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Monday, March 28, 2011

B A D A B O O M

i had a great weekends spent at home.
Ah, dolce far niente!
oh, before i proceed further.
meet my first ever best friend, Bella!

It was a worthy trip back to Ipoh.
we went all the way to Subang to get the
Japanese Pudding from RT Pastry House.

what more can i say?
perfect moment with perfect companion.
& i spell p e r f e c t o

pretty isn't it? hehe

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

hey!

Sapa, that lil' mountainous town of Vietnam!
you know what happened?
go find out if you don't.
the Supermoon rare phenomenon recently
http://scienceray.com/astronomy/the-blue-moon-phenomenon-that-is-happening-now/
along with the megathrust earthquake that hit Japan,
left us clueless with what He has planned for us, no?
frightens me a lil' to ponder, the what ifs
quoted the entire excerpt from Caryn's blog ;D ;D
Life is just too short to be taken for granted. How am I gonna live my life differently?What can I do that makes my life worthwhile? Knowing that I've wasted so much time doing things of no value. Time that cannot be replaced. Have you thought about it? What if you die tomorrow? Or wake up bed-ridden due to some unplanned accident. Makes you think of whether the things you do each day are really worth it or even worth doing. Ask yourself, before you start the day, if today was my last day on earth, would i be doing what I'm about to do today?

i miss us.

 2003

2005

hui min sent me a message in facebook and asked me out.
we met in midvalley today.
i was so excited to meet her because i thought she had forgotten me.
we'd lost contact for almost 5 years already.
just a random hi and bye.
that's it.
i was nervous because i thought it'll be different this time.
you know, to re-connect with your old friends whom you barely talk to for years.

the best mirror is always an ol'friend.
the minute i saw her from afar,
i ran towards her & we hugged.
no hesitation or whatsoever.
bonded just like that.
we talked. we laughed. we smacked each other & it was epic.
reminisced alot about our silly past.
with bella. indeh. & jo.
but one of the many things we talked about,
a mistake i'm still regretting,
for calling my best friend a bitch
& judging her for the person she has become,
when all i really should have done,
if i'm a true friend;
is to accept her for the way she is
& being a supportive friend.

all i really wished right now,
5 years, 10 years or even 20 years down the road;
we could gather together & had fun like we used to.
friends forever.
& so they said.
ps: & have another complete picture of us taken ;)

Monday, March 21, 2011

:S

hello.
i'm sorry but i'm afraid you will have to read another emo post from me again.
the hormones have been doing their job; making my mood swings up & down.

this week itself i've broken down thrice & it's only Monday for god's sake.
i failed miserably.
too often i hear them say;
you never know what you have until its gone
but sometimes they do,
they just thought they'd never lose it

i have had lost someone precious to me once.
& miracle did happen to me once.
i got back what was once so dear to my heart,
but i took it for granted & treated it like a trash.
now i'm on the verge of losing it once more,
& this time that'll be forever..

i need to pause for a moment.
tears streaming down my face again.
damn, im so weak.
fml

Friday, March 18, 2011

a funky day turned out to be a funny one

i started off my day with anxieties accumulated in my body.
misplaced my exams docket & ended up late for exams.
no time for prayers.
flipped through the questions,
super duper difficult.
fingers crossed.

on a very unrelated note,
i get confused.
yet to determine who's what and who's not.

back to the title of my post,
here's a very funny conversation with Patrick aka he claimed himself as a GeNiUsTan.

Me: hey since u so free, let me ask u a simple question to prove whether youre a real genius anot. is CHICKEN a male or a female?
Pat: Chicken is a female la of coz. Hoho
Me: Haha. so confident punya. u sure with ur answer? ask ur frens c. 
Pat: no need to ask. it's a very general knowledge la. chicken is a female!
Me: ok. now let me ask you, is human a male or a female?
Pat: it's neither female or male. human is homosapien. lol
Me: ok. so what makes you say chicken is a female then? gotcha! lol
Pat: chicken is female cos male is called rooster or also known as cockerel. lol. got urself! :-p
Me: how bout hen then? got you back! haha
Pat: hen also another name for male la. that's why i said got lotsa callings. depends on area. some ppl call diff way. :-p
Me: amma. your general knowledge sengeted punya. mother never teach u hen is a male chicken la. it's a female!
Pat: haha. very funny. i'm not working in food industry. there's no need for me to be so specific anyway. :-p
Me: haha. funny la you babe. x mau kalah punya. lol
Pat: haha. yeah yeah. very funny. i said got many callings wert. so i din lose also. hoho
Me: check your dictionary pls. mau argue plak =.=
Pat: ok. i lose this time. haha

see, this is what happened when you have a very strong headed bf.
he talks about logics and reasonings all the time,
but this time i got my facts right,
so it turns up to be very entertaining for me to see how he brings his reasonings to argue with a fact =p

