my day today?
besides having a bad time in school..
i have a VERY bad headache.
it's like the red indians decided to come and have a slumber party in my head..
and they are dancing till there's no tomorrow..
the "beating of drums"
or big GIANT having the time of his life..
stomping his feet,
probably throwing a tantrum.
and this sick feeling is all coming back to me now,
i don't have the slightest idea why it happens..
i don't like it..
why can't you just leave me alone and back to where you belong to,
back to hell?
this is...
painful.
*on another note:
sometimes we are never satisfied with what we have in front of us till it's gone huh?
never satisfied, never contented.
i feel really dry inside.
arghh
Monday, March 30, 2009
love every word written. xD
This is a master piece. If you have not read it take the time to read it now. If you have read it take time to read it again!
GEORGE CARLIN (He recently died)
Isn't it amazing that George Carlin - comedian of the 70's and 80's - could write something so very eloquent...and so very appropriate.
Message by George Carlin:
The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...
Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.
Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.
Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.
Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away. xD
George Carlin
GEORGE CARLIN (He recently died)
Isn't it amazing that George Carlin - comedian of the 70's and 80's - could write something so very eloquent...and so very appropriate.
Message by George Carlin:
The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...
Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.
Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.
Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.
Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away. xD
George Carlin
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Nothing much to do.
was so sick of doing anything at all, happened to blog-hop and found this...
pretty funny. haha
The Eating Quiz
Here is the analysis:
You've made your way well in this world despite all the obstacles you've had to faced. You have survived a lot more troubles than most people. You have had to deal with difficult people, ridiculous rules, and tempestuous relationships.
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
Here is the analysis:
Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.
Suk Wai, get up. never stumble, never fall and most of all never give up! you can do it! oooshh xD
was so sick of doing anything at all, happened to blog-hop and found this...
pretty funny. haha
The Eating Quiz
Here is the analysis:
You've made your way well in this world despite all the obstacles you've had to faced. You have survived a lot more troubles than most people. You have had to deal with difficult people, ridiculous rules, and tempestuous relationships.
Love for you can be as intense as the fire on the face of the sun. You are either very calm on the inside when there is a lot of insanity going on around you, or you shut people up and take charge. You can go to a movie by yourself. You are as comfortable alone as you are with others. You are angry at your parents but you can't change them.
You are a great lover when you find that rare mate who is your equal, otherwise your relationships do not go well. Life is a roller coaster, and you are finding ways to make the good times better. You love sports.
- The most important thing in your life is a well-developed mind.
- The type of friends that you want is understanding and sensible.
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
Here is the analysis:
Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.
Suk Wai, get up. never stumble, never fall and most of all never give up! you can do it! oooshh xD
Thursday, March 5, 2009
life is a cabaret
i just realize my recent posts sounded so pathetic.
i don't know why.
maybe that's the inner me slowly revealing its truest potentials. haha
sweat.
many things had happened over the past few days, which i failed to recall any of it.
all i remember, yesterday was really fantastic.
for the first time in my life, i witnessed a 'kebakaran', a fire burning i reckon? hahah
i was so excited that it was as if i was in the movie, being a good citizen dialled the number 999 reporting what i seen. i mean the babi was conversing with the police and i was busy recording. just so funny.
but all i could say, Polis Diraja Malaysia is really hopeless. useless. all the less in the world.
no fire brigade came to pour out the fire. not even a bangkai there. real bangsat. bengang only mentioned them. bengong betoi.
and today, well i don't really know what happened to me.
suddenly the world is spinning too fast before my eyes.
i wanted to go home so badly, but as usual couldn't even reach my mum's handphone.
i really don't wanna make myself sounded so pathetic, but i coudn't stop myself.
no matter how emotionless i make myself seems to be,
the soul would have no rainbow if the eyes had no tears
i'm only a human you see, i have feelings.
i just don't like that sudden feeling where i'll be thinking,
"Where are you when i need you the most? Where?"
that sort of nonsensical question.
it's funny that one minute i'll be so hyper and the next second you'll be seeing me feeling so pathetic.
today i'll be so optimistic, the next day my mind will be filled with all the negative thoughts, being so pessimistive.
i can be so angelic, yea so called 'angelic' and the next thing i know, i've changed my mask becoming a real demon.
isn't it funny everyone of us ought to have split personalities, we ought to have two sides?
it's just the matter of whether the good one's or the bad one's gets the better out of you.
and i don't know. i'm being wrapped up in feelings of guilt for what i said and how i reacted earlier. i didn't mean to shout at you, making faces. but it just that when you are already so down, totally out of mood, all you ever wanted is someone to ask "Are you feeling better?" but instead, someone came to you and annoyed you. how would you feel?
life is like a blanket too short. you pull it up and your toes rebel, you yank it down and shivers meander about your shoulder; but cheerful folks manage to draw their knees up and pass a very comfortable night. ooosh!
i don't know why.
maybe that's the inner me slowly revealing its truest potentials. haha
sweat.
many things had happened over the past few days, which i failed to recall any of it.
all i remember, yesterday was really fantastic.
for the first time in my life, i witnessed a 'kebakaran', a fire burning i reckon? hahah
i was so excited that it was as if i was in the movie, being a good citizen dialled the number 999 reporting what i seen. i mean the babi was conversing with the police and i was busy recording. just so funny.
but all i could say, Polis Diraja Malaysia is really hopeless. useless. all the less in the world.
no fire brigade came to pour out the fire. not even a bangkai there. real bangsat. bengang only mentioned them. bengong betoi.
and today, well i don't really know what happened to me.
suddenly the world is spinning too fast before my eyes.
i wanted to go home so badly, but as usual couldn't even reach my mum's handphone.
i really don't wanna make myself sounded so pathetic, but i coudn't stop myself.
