When too much of studying, drives a person.. no. two, three persons going cuckoo in the library. LOL

& so i finally got the green light to post this video up.. check it out. ;D :D

on a boring day like today, at least there's something to laugh at & not all studies and sleep nie. it'll be really dull. need to seek for more entertainment like this, to ease off any unnecessary bad stress xD

Take time to read..

Life is made up of years that mean nothing and moments that mean it all.
You're born, you die, and in between you make a lot of mistakes.
Have you ever heard a song from so long ago with so many memories tied to it that it made you cry?
And didn't you wish that you could go back into time when everything seemed so much simpler and carefree?
Those are songs that are the soundtrack of our lives..
the ones that bring back childhood memories, best friends, first love, first heartbreak.. the memories.
Every new day is another chance to change your life.
The hardest years in life are those between ten and seventy.
The times in life, that seems to be the worst, always turn out for the best!
Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.
Take chances. Tell the truth. Date someone totally wrong for you.
Say no. Spend all your cash! Fall in love.
Get to know someone random. Be random.
Say I love you. Sing out loud. Laugh at a stupid joke.
Cry. Get revenge. Apologize.
Tell someone how much they mean to you.
Tell the asshole what you feel.
Let someone know what they're missing.
Laugh til your stomach hurts.
LIVE LIFE!
If you can't solve it, it isn't a problem - it's reality.
And sometimes reality is the hardest thing to understand and the thing that takes the longest to realize.
But once it hits you in the face you'll never forget it.
It will always be there in your memories and sometimes that is the best way to look at it.
Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.
Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have or could have had.
No one waits forever.
Sometimes the littlest thing in life changes something forever and there will be times when you wish you can go back to how things used to be but you just can't because things have changed so much.
You only live once, so do everything twice.
In your life, you meet people.
Some you never think about again.
Some, you wonder what happened to them.
There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you.
And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do.

There are no mistakes in life, only lessons.
The greatest risk in life is not taking one.
Tomorrow is a blank page, just waiting to be filled with your dreams..
All you have to do is be yourself and live the story of your own unique life.
Be proud. Be confident. And most of all be happy.
The journey in between what you once were and who you are now becoming is where the dance of life really takes place.
Live with intention. Walk to the edge. Listen hard.
Practice wellness. Play with abandon. Laugh.
Choose with no regret. Continue to learn. Appreciate your friends.
Do what you love. Live as if this is all there is.
I wanted a perfect ending.
Now I've learned the hard way that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, or end.
Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's to happen next.

There's a point in life when you start to realize who matter; who never did; and who always will.
In life God doesn't give you the people you want, instead He gives you the people you need.
To teach you, to hurt you, to love you, and make you exactly the way you should be.
Don't fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things.
The saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have.

Rock bottom is good solid ground, and a dead end street is just a place to turn around.
Cherish your yesterdays and dream your tomorrows,
but most importantly, don't forget to live your today's.
Sometimes you gotta stop and remember that your not gonna live forever.
Be young, think smart, stay true and just follow your heart.
Half of life is fucking up - the other half is dealing with it.
Every story has an end, but in life every ending is just a new beginning.
Somewhere along the course of life,
you learn about yourself and realize there should never be regrets,
only a lifelong appreciation of the choices you've made.
Eventually all the pieces will fall into place, until then..
laugh at the confusion, live for the moment and know that everything happens for a reason.
So I'm just thinking about how much I don't want my life to be boring.
There is so much I want to do and so many places I want to go - but I don't really think it's ever gonna happen.
I just don't wanna be one of those people who work somewhere they hate or live somewhere they don't want to live.
But I feel like I'm gonna live here forever and not get a chance to see everything I want to see.
I feel like my dreams are to unrealistic.
Someone asked me, the other day,
that if I could change five things about my life, what would I change?
My answer: nothing. this is who I am, who I'm meant to be.
I love being me; even when I'm feeling crappy and I hate myself
I wouldn't change a thing.

