there is a reason for the presence of people in our lives
but there's also a reason for their absence.
maybe their presence will teach us something,
something we never thought we were capable of doing,
thus, maybe their absence will teach us to be strong & how to be strong,
that life goes on &
that the absence of someone in our lives doesn't mean the end of the world,
absence only makes the heart grow fonder.
ho ho ho ho
it's a rainy day today, nothing much to be done , guess i'll have my beauty sleep now. working tonight. ahh, lazy
Friday, June 25, 2010
Thursday, June 24, 2010
everyone should read this ;)
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality. .. in fact I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God..
"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"
His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"
"Yes", I replied.
"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.
I gave them light.I gave them water.The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.
In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.. He said.
"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.
But I would not quit.
In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would
not quit." He said.
"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant. ..
But just 6
months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave
it what it needed to survive..
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle.."
He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling,
you have actually been growing roots".
"I would not quit on the bamboo.
I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others."
He said.
"The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern.
Yet they both make the forest beautiful."
"Your time will come", God said to me.
"You will rise high"
"How high should I rise?"
I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned.
"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."
I left the forest and brought back this story.
I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Never, Never, Never Give up.
Don't tell God how big the problem is,
tell the problem how Great God is!
*caryn, sorry ah.. copy paste your post here. hehe
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Friday, June 18, 2010
Friday, June 11, 2010
Sometimes I think being brave is nothing more than hiding fear where no one can see it,
& being strong is just crying where no one sees you.
I don't tell you everything like before because you judge, that's why ;D
"Live everyday as if it's your last day on earth.
& the most beautiful thing you can actually do is to spend more time with your loved ones.
Don't even think about being far apart from each other.
Spend your 24 hours wisely.
The time you spent for tears & unhappiness already stolen off the time you should be happy
Count your blessings & somehow you'll see rainbows rather than dark clouds."
Beautiful.
Thanks, you know who you are.
It means so much to me.
On a very unrelated note, today is the opening ceremony for AppleStore in Ipoh Parade.
i feel so terrible sad cos didn't know about it earlier that there's a free woohoo box to be given to the first 100 customers. i heard the first 5 customers who queued up would get extra gifts, high chances of getting ipod, iphone. omg. so sad already. hahahaha
& being strong is just crying where no one sees you.
I don't tell you everything like before because you judge, that's why ;D
"Live everyday as if it's your last day on earth.
& the most beautiful thing you can actually do is to spend more time with your loved ones.
Don't even think about being far apart from each other.
Spend your 24 hours wisely.
The time you spent for tears & unhappiness already stolen off the time you should be happy
Count your blessings & somehow you'll see rainbows rather than dark clouds."
Beautiful.
Thanks, you know who you are.
It means so much to me.
On a very unrelated note, today is the opening ceremony for AppleStore in Ipoh Parade.
i feel so terrible sad cos didn't know about it earlier that there's a free woohoo box to be given to the first 100 customers. i heard the first 5 customers who queued up would get extra gifts, high chances of getting ipod, iphone. omg. so sad already. hahahaha
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Out of Randomness
i had a conversation with my mum yesterday while on the way to Tesco.
it went something like this:-
Me: Mii, i think hoh if next time i were to get married don't want so old nie married. If wana have baby also, before 30 years old should be good eh?
Mum: *silence*
Me: *continue* cos i think already, if i have baby before 30 years old, by right i am sixty, my children already big enough to stand on their own feet. Plus, financial is stable to support me already when i am old *laughing
Mum: You have one children enough already, girl or boy doesn't matter.
Me: Waa, Mii. If like that right, *calculating using my fingers* now i'm twenty already, by right i'm graduated, already twenty three.. waa, means left few more years nie la? yerrrr
Mum: *ignoring me* Trust me, one is more than enough already. Your body is too weak.
Me: Can adopt kids what. LOL
Mum: *staring at me* But don't know if your husband like it or not leh
HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA
it went something like this:-
Me: Mii, i think hoh if next time i were to get married don't want so old nie married. If wana have baby also, before 30 years old should be good eh?
Mum: *silence*
Me: *continue* cos i think already, if i have baby before 30 years old, by right i am sixty, my children already big enough to stand on their own feet. Plus, financial is stable to support me already when i am old *laughing
Mum: You have one children enough already, girl or boy doesn't matter.
Me: Waa, Mii. If like that right, *calculating using my fingers* now i'm twenty already, by right i'm graduated, already twenty three.. waa, means left few more years nie la? yerrrr
Mum: *ignoring me* Trust me, one is more than enough already. Your body is too weak.
