random thoughts..

seriously, i have no idea what kind of a person i have become.

i don't feel comfortable with myself.

i feel so.. scared. LOL

and i hate whatever i am doing right now.

everything doesn't seem to be in the right track.

i seems to be making a fool out of myself.

i don't wish to see the old me being overshadowed by the new person i don't want to be. NEVER!

suddenly, i get so serious and i'll get so tensed up. keep whining and complaining the whole day, and i'll become so timid.

i keet reminding myself; no pouting or whining about it in the meantime. It all happens for a reason. just get a life.

but still, i'm a human for heaven's sake. i have emotions you know. lol. maybe too much of it.

i'm aware that i don't have to answer to others why i am acting this way, i just have to answer to myself. but even so, i failed to do so.

what's wrong with this world, mama?

i have no self control.

and i screwed up my maths today. the only thing i can do now is to pray really hard. pray hard that i actually pass my test. oh my god. i'm just so so .. babi. haha


just recently, i found out that i hate a guy who doesn't look at girls nor talk to girls, but will only approach pretty girls. get what i'm trying to say? so you think you are that great that every girls will queue up for you like some cheap stakes? nobody has the rights to judge a person whether he is good looking or if she's ugly. you have the rights to say what you want to say, but please don't judge a person or despise them just because you think they're not good looking or yada yada yada. i think they're just beautiful, much better off without all the "you-think you-are-smart-enough-donkies" in the universe.