Aloha Readers!

I know I shouldn't be blogging at this hour.
But I have so much to share right now..

(it's a bedtime story for myself anyway, so don't bother reading if you don't have time. grandma's ranting nie)

A year ago,
I fell in love with the MacBook Pro.
I even dreamt of owning it one day.
& so it is decided once i got a job,
I would start saving money for it.
I had it all planned,
but of cos it didn't go according to what i had planned.

7 months ago, i told them i would own this baby.
but they said, i'm too ambitious.
it was merely a dream,
but now i proved them wrong.
anything is possible,
you can achieve whatever you desire
you could even own the world,
nothing is impossible
as long as you put your heart & soul into it.
that's what i learnt along the way.

when what others do is to laugh at your dreams,
it is possible to turn your dream into a reality.

you know why i'm really that excited right now?
it's the satisfaction that i feel right now.
so much satisfaction knowing whatever other people says about you doesn't matter
but what you have to say about yourself that really matters.

sometimes when i look at it again,
it's really funny.

i was so excited cos i got the job in Fossil
knowing i'll be so filthy rich at the end of the day.
but who would have expected,
i quit the job 6 days later?

coincidence or not,
i ended up in Kenny Rogers.
& i got the partial scholarships from Berjaya Roasters.

when all hope is gone,
i thought of giving up..
knowing it's impossible to save up the amount of money needed.
back then, the MacBook Pro was RM4k.

just when im on the verge of giving up,
i got to know the new line is coming out in April.
coincidence or not?
MacBook Pro for RM3599.
hahahahah

& so i set my mind right again.

again, coincidence or not you decide.
just when im worrying where to collect that lump sum of money

that asshole appeared suddenly & sent money to me.
& my bro in law wanted to sponsor half of my laptop money.
great.
so all i ever needed to do is to wait for the month of May to arrive.
just when i'm so near of getting it already,
something came up.
i was torn in between knowing i can choose only one.
that was the worst situation i feel i have been into.
i cried for weeks, that's all i could say.
don't wana elaborate already. im yawning here myself listening to my own rantings. LOL

to keep it short, i am really really grateful for the pains & sorrows You choose to throw on me.
now that the dark moments are long gone, im harvesting the fruits of joys & happiness. so pls. pls don't take it all away from me too soon yet. HAHA.

& you know,
i do not worship God like how the Christians would go to church every Sunday,
the Muslims would be praying to their Allah 5 times a day
nor like the Buddhists praying with the incence sticks to show their appreciation towards Him.
i only speak to Him through my heart.

but i really really do believe in the existence of God.
what i realize is that,
sometimes you might not favor the road He has chosen for you now,
but once you got thru that phase
looking at how your life has unfold before your own eyes,
that feeling is indescribable.
get what im saying?
cos that's what im feeling now, again.
LOL