one desire.one dream.one destiny

the title best describes what i want to write now.

i don't know how and why, but it strikes me today.

i want to travel! i want to get out of this holy place! i need a break! and i want to go to Japan!!

out of nowhere, i have this thought of going somewhere far and seriously i need a long break after studying for like since-don't-know-when-ming's dynasty-i-guess. it's time to spread ma wings right after ma SPM exams!

i was so happy discussing with ma friend about it and i even phoned ma mum's god daughter, (who is actually ma god sista as well) to ask for her opinions. the first thing she said was


" It's good you have such planning. For now concentrate in your studies, then grab any chance to work and finally reward yourself with a trip. Set your mind, and go all out for it. i'll support you. "



it's good to know that someone is there for you and support you. but then, when you are about to spread your wings, someone comes and breaks your wing. what hurts the most is the one you thought would have supported you ended up being so passive about it.


"LOL. Waa, stop dreaming so big la"

The moment i stared at her and said " i'm using ma own money, why can't i go japan? i'm not dreaming. i'll make sure it'll turn into a reality. just wait and see."

BANG.

i could see her expression changed from 0 to 360 degrees! instead of finding it funny, she was so guilty! HAHA

i'm not blabbering nonsense here. can't she believe that it is possibly true i might achieve what i want in the future? c'monla, have faith in me. maybe i used to be a spoilt brat, but not anymore. i'm 17, for heaven sake and after years of learning the rules of life, i think i'm strong enough to stand on ma own small feet. why can't she let me try, for once?

i hate it when she keeps complaining about me not being matured enough to take up responsibility, but when i really did try, she refused to let me go being afraid i might not be able to cope up with it. her intention was good, but that's not the way. i would never learn then.

i've set ma mind. by hook or by crook, next year april i must go japan. i don't care if i have to sacrifice not buying a handphone or not going for the kem cabaran. or whether i have to starve maself in school or to help ma mum in the stall every weekend. as long as i get the paid and collect the amount of money i want, that's it!

the experience is something worth sacrificing for. besides, i can prove one thing to ma mum, i'm not only good in talk the talk, but i'm determined to walk the talk. if there's such thing as walk the walk, i'm going to prove to all you who said i can't. besides, i need to work on ma diet. graduation coming! i have to lose weight. i MUST lose weight! =)



there's one thing i love most about ma sista. she's the most understanding person and no matter what ma decision is, she'll support me. besides, she often do things at the appropriate time and she's the most loving sista ever!

i just cant wait to grow up and repay ma family with the best thing i could afford, for they deserve it!



Quotes to share: Following our dreams almost always requires us to take chances. There is no guarantee that we will succeed in our venture. But if we don't try, we will never know how far we can go.

You can if you think you can- board of wisdom 5/9/07

word of d day: benevolent =)