but my heart confused me.
it makes me feel guilty for whatever shit i am doing to you.
but if i don't, i'm suffocating myself.
you make me feel worthless.
worthless of my time and advices being heard but not listened to.
as much as i respect your choice of life,
i hope you respect my feelings, as to why i do things i do.
stop running away like a child and start to pick up your responsibility as an adult.
stand firm to your decisions and stop trying to please everyone.
i'm sick of this pleasing game.
i have no issues with you, fyi.
it's your undecided-mind that i loathe.
on a different note..
few weeks back in my hometown is worthy.
i'm glad that i have finally woken up from dreamland and back to the harsh reality.
to get back on track to set my priority right again.
to know what is important and what should be excluded.
i picked up the tak-kisah attitude again for things that doesn't matter to me.
i dont wana be bothered anymore.
what matters to me?
i picked up the tak-kisah attitude again for things that doesn't matter to me.
i dont wana be bothered anymore.
what matters to me?
studies will always be my priority.
i have families to whom their hopes are relied on my shoulders.
i have a CGPA to maintain or my scholarship will be taken back.
i can't afford to screw up again, or i'll not only disappoint myself but the people that i cared for.
most of all, i have every reasons to believe that i am capable of doing if i put my heart & soul into it.
i need support from friends. good friends i'm saying.
i need them not to judge me for things i do.
no question being asked, just trust would do.
i need friends to constantly push me to work even harder so i do not lost track again.
not all works and no play i am becoming.
but there is time for everything.
time to get serious.
& time to play.
the remaining two years left would be the critical point to decide which path one's will be heading towards; the successful or the failure path.
the choice is yours.
ps,
i am no perfection either.
hate me or love me.
but stop being so fake can?
i hate hypocrites.
get.a.life.pls
LOL
1 comment:
SOmtimes its takes a little hardship and a HUGE step back form your surrounding to realise what is important to you.. it's diffrnt.. what you want,, what you need and what you get in return. its up to you which are the ones you'll want to pursue :)
dont worie kawan!! if there's nything im always ere for you! you're AWOL friend! haha
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