Me: Can adopt kids what. LOL
Mum: *staring at me* But don't know if your husband like it or not leh
HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA HA
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Monday, June 7, 2010
hello lovers,
great day isn't it?
someone once told me,
everyday, you have a reason to smile & to celebrate life,
because today you are given the chance to breathe.
no matter how terrible you feel about today,
smile because you are given the chance to breathe.
someone also once told me,
when you are having a bad day,
stay calm. take a deep breath
because it's just another day not yours.
yesterday,
someone told me to be appreciative of obstacles in life.
cos the more obstacles He throw to you, the more He trust in you that you can handle it
God never allows His people to suffer if He knows they cannot go thru it
not necessary the people you expected them to be there for you, would be there for you when you needed them most.
but it is the unexpected people that comes to you & raise you up during your darkest hours.
& whatever that does not kill you, only makes you stronger.
very true indeed.
HA HA HA HA HA
great day isn't it?
someone once told me,
everyday, you have a reason to smile & to celebrate life,
because today you are given the chance to breathe.
no matter how terrible you feel about today,
smile because you are given the chance to breathe.
someone also once told me,
when you are having a bad day,
stay calm. take a deep breath
because it's just another day not yours.
yesterday,
someone told me to be appreciative of obstacles in life.
cos the more obstacles He throw to you, the more He trust in you that you can handle it
God never allows His people to suffer if He knows they cannot go thru it
not necessary the people you expected them to be there for you, would be there for you when you needed them most.
but it is the unexpected people that comes to you & raise you up during your darkest hours.
& whatever that does not kill you, only makes you stronger.
very true indeed.
HA HA HA HA HA
Reformatting the Heart
Tech Support: Yes, how can I help you?
Customer: Well , after much consideration, I've decided to install Love.
Can you guide me through the process?
Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?
Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?
Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?
Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are Running?
Tech Support: What programs are running?
Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.
TechSupport: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer Disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off?
Customer: I don't Know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?
Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.
Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?
Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.
Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not running on internal components." What should I do?
Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.
Customer: So, what should I do?
Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.
Customer: Okay, done.
Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from al directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.
Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?
Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before We hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.
Customer: Thank you, God.
Customer: Well , after much consideration, I've decided to install Love.
Can you guide me through the process?
Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?
Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready. What do I do first?
Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you located your Heart?
Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now. Is it okay to install Love while they are Running?
Tech Support: What programs are running?
Customer: Let's see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge and Resentment running right now.
TechSupport: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory but it will no longer Disrupt other programs. Love will eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed. Can you turn those off?
Customer: I don't Know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?
Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and Resentment have been completely erased.
Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that normal?
Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get the upgrades.
Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, "Error - Program not running on internal components." What should I do?
Tech Support: Don't worry. It means that the Love program is set up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before you can Love others.
Customer: So, what should I do?
Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your Limitations.
Customer: Okay, done.
Tech Support: Now, copy them to the "My Heart" directory. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from al directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.
Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files. Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?
Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed and running. One more thing before We hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.
Customer: Thank you, God.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Choices
i woke up smiling to myself because i had a really weird dream tonight.
i dreamt of something illogical, so childish.
but yet i woke up smiling to myself because i think it's so cute.
seconds passed me by, minutes & soon hours.
i'm still awake.
mind you, it's already near to 5am already.
i had so much thoughts in mind & was so reluctant to wake up.
if waking up in the reality is such a pain in the ass,
i'd rather sleep forever, seriously.
i wanted to blog, but no i shouldn't cos i told myself not to.
i wanted to blog cos i understand perfectly no one would ever understand me nor do i feel any better by telling them my problems.
Never tell your problems to anyone..20% don't care and the other 80% are burdened by what you have to say.
so i told myself, if it's raining outside now i'll turn on my computer.
if it's not, i'll shut up & go to bed.
but no, even if it doesn't rain i chose to on my computer cos i know that's WHAT I REALLY WANTED at the moment.
i burst down yesterday because i was left with so many choices to make.
& no. i'm not emo. i'm just feeling weak.
why do life always leave you with so many choices to make constantly, everyday without failed?
why can't it be a one-way street instead of having so many junctions along the way?
it's either you choose to go left or right,
wrong or right, you still have to move on with it.
nah, i already know we should be grateful when life appears most dire.
but i'm only human, so let me speak.
let me feel the emotions the way a normal human should be.
