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Friday, August 29, 2008




You Are An ENFP



The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.
You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority.
Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller!

In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart.
You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. You break a lot of hearts.

At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do.
You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding

When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused

What's Your Personality Type?

Although i have no idea what an ENFP is, but it's sorta fun.. there was once my friend named me the storyteller for i talked too much and called me lame for being too emotional. haha! well, this is me. either you hate me or love me for who i am. HAHA

A memory lasts forever, and never does it die. True friends stay together and never say good bye.

well, she strikes me and i decided to blog about this friend of mine for she made an impact in my life. hehe

it's true that friendship is like a tree. it's not measured on how tall it could be, but on how deep the roots have grown.

i have friends whom i swear i've known them all my life, but they never seem to be the right one.

back in the year 1997, i was so naive that i thought a best friend is someone who sits next to you, laughs together, and basically the two of you do everything together. that's what i meant by best friend.

heck, i was so wrong.

i don't want to write too much on what this 'best friend' of mine did.. all i can say is she left me feeling scattered into pieces for years.

until the year 2002 arrived, god i tell you. this was the turning point of my life. up to now, even when i reminiscence on what has happened, it brought back so much laughters and joys. i couldn't stop smiling to even think of it. *big grins*

Bella changed my life.


she showed me what friendship is really about.

she showed me i can trust a friend. i have a friend and i can be a friend.

she opened up my heart.. so much i tell u!

i shared so many of my first times with her.

and i learned to say what i want to say, not being afraid what others think of me.

i remember vividly how we would sing and sing in class. (and our favourite song back then was The Day You Went Away- M2M)

how we would laugh at each other and teasing other people if their hairs were not right on that day or if their voices were annoying worse then a cow..

how people hated us for being so childish; screaming our lungs out and how we would get so excited even for the slightest thing.

the dream white car we promised to buy and share with our savings.

aiyo, so mushy! i'm feeling so sad already.. haha

it's funny how we clicked the moment we got to know each other. i'm just so glad to have found a friend so true that i have Him to thank for.

many times in life, when you don't seem to be getting the thing that you have always wanted, it doesn't mean He's playing a toll on you. it simply means your time is not right yet.. just wait a lil' longer and you'll have it eventually.. perseverence we call it. =)

ok, back to what i was saying earlier.. haha.

i don't know how to elaborate further, but i feel so bad and guilty everytime i talk about Bella.

i still remember what a GOOD FRIEND i was to her.

to shoot her right on the face telling i don't like the changes in her and i expected her to change for my sake. how selfish was i?

i wasn't aware that to be a friend, you have to accept them for who they really are and do not leave them in times of need despite all the consequences you faced.

i made a mistake. i made so many mistakes by dumping her when i wasn't happy with the changes in her. i should have known better that she has a life, i have mine. who am i to tell her what to do. who am i to bitch about her to her mum. gosh, just screw me.

nostalgia is not what it used to be.

but i am glad that i did not lose her despite all the stupid mistakes i have made. eventhough our paths are different now, she's someone i call my friend. a true friend.

thE tEst oF fRiEndsHip dOseN't cOmeS wHen u R 2GethEr. It cOmEs wHeN u ParT waYs & u ReaLizE tHat dEsPitE tHe dIsTanCe, thE fRiEndshIp iS sTilL tHeRe...
(received this sms from one of my friend. haha)

this friendship is something i'll hold onto despite all the odds that might happen in the future, for i'll never ever let go again..never..

the times we shared is like a shooting star, the time is really short but really beautiful moments. i have engraved all the memories we shared in my heart like forever ! haha

cehh.. sounded so pathetic. so lame.

but i've lost too many things in my life that sometimes, silently i'll just pray to Him and tell Him that it is enough of me losing so many important people in my life. i can't afford to lose anymore. HAHA

It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them. She's one of the friends where i am able to be my trueself, to reveal my true colours. i can say all the crappiest and stupiest things one can have thought of and still i'm feeling good about it, stil i don't feel malu. i can tell her straight on the face 'eh you look so ugly today' and there's no hard feelings or whatsoever for we can laugh at it and say 'yes i know.'



imagine 40 years to come, when our golden years have finally come. all the white hairs or simply too stress with the family that our heads eventually get bigger by years like some idiots! HAHAHAHAHAHA

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

*yawn*

i am so sleepy right now.

i had the shocked of my life when i looked myself in the mirror just now. i looked so terribly OLD. OMG! too much of late nights i guess... haih

*depression mode*

mum said good kids sleep by 10pm, but you know what? because i am *ehem.. superbly good kid..i'll sleep at 8pm sharp tonight. as soon as it strikes 8pm, i'm off to bed!