no matter how emotionless i make myself seems to be,
the soul would have no rainbow if the eyes had no tears
i'm only a human you see, i have feelings.
i just don't like that sudden feeling where i'll be thinking,
"Where are you when i need you the most? Where?"
that sort of nonsensical question.
it's funny that one minute i'll be so hyper and the next second you'll be seeing me feeling so pathetic.
today i'll be so optimistic, the next day my mind will be filled with all the negative thoughts, being so pessimistive.
i can be so angelic, yea so called 'angelic' and the next thing i know, i've changed my mask becoming a real demon.
isn't it funny everyone of us ought to have split personalities, we ought to have two sides?
it's just the matter of whether the good one's or the bad one's gets the better out of you.
and i don't know. i'm being wrapped up in feelings of guilt for what i said and how i reacted earlier. i didn't mean to shout at you, making faces. but it just that when you are already so down, totally out of mood, all you ever wanted is someone to ask "Are you feeling better?" but instead, someone came to you and annoyed you. how would you feel?
life is like a blanket too short. you pull it up and your toes rebel, you yank it down and shivers meander about your shoulder; but cheerful folks manage to draw their knees up and pass a very comfortable night. ooosh!
Sunday, March 1, 2009
fuhgeddaboudit!
just came back from the formation team weekend.
it was great having to meet all the rest again.
human's rights.
haha. funny
my mind is disturbed.
i did not even know why i allowed myself to do it, but i did it.
i did not know what's on my mind,
but all i know i made another mistake yet again.
shouldn't have done it. shouldn't be that way. shouldn't be too carried away.
but well, take it as an exposure and to remind myself never allow myself to commit the same mistake again.
that should be fine.
suddenly i feel that it is as if i have betrayed myself. LOL
suddenly i feel i did something really terrible behind my mum's back
suddenly i feel i've sinned.
hahaha
what a funny statement.
maybe i need to embrace romance in its every incarnation.
and as i woke up, mum came to me and said she'll be leaving to Sabah in a month or so.. most probably somewhere in late April.
why must it be that everytime when i am up to something important the next day, she would come telling me all these nonsense?
why must she choose to tell me today?
why must she made me feeling this blue out of a sudden?
i've been trying so hard to focus, having that ohm to finally at least study a lil'.. but now..
my studying mode is off completely.
i don't even know what i'm feeling right now.
i showed no expression, but deep inside it's hurting.
i just don't know how to show it.
maybe got too used to it that somehow i got numbed everytime i'm faced with adversitites.
what's the point of giving me so much of money when you know that's not what i want?
what's the point of asking me to take care of myself when you know that's not what i want to hear?
what's the point of telling me you'll be coming back early when you leave me all alone at home?
what's the point of trying to tell you how i feel when i know i'll put you in a dilemma?
what's the point of telling others about how you feel when all they can do is being the best counselor telling you the best thing in the world, when in fact it makes no difference whether to say it out loud or not? it doesn't help to ease the pain a lil'
when all i want in the world is to escape from this bloody earth and escape to another planet, knowing i have nothing to worry about?
see nothing, hear nothing, speak nothing.
i don't know what i want right now,
i don't know what i should be doing right now though i know exactly i should be studying now.
why waste your time reading when you don't understand?
the only people i can rely to right now is just Him, i realize.
He'll show me the way, hopefully.
get rid of this miserable feeling i'm having once more.
get rid of this gastric pain i'm having, enough of heartache..
#)*@&$^#@%$@&)*$^@*#
*praying hard
it was great having to meet all the rest again.
human's rights.
haha. funny
my mind is disturbed.
i did not even know why i allowed myself to do it, but i did it.
i did not know what's on my mind,
but all i know i made another mistake yet again.
shouldn't have done it. shouldn't be that way. shouldn't be too carried away.
but well, take it as an exposure and to remind myself never allow myself to commit the same mistake again.
that should be fine.
suddenly i feel that it is as if i have betrayed myself. LOL
suddenly i feel i did something really terrible behind my mum's back
suddenly i feel i've sinned.
hahaha
what a funny statement.
maybe i need to embrace romance in its every incarnation.
and as i woke up, mum came to me and said she'll be leaving to Sabah in a month or so.. most probably somewhere in late April.
why must it be that everytime when i am up to something important the next day, she would come telling me all these nonsense?
why must she choose to tell me today?
why must she made me feeling this blue out of a sudden?
i've been trying so hard to focus, having that ohm to finally at least study a lil'.. but now..
my studying mode is off completely.
i don't even know what i'm feeling right now.
i showed no expression, but deep inside it's hurting.
i just don't know how to show it.
maybe got too used to it that somehow i got numbed everytime i'm faced with adversitites.
what's the point of giving me so much of money when you know that's not what i want?
what's the point of asking me to take care of myself when you know that's not what i want to hear?
what's the point of telling me you'll be coming back early when you leave me all alone at home?
what's the point of trying to tell you how i feel when i know i'll put you in a dilemma?
what's the point of telling others about how you feel when all they can do is being the best counselor telling you the best thing in the world, when in fact it makes no difference whether to say it out loud or not? it doesn't help to ease the pain a lil'
when all i want in the world is to escape from this bloody earth and escape to another planet, knowing i have nothing to worry about?
see nothing, hear nothing, speak nothing.
i don't know what i want right now,
i don't know what i should be doing right now though i know exactly i should be studying now.
why waste your time reading when you don't understand?
the only people i can rely to right now is just Him, i realize.
He'll show me the way, hopefully.
get rid of this miserable feeling i'm having once more.
get rid of this gastric pain i'm having, enough of heartache..
#)*@&$^#@%$@&)*$^@*#
*praying hard
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