Dear As & E,
i wished you did not think that i screw up this interview because i hope you know how much i really wanted this. all i really needed this time is someone to give me another chance to prove myself, putting aside the first impression.

i was so excited about this & even got up at 2am knowing i have to board the train at 4.40am.
i know what i have to say literally.
but when i see them, questions being asked. i have no answers. i was juggling with my words & damn, i know i screwed the only chance given to shine.
i rushed to the toilet & ready to burst in tears; when my heart tells me not to. not to give up hope so early yet. there's still chance. 50/50 or maybe 20/80. Maktub you know, everything is written by one hand only & only He decides what's best for me. so i did not want to think about it anymore but i could not help myself feeling so sad. 

so i took the LRT to Bukit Jalil to meet up with Patrick who got lost & waiting for me at Chan Sow Lin. haha. i think i am smarter than him in this sense, cos at least i know how to differentiate between Ampang line & Sri Petaling. KL's life is nothing but crowd. i feel so suffocated breathing the same air in kayhell. we reached Bukit Jalil to buy the return tickets back to ipoh. took the LRT back to Berjaya Times Square & had our brunch in Kenny Rogers. i remember the last time we went to Kenny Rogers, we got so excited with the food cos the chicken was damn tasty & so was the potato. but this time, i got so dissapointed with the food though it tastes way much better than the one in ipoh. LOL. we watched the Clash of The Titans & i would say it's a good movie though it's funny how there's so lil titans. not forgetting i slept off during the movie cos god knows how tired i was. woke up only to realize reaching climax already. so wasted.

we stumbled upon this Sixty shop & found a really cheap attire. rm29.90 & the quality is good. at least, the price is good. in ipoh, the good quality ones reaching rm90>, but here i found such a bargain attire. on the other hand, this bloody Soda attire that cost me rm96 is nothing but disaster. the colour came off after the first wash & got my ten fingers poisoned cos all turned black.

as usual, our journey is not complete without visiting the Apple stores. so we went to Low Yat Plaza & Lot 10 to check out the new line of MacBook Pro released on Tuesday. i'm sooooo excited about it cos you know why? 4 months ago, i was so determined to get the MacBook Pro because i love everything about the designs & functions. near to perfection. a month ago, i decided to get the MacBook instead because it's cheaper by 1k although i do not like the design. but few days ago, my desire to get the MacBook Pro is fixed because by adding additional rm400, i got the laptop i've always dreamt of. the new line just came out on time. damn, i am so happy.

God has mercy upon his people you know & miracles really do exist. it happened to me uncountable times already. that's the reason why whenever i am faced with problems, i no longer asked Why? instead i know why. cos God has His reason for every misfortune that happened. good or bad, i know He only chosen the best for His people, for me at least. when everything seemed impossible, i do not want to give up till the last minute cos i am aware that miracle is happening to everyone. it is happening to me if i choose to believe in it. cehhh, talk is cheap. but when it happens to you, you will know what i am talking about.

adios amigos