crappy, but when it's time to be crappy; i'm just so lost in words.

but i guess..
everyone's good at something.. in their own special way.

i don't know if i can do it or not whether in terms of speaking, studying or whatsoever- but one thing or another, i guess i really have to go nuclear this time. not holding out any more barrel. hoho

i'm given one last chance to prove myself and i shouldn't let it slipped away once more. some people are just born to be so smart that they don't even have to try so hard to achieve their dreams, while some people have to try and keep trying so to achieve their dreams. don't know what to say. continue next time. should, really SHOULD PROCEED TO THE BACK AND STUDY NOW. HHAHAHAHAHAH

it only hppns in fairytale, but no harm fantasizing about it aite? wakaka

wahahaha... i realize i didnt know how to express myself here in my blog anymore.. i just find it so difficult.. anyway.. i'll just type what comes to my mind first, so let's do this tag

5 characteristics of your dream guy?

*gentleman- im just so allergic to gentleman. it's the first criteria and top in my must have-bf's list. simple act like opening the doors, helping you to carry stuffs, waiting hours and hours for me to get ready without whining, keep his bad habits like cursing or shaking legs, LOL to a minimum while around me is good enough and at least do everything within his power to help and care for others not just to me alone, in short a guy with a big fat heart. a guy who's nice to everyone and not a hypocrite. a guy with an open mind that green eyed monster doesnt even have a place for it.

*a guy who tells bedtime stories and yet fell asleep himself. LOL. it's just so hard to find someone who's willing to tell you bedtime stories, feeling so childish and stupid but yet for your sake, he'll do it and watch your eyes closed, he'll kiss your forehead and walked away silently. yea, even if it's late and he knows he gotta go home, but he'll stay by your side just to make sure everything is okay. awww, sweet =p

* i want a guy who spend many of his first times with/for me, pulling down his ego to its minimum just so that i get what i desire with certain limits of cos, like allowing me to drive illegally, massaging me, tying my hair, play masak-masak, allow me to cut his hair, beard and moustache using a big scissors, digging the ear with zero experience and many many more.. oh yea, like being stopped by police twice and yet we escaped through it and still could laugh out loud saying 'damn.. this is fun!'

*honesty is the best policy. being honest, sincere and true in a relationship is the utmost important criteria. i mean, what's a relationship without all these? what's it left for the both of you if you don't trust your partner, judging them in every possible way? i believe that it's never an easy task to be honest with each other, telling and knowing everything what's on each other's mind, taking in their good and the bad ones. i want a guy who's not afraid to express what he feels and wants, considering how she feels that kinda thing.

* and last but not least i want a YES MAN. a man who says yes to every of your reasonable needs and treats you like his world. a man who never fails to be there for you during your darkest hours. a guy so caring and loving that he'll do anything just to see you smile. Like, planning some surprises just to see the girlfriend smiles and happy, forgetting all the hassles :) a guy who's modest in his speech, but exceeds in his actions, a man who walks the talk and keep every of his promises.

5 characteristics that you have never like in a guy?

* Green Eyed Monster - when jealousy reigns so much, it'll kill a person eventually
* Headstrong - so hot tempered and stubborn that i don't need another clone of mine. LOL. don't want to create history, being the first one to cause volcano errupt in M'sia
* Lalang - a guy who has got not characters that whatever the girl says, will always be a yes although it's not right.
* Dominant - a guy that doesnt allow you to do this or that and controlling you. Go to hell. haha
* ASSHOLE - make empty promises

5 feelings that you have when you’re out with the one you admire?

* flying. LOL
* happiness comes naturally to you
* hence you'll never have enough of spending time together with the one you love
* you find it sweet
* us against the world, you don't see anything else and wished the time to just remain like that.

5 places that you want to travel with your loved one?

* beach
* waterfall
* outdoor activities like scuba diving, kayaking or any other adventurous activities, would be great
* langkawi, go kart
*aussie, play bungee jump. HAHA

5 things that you would give to your loved one?

* splatta love
* lotsa care
* countless smiles
* memorable moments
* i'll give my all

5 songs that you will sing to your partner?