& no. i'm not complaining again.
but i have a question to ponder.
how would you react to this if today you're given a choice to choose only one.
something you have worked so hard from the beginning or to give it all up for the sake of your family?
i know i am selfish, very very selfish if i tell you no, i am not willing to give up for what i have believed & near to getting it already..
for whatever reasons..
not until to the stage where you have to put your family first, that i can consider.
but now, i guessed i have the answer already.
ahh, so relieved suddenly.
people says money makes the world go round.
fcuk them.
the people again.
i don't know if it's just me or happening to everyone else,
why do we humans or maybe just me, have to be bothered by what people have to say, to think about you, like seriously?
for the past ten years or more,
i have been a pretender,
living in denial.
living my life as if it's others.
cos i cared what they gotta think of me.
but recently,
somehow in a way i would say,
i found what i want
& i know what i want
but people come to me & say
"Suk Wai you have changed. you are being selfish. & that's bad"
but no, i don't think that's as bad as i thought.
yes, sometimes i am not happy about it
but it's the people again that makes me not happy.
i'm really tired of entertaining the world already.
you have no rights to tell me what should or shouldn't do,
cos you ain't living my life,
mind yours first.
i just wana live my life,
solely for myself & not for anyone else at the moment,
cos i'm tired,
really really tired;
mentally, emotionally & physically *ehem. LOL
don't say i'm stupid if i tell this to you now,
blogging does heal.
i think i can r.i.p now.
oh btw, this is really interesting.
thank You for guiding me no matter how difficult the path seems to be.
thank You for the life You have blessed me with, sincerely.
God bless everyone. hahaha
i dreamt of something illogical, so childish.
but yet i woke up smiling to myself because i think it's so cute.
seconds passed me by, minutes & soon hours.
i'm still awake.
mind you, it's already near to 5am already.
i had so much thoughts in mind & was so reluctant to wake up.
if waking up in the reality is such a pain in the ass,
i'd rather sleep forever, seriously.
i wanted to blog, but no i shouldn't cos i told myself not to.
i wanted to blog cos i understand perfectly no one would ever understand me nor do i feel any better by telling them my problems.
the wise one once quoted,
Never tell your problems to anyone.. 20% don't care and the other 80% are glad you have them.
but i would say,Never tell your problems to anyone..20% don't care and the other 80% are burdened by what you have to say.
so i told myself, if it's raining outside now i'll turn on my computer.
if it's not, i'll shut up & go to bed.
but no, even if it doesn't rain i chose to on my computer cos i know that's WHAT I REALLY WANTED at the moment.
i burst down yesterday because i was left with so many choices to make.
& no. i'm not emo. i'm just feeling weak.
why do life always leave you with so many choices to make constantly, everyday without failed?
why can't it be a one-way street instead of having so many junctions along the way?
it's either you choose to go left or right,
wrong or right, you still have to move on with it.
nah, i already know we should be grateful when life appears most dire.
but i'm only human, so let me speak.
let me feel the emotions the way a normal human should be.
& no. i'm not complaining again.
but i have a question to ponder.
how would you react to this if today you're given a choice to choose only one.
something you have worked so hard from the beginning or to give it all up for the sake of your family?
i know i am selfish, very very selfish if i tell you no, i am not willing to give up for what i have believed & near to getting it already..
for whatever reasons..
not until to the stage where you have to put your family first, that i can consider.
but now, i guessed i have the answer already.
ahh, so relieved suddenly.
people says money makes the world go round.
fcuk them.
the people again.
i don't know if it's just me or happening to everyone else,
why do we humans or maybe just me, have to be bothered by what people have to say, to think about you, like seriously?
for the past ten years or more,
i have been a pretender,
living in denial.
living my life as if it's others.
cos i cared what they gotta think of me.
but recently,
somehow in a way i would say,
i found what i want
& i know what i want
but people come to me & say
"Suk Wai you have changed. you are being selfish. & that's bad"
but no, i don't think that's as bad as i thought.
yes, sometimes i am not happy about it
but it's the people again that makes me not happy.
i'm really tired of entertaining the world already.
you have no rights to tell me what should or shouldn't do,
cos you ain't living my life,
mind yours first.
i just wana live my life,
solely for myself & not for anyone else at the moment,
cos i'm tired,
really really tired;
mentally, emotionally & physically *ehem. LOL
don't say i'm stupid if i tell this to you now,
blogging does heal.
i think i can r.i.p now.
oh btw, this is really interesting.
It is dangerous to be sincere unless you are also stupid.well well well, You are really good in this huh?
thank You for guiding me no matter how difficult the path seems to be.
thank You for the life You have blessed me with, sincerely.
God bless everyone. hahaha
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