The hardest part of life is having to let go of your fears,
and facing the facts: you can't always get what you want,
life isn't a box of chocolates, and your favorite TV series will always have a crappy ending.
When life locks you in your room, simply go out the window.
Once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale.
As time goes by, life has a way of rearranging itself.
People enter your life, and inevitably, they leave as well.
Things have a tendency to happen that can turn your world upside down.
You’ll come to realize eventually, that even though things are different, you are as well.
Life isn't about keeping score.
It's not about how many people call you and it's not about who you've dated,
are dating, or haven't dated at all.
It isn't about who you've kissed, what sport you play, or which guy or girl likes you.
It's not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school.
In fact, it's not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not.
Life isn't about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it's not about how accepted or unaccepted you are.
Life just isn't about that.
But life is about who you love and who you hurt.
It's about how you feel about yourself.
It's about trust, happiness, and compassion.
Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence.
It's about what you say and what you mean.
It's about seeing people for who they are and not what they have.
Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else's in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise.
These choices are what life's about.
We can never turn back the pages of time, though we may wish to relive a happy moment,
or say goodbye just one last time,
we never can, because the sands of time continue to fall, and we can't turn the hourglass over.
Never forget yesterday, But always live for today..
Cuz you never know what tomorrow can bring,
Or what it can take away..
Tears are sometimes an inappropriate response to death.
When a life has been lived completely honestly, completely successfully, or just completely, the correct response to death's perfect punctuation mark is a smile.
Not a second passes..
When you're not on our minds..
Your love we will never forget..
The hurt will ease in time..
It's just hard to lose someone, no matter how much or little it meant at the time.
Sometimes they take people, and they don't say why,
sometimes people leave and they never say goodbye,
sometimes there are no second chances to say I love you,
sometimes there are no next times,
sometimes you lose someone and you feel like your heart has followed them to heaven and sometimes there is just nothing you can do to make the tears stop.
Sometimes, no matter how much faith we have, we lose people.
But you never forget them.
And sometimes, it's those memories that give us the strength to go on.
Sometimes you have to forgive someone just because you want them in your life.
If it happens, God lets it happen,
and when we say, I don't understand,
God replies, I don't care.
Contemplation often makes life miserable.
We should act more, think less, and stop watching ourselves live.
It's hard to accept, but you can't change the past.
You can't go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen.
Because life'd be meaningless and boring and just not worth living.
But you can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life.
Yes, you will make mistakes.
And yes, you will have bad days - but as long as you let the past go, you'll have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of you.
Knowing that things were meant to happen.
Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person.
Life is like a rope, twined in all its complexities and yet weaved into one marvelous stream that you have the chance you use something amazing from. So grab hold of it.
People change.
its a part of life, but sometimes its easier to hold on to the memories of who they were..
rather then to realize who they have become..
Life doesn't hurt until you have time to yourself to think about how things have changed,
who you've lost along the way, and how much of it is your fault.
Sometimes there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay.
Sometimes change may not be what we want.
Sometimes change is what we really need.
And sometimes saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you'll ever have to do, but sometimes it's saying 'hello again' that breaks you down and makes you the most vulnerable person you'll ever know. Sometimes change is too much to bear, but most of the time change is the only thing saving your life. REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.
If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.
Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, martini in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming "WOO- HOO what a ride!"
Don't run through life so fast that you forget not only where you've been but also where you're going.
If you have ever lost someone very important to you, then you already know how it feels, and if you haven't, you cannot possibly imagine it.