*exactly 17 minutes from now

anyway, CARYN LIEW and TEH WEN YEN; I LOVE YOU BOTH!! HAHA

Monday, August 25, 2008

"Hard work often pays off after time, but laziness always pays off."

the quotes of the day said so, and it did ring a bell!

i was caught by mrs. ratan to stay back and to do her maths exercises, but it was just fun. i enjoyed every moment of it coz i noticed i could actually answer most of the questions! i feel so smart suddenly! muahahaha. and mrs. ratan is superb, she's very nice and she smells good! haha.

apparently, i walked with Wawa all the way to the bus stop under the hot sun! it was so fun la. i feel as if i am like a kampung girl who tends to get too excited and talk too much.. way too much.. taking a ride back home with the public bus, having to walk all the way, gets so sweaty.. but you feel pretty good about it. it was one of the helluva cekap-ing experience in F6, i would say! muahahaha

anyway, i learned something new today. the right way to eat durian. LOL

to make it short, wrapped the durians in a plastic bag, and put in an air-tight container.. and the most crucial step; PUT IT IN A FREEZER BELOW THE TEMPERATURE OF 0°C!! HAHAHA..

and tadaaaaa... the next day you try to eat the durian of yours see, it tastes like eating ice cream!! free from colouring, preservatives and it's just so fresh! it's a real durian you know, not the artificial durian or whatsoever they call it.

psstt.. additional information: my house now seems like a jungle, filled with durians, starfruits, rambutans, duku langsats, mangoes, papayas and my all time favourite FRESH COCONUTS!!!!!! i love my mum la, haha.. but she doesn't want to buy banana for me. sigh

Sunday, August 24, 2008

i make a promise to myself that i won't be coming online that often already.

adios amigos. haha
♫ C: good kisser (mmmmmmmmm. LOL)
♫ H: stick to one (i buy this point =p)
♫ A: hot (i thought imma cold blooded animal? haha)
♫ N: loves to laugh and smile (yes yes! cehhh)

♫ S: makes people laugh (hahehihohu)
♫ U: is loved by everyone (ehem..)
♫ K: crazy (you la crazy. i am so normal. muahaha)

♫ W: very broad minded (what's the opposite of 'broad' ah?)
♫ A: hot (i feel cold, u doink!)
♫ I: is really sweet (*cough.. sweeter than sugar! muahahaha)

Thursday, August 21, 2008

not gonna write much.. 6.15am already. shot


look at the small kids. ain't they're just so adorable? LOL

wall-e, the movie was nice.
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later, went straight to The Aberdeen for lunch while celebrating Muresh's birthday.

i wonder if the guys are insane. people usually say HAPPY birthday during someone's birthday, but it doesn't seem to be that happy anyway. should i say MISERABLE birthday? LOL. pity the poor guy, kena rumbled like really omg. haha

watch the video



the evil's pose after succeeded in rumbling the birthday's boy *shakes head. haha

phone runs out of battery during emergency. wasted only didn't get to snap MORE pictures. haha

now is 5.25 am and i am still waiting for the darn video to load. aiyo so mushy!

hmm, a lesson learned:
in the future i dare not to judge anyone based on what i think anymore.. i am really suck in judging a person. who am i to judge a person whether he is good or if she's terrifying. all i can do is try to wear their smelly shoes, get to know them before i even start commenting.

sukwai, change it! haha

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

today i spent two hours to clean my abandoned study room aka store room. it feels good to be able to see my room so clean and tidy once again.










can you see the vast difference? anyway, while cleaning many things popped into my mind.

there's something i would like to share (yea i know i sounded lame..but nevermind. i am born to be lame. haha)

when you want something so badly, you just don't seem to be getting it. whereas when you try to loosen a lil', it'll eventually come to you.

sometimes, it is best to know less than to know too much because it'll leave you feeling so disappointed. the most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious.

there's nothing certain in this world no matter how sure you are now. years to come when you look back at the things you hold onto so tightly, you'll laugh at yourself for being so silly.

i found all the motivational notes i wrote to myself and i just couldn't stop giggling.

i looked back at all the resolutions i made myself to accomplish, but...

sad to admit, but i have no determination.

now that the room is finally clean, i do hope that i won't be seeing myself coming online that often already coz if i do, it means i failed to study. i failed to control my temptations. i am so dead when school reopens.

and i couldn't stop eating milo la. uwaaaa. but it tastes good. try to mix it with water and put it in freezer. hahaha!

