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Friday, February 12, 2010

after a long chat with Nek today. i realize something myself.

i have nothing good to say at all once i open my mouth. cos all came out was pure complaints. that's it. i'm a real sucker.

sometimes i don't really know what's going on in my head that makes me say those words, but i don't wanna control what i'm about to say.

i say everything without thinking twice as long as it makes me feel better instead of keeping everything inside. i'm such an asshole.

sometimes i do get confused with myself. what do i want actually?

i'm so hard to be pleased.

so i cried again today.

i feel so lost. cos i don't know whom to talk to. everyone is asking me not to talk to anyone, but themselves. i'm confused. when i tell my sis, she's not gonna like what she hears & ended up having bad impression towards that person. if i tell him, he's not gonna understand what i'm saying anyway. but the funny thing is, everyone expecting me to tell them everything. when i do tell, the situation got worse.

i feel so weak. sometimes i feel like i'm the cause of every trouble.

1 comment:

Zulaikha Aini said...

tell the one you know you can trust the most and you feel relief after you talk to that particular person. you don't have to talk to a specific person. nobody have the rights to know unless you let them know.

they ask because they care for you. when you feel like there's no one else to talk to, rem that there's bunch of people in this world that care so much for you.

just talk to the one you feel comfortable with. maybe him, your sister or Ket En, your previous school friends or anyone. anyone will do. as long as you're feeling better.

you're not the cause for the trouble. its good to be the way you are now cos, some people, they are hypocrite. their words are sweet but their hearts are sucks! but not us, we might not good in controlling our mouth but we have a good heart. that's better ayte?

anyway, love you.