i feel so guilty and i feel so bad. i have got all the tips sent to me, but still i was like nevermind. trials only. i'll go all out in ma real SPM. today was ma chemistry paper. seriously, i didn't even touch ma chemistry book. not even last minute preparation. i wanted to tell ma friends that, but what's the point of telling when others won't even care and they might just get irritated. c'monla. who'll believe such nonsense, you didn't study? you're tryna tell the whole world that you didn't study yet still can score in the subjects. i don't know what is holding me back; may it be because there's left roughly about 2 more papers to go, that's why I'm acting this way or maybe because i really don't care. i don't know.
but i was so lucky. the questions that came out was exactly the amount of things i read in ma book. i hope this is not the end of it, may it stick with me till ma SPM, then i am one of the luckiest ass ever!
sometimes,, i find it extremely weird. it is like why when you really give all out, try your best to get the thing you desire, you wont get it whereas when you seriously don't give a damn about it, and you don't even have to put in any effort, but you'll get the thing. funny isn't it?

owhh..currently, i seriously hated the way she boasted. i hate it when she said 'owh. you have to thank me coz i give you the tips. it's because of me.'
c'monlah. i dont know, but before that i was so thankful that she gave me the tips, and i wanted to tell her that. but when i was about to say it, she boasted like some kind of proud chick. i hate it! i hate it!

what i learn, one's gotta be really carefully with what they speak. i know ma mouth stink, i'll try to brush it more often with colgate