Monday, August 18, 2008

nw is already 3.41am. i don't know why i am still alive. i couldn't sleep eventhough i am so darn worn out. i just don't seem to be lying flat so soon yet. oh my god. please help me

Sunday, August 17, 2008

this morning, the first thing i did was humming the Camelot's songs. funny isn't it? i still couldn't get over my mind that the drama has officially ended yesterday. sigh.

it was indeed sad but i had the best time of my life working with so many people as a team, as a production team or should i say we are all friends now. i've made so many new friends of which i realized they're superb duper cool people to be friends with. if only i am allowed to say "i love you all..!" hahahahah

everyone has gone nuts! screamings, shoutings, cheerings, laughings and you know all the WOOs AHHs at the backstage.

even ms corrinne decided:



speak-see-hear-no-evil

it was so happening. if one thing i regretted, i would say " why la the drama ended so soon?"

all the people i did not know, whom i thought will never get the chance to talk to, and those i thought was shy or maybe too serious; i was so wrong then! one word to decribe it all: they're fantastic!

anyway, yesterday i had a really great time snapping pictures and chatting with all my friends; whether if it's new or old friends.. they just brightened up my day!

just to add in a lil'.. thanks to one, two and three monkeys for you know.. walking all the way, coming back and to perform some monkey's show, being so sporting.. and not forgetting another two cows who's just so moo moo. hahaha. it was very sweet of you guys although sugar is still sweeter compared wit.. *urm urm* LOL. anyway, thanks for the memories.



i really did enjoy myself that night, i mean all the 5 nights.. hope you people enjoyed as much as i did and yea.. it's just the beginning of something great, forget bout the end of the drama we're back to the old us. NO WAY! =)

Thursday, August 14, 2008

i feel rather sad today.

my own friends said i am annoying ever since i become a prefect.

my friend stared at me and gave me a kind of look as if i am some asshole being involved in the 9/11 attack or have committed some serious offences which i should have been put into jail straight.

and even a donkey whom i barely know praised me with harsh words.

they are saying things that are not fair.

it hurts, but to think of it there's nothing to fear because i feel i'm no wrong.

try to be in my situation and see how you would have reacted.

try to live in the moment. in order to create a better life down the road, this is the time for me to reevaluate myself.

sigh.

gotta go already, have to get ready to school.
current time: 3.29pm
current mood: HUNGRY. depression
current song: take a bow- rihanna
current thoughts: mummy, when's lunch ready? i'm starving to death!

pochi la. i've not taken anything yet, except for a packet of kacang putih which tasted a lil' funny.. and up to now have only eaten a few slices of pineapple and how could i forget my banana as ermn.. appetizer! haha

while waiting, here's a few pictures that i couldn't stop LOL-ing everytime i see 'em.. it makes my day! haha..


ganesh morthy aka old man

ganesh shouted: merdeka! merdeka! merdeeeeeekaa!
negaraku..
tanah tumpahnya darahku



zhen fai aka donkie

zhen fai said: aiyo, snap closer la.. look at my pretty face.. cheeze
sara said: yea.. you look like some escaped hamster. LOL
zhen fai replied: but ain't i look cute?
sara: rolling on the floor laughing


everyone so sporting. hehe


and i just love this picture, the effects are nice and look at my class rep, he's so photogenic aka acting kawaii-nesh. haha


(haf tp play wif adobe photoshop already.. updates soon.. thanks to the lazy hormones in my body, feeling so lazy right now..)


random facts of the day: do you know that CHAN SUK WAI loves perfume? i bet you don't, know you know. =)

Wednesday, August 13, 2008



this is the only video i think is presentable. the rest of the videos, all thanks to zhen fai for crapping nonsenses

so i think it is best remained as private and confidential. haha

anyway, we did enjoy ourselves to the maxi today. it was superb duper fun la wea.

