i just done reading the fat hyppo's blog & the next thing i know, i have tears rolling down my cheek.

not because i'm sad. but because everything that she mentioned has so much truth in how i'm feeling right now.

yesterday i messaged & cried to her. i didn't know what to do & was so confused with myself.

i could not accept the fact that someone whom i trusted most, disappointed me so badly that at one point i thought to myself that i could no longer trust that person ever again. i did not wish to see that particular someone at the moment when i'm still so heated up.

don't feel like elaborating much on it anymore. well, everyone has their own story. and it's true that we can't fixed the past. neither do we like others to judge our past. so Nek, i wanted to tell you. i managed to fight against my mind & follow my heart instead to judge that particular person. eventhough i cannot let go completely, pretending i did not know. Nek, i can't reach that stage yet.

so so, here's the funny thing. don't wanna mention about my leg again cos gonna make me sound so weak. but it is decided that tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, i'm consulting the specialist. so let's end here okay?

here's what happened today.
the two Caucasians dined in again. so of cos being polite, i smiled at the guests & one of the mat salleh winked his eyes on me. for your information, that mat salleh is an old man alright. that's why i find it so funny.

next came another couple & as usual i greeted them again. guess what the uncle told me? "u so small la. you have IC already? you sure you have one?" father never teach not to judge a person based on her size. LOL! but then as i repeated the order again, the uncle told me "nah, no need repeat. i trust you" i said "no no. i must repeat in case taken wrong orders" but he said "no no. i trust you. cos you look smart. won't be a problem" ahem. coughs. hahahahahaha

so i did closing today. damn it so much of things to do. plus, have to wash the sink somemore. yucks