At times I wish I could change the past..
but sometimes the past changes you.
Some things in life are either taken way too seriously or not serious enough.
So why worry so much about our everyday problems.
I mean there is only so much time to be alive but plenty of time to be dead.
So live every day like it is your last.
Take way too many pictures, laugh too hard and love with all your heart.
Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass..
It is all about dancing in the rain!
Things happen in your life that will not go your way, they will not have the ending you hoped for and you will probably be disappointed..
but don't try and change these things..
instead.. remember them for next time.
Life comes without guarantees except..
Laughing will brighten your day, smiling will enhance your eyes,
and falling in love will change your life.
We live in a wonderful world that is full of beauty, charm, and adventure.
There is no end to the adventures we can have if only we seek them with our eyes open.
I used to think that death was the hardest thing to overcome. It's not.
It's hard comparable really. Death is final.
You watch the casket be lowered into the ground and you mourn, but you eventually get over it.
It can take years and it hurts like hell, but it's final.
that person is gone and there is no fear of a repeat.
With attempted suicide there is no finality.
Nothing hurts more than someone you love trying to end their own life.

Heaven's not a place that you go when you die it's that moment in life when you actually feel alive.
The sun is somewhere shining even when it rains
It's not how tragically we suffer but how miraculously we live.
When someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure.
Perhaps they are not stars in the sky,
but rather openings where our loved ones shine down to let us know they are happy.
Most of us go to our grave with our music still inside of us.
Life and death are balanced on the edge of a razor.
I believe Disney movies hold the key to life.
They hold every answer, if we only took the time to look.
We can learn more from that talking crab in the Little Mermaid than we ever could in this corrupted world.
And more than anything I believe in happy endings.
The sun's gonna shine and the rain's gonna fall, but that's life
so dance in the puddles and bathe in the sun.
At the end of the day, just smile and it will all be okay.
It takes both rain and sunshine to make a rainbow.
When it seems like everything is wrong and will never be right again
remember even the darkest nights must give way to day.
There can be no rainbow without a cloud and a storm.
May your life be like a roll of toilet paper... long and useful.
Life is too short so.. Kiss Longer.. Laugh Harder.. And smile Sweeter...
If I could relive my life, I wouldn't.
Cause everything I've done, I've never once regretted doing them.
And everything I am is everything I was meant to be.
It doesn't matter what you write about somebody after there gone,
it's how you treat somebody while there still there.
Life is like a coin, you can spend it anyway you want but you can only spend it once.
Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment,
and making the best of it without knowing what will happen next.
Be thankful for hard times in your life.
Try not to look at them as bad things, but as opportunities to grow and learn.
God saw you getting tired, and a cure was not to be.
So he put his arms around you, and whispered, "Come with me."
With tearful eyes we watched you, and saw you pass away.
Although we loved you dearly, we could not make you stay.
A golden heart stopped beating.
Hard working hands at rest.
God broke our hearts, to prove to us, He only takes the best.
From this point on in my life nothing is ever going to be the same.
Nothing can ever be the same.
I don't want anything to ever be the same.
Life isn't supposed to make you feel happy.
It isn't meant to make you feel sad either.
It's just there to make you feel.
A few of the best things in life..
Laughing so hard your face hurts.
Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
Friends. Knowing that somebody misses you.
Not everything's gonna be picture perfect..
Things sometimes take time and have rough times to get through..
Before you can get there but if you give up on things you want,
everything you've gone through ends up being completely worthless.
Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future,
stop figuring out precisely how we feel,
stop deciding with our minds exactly what we want our hearts to feel,
sometimes we just have to go with the flow and just enjoy life.
Sometimes things happen in our lives that tear us apart inside,
but if we don't learn to look past them and see the sun shining above the clouds,
we will forever be standing in the rain.
Just hit play and watch my life fall apart.
Just when you think things can't get any worse, they do.
I've learned that life is like hour glass sand.
Sooner or later, everything hits rock bottom,
but all you have to do is be patient and wait for something to turn everything back around.
Everything in life is temporary, because everything changes.
That's why it takes great courage to love,
knowing it might end anytime but having the faith it will last forever.
Don't let the darkness of the past cover the brightness of the future.
Sometimes our trusting hand that guides us through life won't always be there,
and that's the time when you really grow up and face life for the first time.
But that hand will always be close by.
When life is too crazy, and things are moving too fast, look to the constant stars..
and remember, like them, our love can last.
Ever wonder how your life would be right now if you had the power to go back and change even just one small thing?
Life is not about what I've done, what I should've done, what I could've done..
it's about what I can do and what I will do.
Every passing moment is a chance to turn it all around.
Life is full of surprises, but you have to open them hoping for the very best.
Experience is the worst teacher; it gives the test before presenting the lesson.
So many times, life is unpredictable.
You'll have bad days, and good, and really in the end, the only thing that matters is whose still there by your side.