* halo- beyonce
* fall for you- secondhand serenade
* us against the world- westlife
* westlife songs are great
* woo ahh oink? LOL

friends that you want to tag?
Babi. oink oink. haha

the steamboat personality quiz

the steamboat personality quiz

What kind of season will you enjoy eating steamboat?
A. Winter ( To Qn 2) B. Summer (To Qn 5)
C. No matter what season (To Qn 1)
1. Do you like to have some sauce on your food?
A. Like (To Qn 2)
B. Don't like (To Qn 5)
2.. Will you add eggs in your steamboat soup?
A. Yes (To Qn 3)
B. No (To Qn 6)
3. If you find a cigaratte butt in ur steamboat food, what will you do?
A. Quarrel with the boss and request another new one. (To Qn 13)
B. Stop eating and just pay and go. (To Qn 10)

4. What is the main point ypu will consider for choosing a steamboat restaurant?
A. Famous ( To Qn 7)
B. Reasonable prices ( To Qn 8)

5. If the steamboat restaurant has a new product of steamboat, will you dare to try?
A. Yes ( To Qn 6)
B. No ( To Qn 8)
6. How many people do you like to have your steamboat meal with?
A. 2-3 soulmates ( To Qn 9)
B. A big group of friends ( To Qn 3)
7. If the steamboat restaurant is very crowded, will you wait for a seat or go to another place?
A. Wait ( To Qn 11)
B. Proceed to another one ( To Qn 12)

8. What kind of food you like to add?
A. Noodle ( To Qn 9)
B. Vermicilli "Tang hoon" ( To Qn 7)

9. Will you drink the soup first or finish all the ingredients in the bowl then drink the soup?
A. Drink the soup first ( To Qn 10)
B. Eat the ingredients first ( To Qn 12)
10. If the boss tells you that you must add some SPECIAL and ODD ingredient in the soup to make it more delicious, will you dare to add?
A. Yes ( To Qn 17)
B. No ( To Qn 13)
11. Will you drink a cup of cooling water after you finish this steamy hot meal?
A. Yes ( To Qn 15)
B. No ( To Qn 14)
12. When you are having your steamboat, do you put in your meat first or put in later?
A. Put it once the steamboat start ( To Qn 15)
B. Later part then put ( To Qn 11)
13. Do you like to put all types of food at one go into the steamboat or have it put in one type by one type?
A. All ( To Qn 17)
B. One type at a time ( To Qn 16)
14. What drink will you like to go with your meal?
A. Oolong Tea ( To Qn 16)
B. Plum juice ( Type A)
15. Do you like to have steamboat at home or outside?
A. Home ( To Qn 16)
B. Outside ( To Qn 14)
16. Will you mind if another customer is standing behind you, waiting for you while you are finishing your food?
A. Mind ( Type B)
B. Don't mind ( Type C)
17. You are already very full with your meal but the boss offer to let you have another steamboat meal, will you eat it?
A. Yes (Type D)
B. No ( To Qn 16)

RESULTS....
TYPE A
Shy, a bit of an introvert. You are more stubborn and like to stay alone quietly at home. To you, talking to strangers is a hard thing so you have not much friends. But you will still have some soulmates. You need to treasure people who care and love you. You are more interested in your own matters, you will try your very best to achieve your target. But you can't do everything alone, and just depend on yourself, learn to open up and accept other opinions. Try to get along with different people.

TYPE B (apparently i'm type B. LOL)
You are a more active person, drawing a clear line between happiness and unhappiness. You are more quick-tempered. If you encounter things you like, you will do it without second thought. But once you encounter things that you hate, you will wish to get out of it as soon as possible. As you are a person of your own views, the friends you tend to have will be of the same pattern. But once good friends, you will understand them a lot and go all the way to help then. Friends are very dependent on you. As you are too emotional, you may make a storm out of a teacup with your friends. You must learn to do things in order and not give up easily. You can try making friends with those you don't think you can get along with, don't stick with the same category. This will make you more popular and charming.

TYPE C
Gentle like a lamb. You have a high level of adaptance power, easy to get along with people. Very popular in social life but seems that no one will talk bad about you. You hate to have conflicts with people so you
always try to adapt to everyone. You treat every person differently. To look at the bright side, you adapt easily. But to look at the dark side, you lack of character, although you are one big nice guy but you lack of charm. On the surface, you have a lot of friends but once you have troubles, you lack of soulmates to help you around. You must try to express yourself more and be more decisive. In this way, you can understand yourself more.
TYPE D
You are stubborn, like to go in circles and don't get to the point. Once you decide on something, no one can change your mind. You are a good leader in a group so you win a lot of trust from your friends. But as you
are too persistant on your own thinking, you neglect other people's suggestions therefore you can easily make enemies. Although it is good to maintain your own character but it doesn't mean you totally ignore other people's thoughts and feelings. You will let people think you are hard to handle and you will lose friends gradually and may end up alone. You need to learn to accept other people's opinion. This will make your social circle bigger and you will understand yourself better