I'm a pathetic person.
Discontented daughter, girlfriend, friend, sister, student & so forth.
I failed to be a filial daughter, a pain in the ass girlfriend & most of all, I disappointed many as a friend.
Self pity has always been my favorite game for many years.
I seek for perfection eventhough I'm aware such thing never does exist.
I wana be the best in things I do & will not settle being the second best, ego consumes me.
But procrastination is what I do best.
I have the vision of what I wana achieve, but too often than not; I do not walk the talk.
I blame the lazy hormones in me, to which I have no self discipline & not putting 100% efforts, but yet I hoped for miracles, things to work out as planned.
I'm a hypocrites.
I chickened out during presentations & speaking is my weakness.
Complaining is what I do best & I'm a self minded person.
I want my wants and not needs to be satisfied or I would end up getting so frustrated.
What a horrible monster I've become!
I feel low of myself sometimes.
I secretly expect my boyfriend to understand me & pay all the attention solely to myself but I never try to live in his shoes.
I suffered from long distance relationship knowing I'll be alone & that feelings alone, kill me.
Goodbye, 2010!
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Dear 2011, Day
Too much of my bad sides, somehow I hesitated to convince myself I'm good at something at least.
For once, I have the heart for people & I believe humans are good at nature.
When I really want something so badly, I give my heart & soul into it. & giving up never exist in my dictionary.
Passionate. Sincere & naive to some.
Ohh, did I mention I might be one of the most perasan woman you will ever meet?
I'm just proud of what I have & confidence with what I do.
Annoying much?
That brings out the best in me, I guess.
I'm all hyped up.
Very optimistic
& lame if you would call that for being blessed with the opportunity to wake up in the morning the next day, smiling to myself & having a word with God as lame, then I don't mind you calling me that. :D
Sometimes I feel, I was born lucky. I'm blessed with many Lucky Stars that constantly be by my side & help me out when I needed them most, without even have to ask.
One of the brightest & precious of them all would definitely be the love of my life. Heh. Sounded so corny, I know..
But he being the special one, made me learn to appreciate life even more.
To learn about growing ups, heartbreaks, appreciations, commitments, mistakes made, responsibilities & so much more. But most of all, it's about life long experiences that I believe I'll never get a better Guru out there to teach me lifetime long.
I feel blessed. Heh
& never would I wana trade for a better life than the one I'm currently having with such a lovely family.
I spell Perfecto.
& I welcome 2011 with positive vibrants in mind.
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Dear Santa,
if you do exist I hope to see a better world living together in harmony.
No hatred but only love.
Merry Christmas & Happy New Year. Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!
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