so begins to add a splash of color across the face of the earth today! ;D 

Bonjóur December!

hello hello!
somehow or rather, i managed to get lazy & squeeze my leisure time here in the blogging world.
University's life been nothing but hectic!
well, no complaints on the mundane life i'm having..
but more updates on my university's life..
well, college or university college.. blaa..

November is a superb busy month for myself
i almost do not recognize myself anymore.
cos everyday is either busy coping up with midterms, practical exams, assignments, quizzes or presentations.
ohh, have i told you how well i did my practical exams?
POS was excellent.
Cafe, well.. screwed it. i broke the glass! in conclusion, i did not do well. ;D
now comes the most crucial part, kitchen practical.
the one's i have had restless nights worrying & praying for the best.
have to either cut a chicken or a fish & well god must have mercy on me, i was given fish.
basic cuts were CEKAP except for the fact that i was too slow in turning potatoes.
mayonnaise was a WOW! ;D
the rest was history.
except for the fact that, my thumb was numb & back aches for days.
my inner voice asking me to stop nagging already ;)


moving on, i did my last assignment whole night & never felt this much of satisfaction before.
well, thanks to my lazy bones or i wouldn't have to stay up being a zombie.
& have both my index fingers bear the consequences of typing too much overnight.
but it's too late to look back & ponder at the mistakes i've made.
only could push myself to look forward & put in extra efforts instead of being so lazy. i need help seriously. ;)
managed to sleep at 7am but being woken up by my housemate because she overslept. it's not that i find it funny to see people frightened or something, but it's so rare to see a person who's always so calm, came to me with tears in her eyes ;p *smacking myself.

as this semester, my first ever semester is coming to an end, i am so looking forward for holidays already! it has been a fruitful four months, learning as much as i could.
from a person who barely knows what beverages from alcoholic to non alcoholic are all about,
to the kitchen operations; where i now know how to cook variety of dishes & even to cut the whole chicken. eew ;p ;p
i have no regrets.
of cos no regrets, how often do you find David Beckham, Barack Obama, Wilber Pan or Edison Chen- look alike under the same roof?
we have politician to footballer and even singers. wasaiii. i wished i have pictures to prove my statements.
dont believe me, well you can always drop by & pay a visit to my college. it's on the 11th floor ;p

last but not least, i got this book from my Malaysian Studies lecturer, Mr. Warren.

i never knew he has written so many books! i always thought he is one funny man with a deep understanding on his subject, but i never knew.. i love his class. it's always fun to see a lecturer with his animated story telling that always come with sound effects like "puuutt puuutt.. bish boom kalaboom"or something like "eh, ah kao sei jor"which means "eh, ah kao die already". LOL

another last picture of the day..

hey, do you see the rainbows?

“Life is like a rainbow. You need both the sun and the rain to make its colors appear.” 

“God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, sun without rain, but He did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears, and light for the way.” 

