Listening to some bedtime songs & got my brain working out more than ever before.
Few random thoughts popped up & thought it might be a good idea to type it out.
It's already my 2nd months learning the big city, still being the kampung girl trying to adapt as much as I could.
Being given the chance to pursue what I've always dreamt of is the biggest gift from Him, so no more complains but to try every way to achieve what I've always wanted to be.
I still have difficulty in breaking down the walls I've created 2 months ago, instead of building bridges with my new life. Maybe that's part of the reason why I failed to feel the presence of genuine happiness compared to my past.
Also, there's something I don't quite get it yet.
Why can't I do what I always wanted to do instead of doing what you think is right? You make me feel like crap, like someone worthless living in your shadows. Good or bad, I have the rights to do what makes me feel good instead. All I ever wanted is somebody to treat me like a princess; to be taken care of & most of all not being taken for granted. Is that really too much to ask for? Lol
You know how it feels really, to not being able to share every of your pains and happiness with the one you really wished would understand you? Cos in the end, instead of comfort you're getting pain in your heart; which screws a person big time if you really get what I mean.
Ha ha.
Say i'm irrelavent, say I'm having mood swings or immature, but I really wished we could see eye to eye in many things.