couldn't stop giggling and LOL-ing.

will be uploading all the funny pictures soon. hee

heaven's gate wide open awaits me.

ciao

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

i am feeling so sad already.

tomorrow is our last day going out to sell tickets.

this coming friday, saturday and sunday will be our last day preparing for the drama.

all the shoutings we got from ms. corrinne as if there is nobody's business, and how we would get so scared and sweaty just to make sure we don't get into hot soup again.

i wonder, after everyone has put on a great show. what's left for us to do?

no more staying backs, no more rushing like a mad cow. no more trembling, no more playing at the backstage, no more commenting on people and most of all, no more laughing out loud teasing each other if their costumes look funny on them or if their lips as thick as a chilli sausage bun or simply some look like bapoks from thailand. LOL

tomorrow will capture more videos. hehe

these memories are playing like a film without sound already.

sigh

Monday, August 11, 2008

oh my god. i am so happy now that i actually got up from my bed and decided to come online eventhough i am so darn sleepy. but i am so excited. hehe

sometimes great things happened when you least expected it.

i am not gonna tell what it is, coz is solely personal.. but all i wanted to reveal; i just received a call from someone i least expected and it made my day..! i mean night, sorry.

hahaha

lalalala

Saturday, August 9, 2008

sit back, relax and we present to you the Camelot

NOT YET.

after everything has ended, will upload all the pictures.

for now, please get a ticket either on Friday, Saturday or Sunday..

bagi support sikit la and you'll know what the fuss is all about. hehe

now let's move on to.. ermn

full dress rehearsal...


sorry for the bad video quality

and what you don't see in front, it's a total chaos behind the stage! haha



credits to kok weng for this video. hee

enjoy and see you! tee hee

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Courage is about doing what you're afraid to do. There can be no courage unless you're scared before you do it.

It is your attitude at the beginning of a task that determines success or failure.

Don't wait until people are dead to give them flowers.

Don't let your pride or lack of courage stand in the way of saying you're sorry.

Never stop doing your best just because someone doesn't give you credit.

It doesn't take strength to hold a grudge; it takes strength to let go of one.

I would rather make my name than inherit it.

Measure your days by how the corners of your mouth turn.

The best way to make your dreams come true is to wake up.

I've been trying to find the word that says what I need to be in life.

"Brave' is the only word. It's the only thing that I ask myself to be.
take note of this PC-GAMER SHOP! never ever come to this shop to repair your computer or whatsoever. their services are bad. like really bad.


the first time i sent my computer for repair, they were superb friendly and nice.

whatever questions i asked, (tonnes of questions actually) they did not hesitate to answer, even if i repeated the questions over and over again.


after the third or fourth time, which wasn't even my fault. the CPU itself was having problem over and over again and all this was due to their unprofessionalism in repairing computer.

anyway, they were so unpleasant to see my face already. if only they have a broom with them, i guess they would have shooed me away. ha ha

look at the old lady, she's a witch! does she have a common sense? she whispered and bad mouthed me, and thought i was deaf? i was not bothered of what she said, but of how she said it.

and the workers, they were being ignorant and rude.

no matter how annoying i was, i am still a client and i reserve all the rights to get the best services.

the old lady is just a cow! i'll never ever step my foot in her shop again, NEVER!

WELCOME? haa, SAYONARA la.

in fact, i found out that RED. COm wasn't that bad. RED.COM fares better compared to PCG. the workers far more hospitable and kind compared to PCG. the cows did not even help me to carry the CPU at all. you carry yourself la. tarak gentlemen at all. that's why they are cows!

* now i pray and i hope that they don't get to see this post, otherwise i'll be sued for condemning them, but it's the fact. just accept it

terrible thursday

i am sad and i am rather disappointed with things that happened and with the people i always thought is my friend.

i don't know.

i just feel so sad.

i don't mean to make a big fuss over a small matter, but this is me. i can't help but to just pour it all out.

