sometimes i wonder if it's ma own fault that others treating me the way i dont' wish to be treated at.
funny when you are so sure of yourself, ended up you dont even know who you are anymore.
i'm not perfect. and i don't want to act like one.
i'm afraid of ma ownself when i see the true colour of maself which i never seemed to show it to the world.
i got confused thou
and i always thought when a girl in love, they're the happiest creature ever alive.
but.. i dont feel that way
i am not sure whether the feeling is true or if it's virtual..
but it hurts so badly..
i used to think egoistic people is cool, im like playin the hard-to-get game, but now i find it weird. i hate it.

heck, i have difficulties in expressing maself now