Friday, March 11, 2011

someone told me long ago
there's a calm before the storm,
i know
it's been coming for some time.

tons of dead sardines clogged the California marina.
whatever that is happening in Libya now,
the ILI outbreak in Pulapol
& now, tsunami cum earthquake is taking its toll on Japan, hitting Hawaii, Indonesia, Philippines and etc..

when it's over, so they say,
it'll rain a sunny day,
i know,
shining down like water.
another stronger tsunami, perhaps
with the help of its good friend, Hurricane Katrina
gonna swept the entire human folks into the black hole.
(myth-metaphor)


it's only the beginning of the Year 2011,
isn't 2012 yet,
now i'm afraid to know what the future holds for us.
no certainties.

when everybody else in the world is doing their mundane routines,
complaining this & that,
the other part of the world is running for their lives
wishing if they could have the chance to live for another day.

take this as a wake-up call.
starts to look at the people around you,
people that matters to you.
have you taken them for granted?
will you still wanna chase after unnecessary things?
if you were to know,
things could change overnight.
like what's happening to the world now.
at anytime of the day, anywhere of the world, anything could happen.
bad lucks pick no one.
it just happened.
sometimes there's no next time, no second chance, no time out.
it is now or never.

as lame as i could be,
i don't feel like striving for what i'm currently doing anymore.
just wanna be home with my family & friends.
i feel like going home.
this place, feels so strange to me.
up to now, i couldn't adapt myself 100% yet
not even 70% close.
sighs

i'm a B-rated friend,
i don't know how to entertain you
or to be a sweet loving friend.
i don't know what's the right words to use,
cos too often, i got on everyone's nerves before i realize.
fail big time.

so random.

LOL =.=

Thursday, March 10, 2011

random thoughts

sometimes i cant stop to ponder,
life's really a bitch, no?
it's never fair especially in the game of love.
but this game is not something that can be measured,
how much i have sacrificed for you & how much i have to receive in return,
to make it equals.
it's a selfless act.
give without expecting anything in return.
but then again,
i can't help but to feel a slight disappointment in me.
why when you are my priority, everything i am ever willing to give up for you;
but only to realize i'm your second best?
that you rather allow your conscious mind to take over your heart?
stop feeding me with logics, cos it ain't gonna work on me.

i don't know what the other women out there have in mind,
but for me, i'd rather have a sweet loving bf/husband/or whatever-that-is,
to put me first before everything else.
not chasing after wealth, fame, career or etc..
the only thing i ever asked of,
is to be loved whole heartedly by the man i love,
no more space for other bullshits.
it's not about buying expensive gifts that makes me happy, it's the efforts put in that count
it's not about collecting a lump sum of time to make it for the time missed being together,
but every second, every minute of it that matters.
stop putting up excuses saying you're tied up with this & that; or you have no time at all, when all i really want is just some quality time together.
is it really too much or just me being too demanding?
i try not to be too sensitive about every lil' thing, but to try to understand the situation you're put into & suck up whatever unnecessary emotions that i am not supposed to reveal,
but one day i'm gonna burst because you know how much i hate bottling up everything without given the chance to express myself.
maybe one day you'll watch me leave because after all, you'll realize you have had enough of all this bullshit tolerating with me.
& maybe one day i'll not be afraid to be myself anymore, the person i used to be.
a heart makes of rock.
all i really want is to be myself,
doing what i like best,
having the chance to express what i really want.
life's never perfect.
life's a BITCH!
but if you ask me, how would i rate my life right now?
my answer is simple, i am happy with what i have at the moment, only that there's too much of emotions in me waiting to spill out.
no one's born a perfectionist.
so don't judge me.
HAHA

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Letters to Juliet

Dear Claire,
What & If,  
are two words as non threatening as words can be.
But put them together, side by side,
& they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life.
What If?
I don't know how your story ended,
but if what you felt then was true love,
then it's never too late.
If it was true then, why wouldn't it be true now?
You need only the courage to follow your heart.
I don't know what a love like Juliet's feels like,
a love to leave loved ones for, 
a love to cross oceans for,
but I'd like to believe, 
if I ever were to feel it,
that I'd have the courage to seize it.
& Claire, 
if you didn't
I hope one day that you will.

All My Love,
Juliet

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Girls Just Wanna Have Fun!

uploading videos & pictures pissed me off enough to stop me from blogging!
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