Dear Bloggy,

people say nothing is impossible, but i possibly do nothing every day.

and i am not happy with what i see in my friends, their reactions and changes in them.

i have friends changing into someone seeking for fame and just want to be well known. is having the authority to control people is really that important that you have to be so fake to your friends, saying things which you do not mean it? trying to be nice to everyone. is being famous make u a happy person?

is this the reality of life where you do not even have one person stands by you, sharing what you feel and remain true to you no matter what the odds or what crap the world tells you?

did i actually brag too much that i am getting back all these now? i have no idea what kind of a person i am towards others, because i can't judge and i can't reflect myself.

i take friendship seriously, and maybe that's why it is killing me softly now. (i think) i am a friend what others call a friend. maybe i care too much, or maybe it's my attitudes that put them off. but when i treat someone good, i treat them whole-heartedly. i don't mind putting myself second and have to sacrifice for someone i considered as my good friends, so long as i feel they are worth being treated this way. i treasure all my friends and i want to see them happy. i know it sounds stupid. people that don't know me think i am fake, but people that do know me should know what kind of a person i am.

anyway, i don't know if it's a bad omen or what and i don't know if i should consider myself as lucky or the other way round. i was chosen to be the secretary of everything i joined in school (except for the heritage; only by name) which i seriously did not expect to held any post at all. i mean this and i am not bragging. i know i am blur, but when you are given the responsibility to do so and a chance to prove yourself, obviously you'll just grab it whether you think you are capable or not because i believe it can be moulded.

but what i noticed, people that i consider them as friends. my close friends were not happy about it and in fact making faces and being so sarcastic. i don't know..i just feel so sad. and disappointed. acquaintances making all these gestures, i don't even give a damn. but when come to my friends doing it, i feel rather disappointed.

small matter i know.

must i come to a stage where i just have to be so selfish, to think all about me, me and me alone not bothering what shits are happening to others? i am not saying that i am not selfish. i am selfish in many ways. if your being selfish for the beneficial of others or just to protect yourself, it's ok. but if you are selfish and envious because you cant afford to lose to others, cant bare to see them succeed and will do anything even to harm them just to get what you wanted, isn't it just too much?

i just want to fight off this fuzzy and uncomfortable feeling I am having right at this moment.
Lord, please help me. ='(

haha. when i am feeling rather so down, i came across these funny phrases;
***

I love your smile, your face, and your eyes

Damn, I'm good at telling lies!

***

My darling, my lover, my beautiful wife:

Marrying you screwed up my life.

***

I see your face when I am dreaming.

That's why I always wake up screaming.

***

Oh loving beauty, you float with grace

If only you could hide your face.

***

Kind, intelligent, loving and hot

This describes everything you are not.

***

I want to feel your sweet embrace

But don't take that paper bag off of your face.

***

My love, you take my breath away.

What have you stepped in to smell this way?

***

Love may be beautiful, love may be bliss

But I only slept with you, because I was pissed.

***
My feelings for you no words can tell

Except for maybe "Go To Hell".

***

Roses are red, violets are blue, sugar is sweet, and
so are you.

But the roses are wilting, the violets are dead, the
sugar bowl's empty and

so is your head

***

What inspired this amorous rhyme?

Two parts vodka, one part lime.


it makes my day! tee hee



Wednesday, August 6, 2008

ar tha paa vi =D

i'm in a languid mood now, so not gonna elaborate much on it.

let the pictures do the talking. =)

look at the CPU. this is the result of sending it for repair, now getting worse. aihs

have to turn it upside down, so the fan doesn't get too hot, coz if it does; it'll shut down completely. whaddaheck?

nice isnt it? fashion we call it. haha.

on and off, mum been sending me to the computer's shop for like three, four, five times not forgetting all the embarrassment she got because of me.

first is the sound device, then for reformat, then is the dunno what AGP card having problem, then is the mouse and now is with the printer.

just shoot me to death la. hahah

that's why i love my mum. eventhough she's *tuut* but she's stil the best mama. haha. this is what a parent could sacrifice for their kids.

*thumbs up

Saturday, August 2, 2008

ok. so i have failed my maths. i got a 26%! omg. hahaha. for the first time i failed in my test. so humilifying (learned this word from the Head. haha) i was not even qualified to get a D. haha. sigh.

do you know that Chan Suk Wai loves eating egg? LOL. thank god i did not get an egg in my maths.

forget it.



see the night view? haha. mum and i were actually lost.

heck, bercham is so BIG!


were searching for the fruit's shop, but ended up.. got lost for no reason. haha



this is something intereting..

seems nice aite?

dinasour egg. ad for your information, this plum costs RM5

but it's superb yummylicious wea.

that's about it. ahakz