GOODBYE, NOVEMBER! see you again next year! whee

be my savior!

dear bloggie,
daytime, everything seems so normal
but when the day gives way to the night; that's when all the problems started.
i cant help but to complain all the time.
ranting over the smallest issue in life.
im such an asshole, no?

if you were to lend me a pair of sympathetic ears,
would you mind to open up my eyes to see the brightest side of everything instead being blurred by the vision i created for myself to see?

if there's only one question i'm allowed to answer without fear,
i would definitely want to say this with no offense, especially to the Big Boss up there..
for every breath i'm taking, it's suffocating me so slowly.
true, life is like a rollercoaster ride up & down
i started not to recognize myself & missed seeing the old me
now look what happened to myself?
i'm always so grumpy, pessimistic and the list goes on & on

i don't see myself smile & laugh as often as i used to
but tears & sorrows have been my comfort recently.
that's so not healthy.
i'm getting more & more sensitive that in another words,
i'm getting more desperate in craving the attention & concerns from the people that matter most to me, but when they don't live up to my expectations, i get so frustrated & upset.
wtf is wrong seriously? i wished i know the answer.


instead of building bridges connecting with the homosapiens out there, i'm building walls
instead of accepting people for who they really are, i''ve set a standard & expect them to live up to my standard.
i used to take pride in all the things that i do.
right or wrong decisions don't matter, i'm happy about it.
but now, i always have doubts & think too much of everything
tell me what's wrong really?

a friend of mine told me i did not learn to enjoy the present moments in my life, because all the joys & happiness, i left it back in my hometown.
another friend of mine also told me that, i'm still in the process of learning to adapt myself to the new environment; an isolation phase she named it

whatever it is, i'm still struggling with my own emotions & yet to find the solutions to it; internal conflicts & so they said.

what really brings me down is the fact that this one man has the ability to pull me down to my deepest emotions, every time he's being such a idontknowwhatistherightphrasetodescribehimwhenheisbeingsoinsensitivetomyemotions. i tried not to allow anyone to influence me or to make such a strong impact in my life, but i failed. arghhhh
the best thing is he knew nothing at all;
even when i'm angry or we had a cold war or something,
this innocent kid slept through the night soundly & not bothered to dig deeper into the issue
& when i finally decided to put away my ego & make peace with this innocent kid, he replied saying 'did we have a fight or something?' i don't know to laugh or to cry ;(
simple thing you thought is a crap, matters most to me.
not the pricey or expensive stuff that you value, but is the understanding & attention given by you are what i value most, you biggest idiotic moron! arghhh. babi btoi!

i wanna enjoy life as much as i could, be the person i used to love. be my savior, pls? ;D

:(

The same old dreams have been haunting me over and over again. How annoying.
Woke up with tears in my eyes again & it ruined my day.
What does that mean really, if you'd been having the same dream of losing someone close to your heart?
Shopping heals me.
Wasted alot of money tryna be a Santa claus, but I felt happy.. Well, at least half my day spent was happy & the remaining day was.. Terrible
Emotions wrapped myself feeling all the negative thoughts in mind. It's suicidal.
Fear of rejection. Failures. Loneliness. Yada Yada
Shit la you, suk Wai
I needed lotsa loves. Lotsa attention. Lotsa everything which I could barely feel all these recently. :(
On the bright note, in less than a month I'll be going home! At least there's a reason to smile again. Sighs
I wana have my cheesecake. My mcflurry again. I want my mum's cooking! I wana hug my dog to sleep. I want Patrick sings to me again. I wana go home! :'(
*sick of myself being so emotional all the time


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Special Day

wow!
guess what's so special about today?
it has been two years.
TWO SOLID YEARS!
so much have changed over the years
from acquaintances, merely even saying a hi & bye,
to where we are today, wow. i'm impressed!
this man, just like any other ordinary guys out there
but this special one managed to make my life extraordinary with his fairy's tale life he made me feel.
being apart made me realize how important it is to treasure what i already have, not to take things for granted, because you never know when you might lose it.
& it only makes clear of one truth that if the person you're in love with, really that special one you wanna grow old with
i've a lot to write, but in the meantime, forgive me pls.
head doing disco again.

oh & yeahh. it's weird
the sky looks so orangy today
i saw an image of a wolf-alike-clouds with a halo above the KLCC.
too much of imagination perhaps, but
oh well,
what a special day!

three more days to go & im going back Ipoh again! so excited. i miss everyone back home!